Finally……………………

Deal…………………… Break up…………………… You always think negatively about me…………………… Only impulse? …………………… No communication…………………… This is always my weak spot…………………… I don’t know what you talked about with my friends…………………… You badmouth me in front of my friends…………………… I use you…………………… As public transportation…………………… My sacrifice…………………… I should rest…………………… But for you…………………… I sacrifice myself…………………… Tired accompany you the whole day…………………… Three days…………………… I sacrifice my brain to search for the ideas…………………… To be with you…………………… All is vacant’…………………… No result…………………… Goodbye……………………

It is late……………………

Isn’t it…………………… It should be before…………………… At that moment…………………… When he approached…………………… I give the code…………………… Respond…………………… Signal…………………… Or something…………………… So he will come closer…………………… Stupid me…………………… Very stupid…………………… Maybe this is the way he protects me…………………… Maybe there is something wrong with him…………………… And it happens again…………………… This morning…………………… And I am stupid again…………………… Oh my god……………………

So the goal must be very high……………………

Very big…………………… The highest…………………… The biggest…………………… So that is my dream…………………… To have the one…………………… From that class…………………… Good-looking…………………… Sexy…………………… Big…………………… Tall…………………… Perfect in every way…………………… Physically…………………… Mentally…………………… Psychologically…………………… Rich…………………… Wealthy…………………… European royalty…………………… We will adopt a lot of kids…………………… From around the world…………………… Then we will travel places…………………… Around the world…………………… Then we will live in the elephant sanctuary…………………… In Africa…………………… Working there…………………… Till the end…………………… That is the highest goal ……………………

He doesn’t like me back……………………

My posts I mean…………………… I like his…………………… A lot…………………… Bad thoughts…………………… Sorry…………………… But he did follow me back…………………… That is good…………………… Isn’t…………………… Of course…………………… I don’t know why…………………… But the devils strike hard…………………… These moments…………………… Damn…………………… So afraid ……………………

The thought comes……………………

Very bad…………………… They had party…………………… Three parties…………………… Three group parties…………………… They excluded me…………………… That hurts a lot…………………… Put that thought away…………………… Please…………………… Make it like before…………………… When I have a beautiful thought about them…………………… Being my friends…………………… Being nice to me…………………… Being good to me…………………… Dear lord ……………………

The news hits me so hard……………………

I think about what they did…………………… Their story…………………… Making my imagination goes wild…………………… Oh my god…………………… Help me…………………… What will happen if I join them…………………… Will the story be repeated again…………………… Will I be included in it…………………… Thx u god…………………… But if it wont…………………… And the story goes on without me…………………… I hope you will protect my heart…………………… I don’t want to be sad again and again ……………………

The news hits me so hard……………………

Makes me very sad…………………… The one who loves me…………………… Doesn’t love me that much…………………… Ii just realize now that I am jealous coz he can travel around the world…………………… With his new one…………………… For free…………………… I think…………………… Not because he doesn’t love me…………………… At first I had bad pray for him…………………… But now…………………… I have good one for him…………………… I hope for his happiness…………………… With his new one…………………… The question is…………………… He can do that…………………… Why can i…………………… Why cant god give me that kind of happiness…………………… Why god…………………… Why??????? ……………………

2 jan 18 selasa……………………

Sore ke klinik…………………… Apotek…………………… Safari dharma raya…………………… Nusantara…………………… Simpanglima…………………… Parker at baiturahman…………………… Atm…………………… Kaos robinson…………………… Solat…………………… Meet amin…………………… Pazzo pancake…………………… Eiger…………………… Soprt station…………………… Assesoris hp…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

1 jan 18 senen……………………

Turun gunung…………………… W amin…………………… Ambil motor at banyumanik…………………… Pul…………………… Sore pijet…………………… Superindo belanja…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

31 des 17 minggu……………………

At alfamart meet amin brian ibash…………………… Pasar jimbaran…………………… Meet udin1 udin2 kris desta bayu didit…………………… At camp mawar…………………… Meet rezky…………………… Naik gunung…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

30 des 17 sabtu……………………

Bank…………………… Dvd kosong…………………… Wrg…………………… Alfmrt…………………… Mlm alfmidi…………………… Sk…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

29 des 17 jumat……………………

Pg kencan eror…………………… Wrg…………………… Siang jumatan…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

28 des 17 kamis ………………

Seharian d rmh…………………… Siang wrg…………………… Cimb…………………… Took listrik’…………………… Indomrt…………………… Pedurungan nunut net…………………… Allahuakbar……………………