Dream about the boss……………….

Yesterday I see his true identity………………. Scary………………. Hunger for title………………. Lust for power………………. He is the head of this faculty………………. But he is a member in senate………………. He should not be like that………………. In the faculty level he can be above mrj………………. But in the senate level he should place himself under mrj………………. And I am shocked meeting him………………. I don’t want to meet him again………………. Yesterday I ask assistant for help………………. To get his signature………………. I hope something bad will not happen………………. I surrender………………. If I get it thx to lord………………. If I don’t, I will try again………………. If I have to meet him, then I will………………. In the name of lord ……………….

Disgusting dream……………….

That is something negative………………. Something dirty………………. Something nasty………………. And I take it out of my body………………. So it means………………. I take something negative out of my body………………. Something evil will be kicked out of my life………………. Something cruel will be casted away from my life………………. That is nice………………. That is good………………. That is what I want………………. Live positively………………. Live happily………………. With him……………….………………. With his blessings……………….

Razin……………….

Go home………………. Go to the office………………. Meet boss………………. Say goodbye………………. Go home meet family………………. Tell them the truth………………. Go picnic to pematang siantar………………. Make yourself happy………………. Return home………………. Apply rembang as you want it………………. Apply semarang as you want it………………. Apply Jakarta as you want it………………. Apply gojek as I want it………………. Take the first that accept you………………. That is the sign from him………………. That that place is good for you ……………….

Students……………….

Think them as clever persons………………. They are intelligent………………. If it is doesn’t appear that way………………. Then it is my fault………………. Coz I see them negatively………………. Coz I look at them not from their positive traits………………. This is my responsibility to make them clever and intelligent………………. To do that………………. I need to mingle with them positively………………. They need to mingle with me………………. Thus I can spread my virus to them………………. To make them as good as me………………. Or even better………………. The proud will be mine………………. And god will love that kind of stuff ……………….

Positive thinking……………….

For freak members………………. As I said before………………. I got very annoyed then………………. When they talk highly………………. And that kind of knowledge………………. As if they are the experts………………. But not anymore now………………. I will consider them as sources………………. I will assume their talk as a new knowledge for me………………. I think it is interference from him………………. I think this is his way to make me learn about him………………. Study him ……………….

So……………….

It appears suddenly………………. Out of the blue………………. If they did that………………. Disconnect others………………. Think others as beneath them………………. Assume others as below them………………. Is it a sign of cockiness………………. So………………. It is better for me to disconnect them………………. Than they disconnect me………………. I prevent myself from heartache………………. I love my heart………………. I don’t want my heart to get sick………………. I want it to be happy………………. Am I wrong ……………….

He speaks in a very low volume…………………..

And his mouth is behind the wall………………….. We cant hear him clearly………………….. Be patient………………….. He is like that………………….. So the knowledge is not to get carried away………………….. Is it………………….. I think it is the right time………………….. As I did get carried away yesterday………………….. Got very annoyed………………….. When he treated me badly………………….. Now I am calm………………….. I hope the storm will not come …………………..

It takes a while…………………..

I hope I can be patient………………….. I don’t want to get angry………………….. I know they have a lot of jobs………………….. Like me………………….. So let them work………………….. Do their jobs………………….. Just wait………………….. And it will happen………………….. You will get what you want………………….. You will receive what you deserve………………….. You will accept what you wait for………………….. And he gets closer………………….. Uneasy feeling………………….. Want more of him………………….. Hush …………………..

The group talk about religion thing…………………..

Now it is not like it used to be………………….. I got angry so easily then………………….. When they talk about it………………….. Now not anymore………………….. I don’t care………………….. In a way………………….. I am confused about what happen to me then………………….. Why did it make me that way………………….. Boiled inside………………….. Now………………….. I just read………………….. Feel nothing………………….. Maybe………………….. I will get something from this………………….. Something new………………….. A new knowledge for me………………….. I think I am stupid………………….. I don’t know a lot of things………………….. Maybe it is his way to make me learn………………….. About him………………….. To make me close to him …………………..

The call…………………..

Mrk ask for favor………………….. Then I remember mra………………….. How bad he was………………….. How he treated me………………….. It is inappropriate………………….. He is having responsibilities………………….. But he abused it………………….. In a way he is a dean………………….. But in senate he is a member………………….. So he should obey the head………………….. Which is mrj………………….. But he is not………………….. He doesn’t do what mrj want him to do………………….. That is bad………………….. Hope he realizes his mistakes………………….. Hope he gets his mind right …………………..

Damn…………………..

It is hot………………….. Beautiful scenery………………….. Then comes the naughty thought………………….. Want it for myself………………….. Keep it by myself………………….. Take it home………………….. Then………………….. Got stressed………………….. Thinking about the jobs………………….. Making article………………….. The one that mrsm want………………….. The one that I should compose it soon………………….. Coz it is based on the novel………………….. Which I borrowed from my friend………………….. So………………….. I should return it soon………………….. But before that………………….. I want to make an article based on it …………………..

Mrj doesn’t want to sign if mra doesn’t sign first…………………..

Mra doesn’t want to sign if mrj doesn’t sign first………………….. What the hell………………….. I don’t know what happen between them………………….. But it should not be like this………………….. If they had a thing………………….. They should keep it by themselves………………….. Don’t sacrifice the juniors like me………………….. What should I do………………….. Just pray………………….. Ask help to him………………….. Make them to be nice………………….. Don’t make everything complicated………………….. Make everything smooth………………….. Make everybody happy………………….. Nobody should be treated like this …………………..