sepedaan
seharian d kos
katanya thypoon
but nothing happen
false alarm
takut menghabiskan banyak listrik d kos
allahuakbar
Wednesday, October 2, 2024
but i need it so bad
but i dont want to be greedy
i am grateful that you allow me to have this one
but there is another offer
and i want that too
i want both of them
but they say i can only take one
that is so cruel
maybe you can hell me
creating miracle for me
that suddenly there is a change in the rule
that it will say i can have both of them
that would be lovely
ambiguous vagueness
if it is here then i am grateful
if i should sacrifice some then i will do it
i think there is no queue to go to his house here
if i have to go back then i must be strong mentally
as i will have the same routine again
and that is scary
for now i think that would be disastrous for my mental health
but i dont know what will happen next
and they said that he knows best
maybe he thinks that there is better than here for me
i will try to surrender completely
with no hard feeling
with no grudge in my heart
though i know that would be very difficult
that is in my mind now
maybe i will find easiness later in my life
i dont know
i know nothing
he knows all
no negativity allowed
no negative thoughts on her
no negative thoughts on him
just positive thoughts allowed in this head
about all the things around
about me
about this place
about out there
about study room
about school
about people in school
about professors in school
about friends in school
about all friends from back home that are here to fight together for the future
may he protect me from negative thoughts
i had having ones
but it is impossible not to have ones
all devils lurking in all corners of my life
day and night
awake and in dreams
scary as hell
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