It was their pray…………………………………………………

I must go back………………………………………………… Lord………………………………………………… Dear god………………………………………………… I don’t want to go home………………………………………………… Please lord………………………………………………… Change their pray………………………………………………… Let me go away………………………………………………… Allow me go away………………………………………………… Give me permission to go away………………………………………………… Make them to allow me to go away………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………… I hope you make me strong………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………… I will accept whatever your decision………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………… But if I can ask………………………………………………… I want to be there………………………………………………… Forever………………………………………………… Till the end …………………………………………………

Don’t blame others…………………………………………………

Don’t blame him………………………………………………… Blame me………………………………………………… Why did I addicted to that kind of thing………………………………………………… Stupid me………………………………………………… Idiot me………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………… He will cure me………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………… He will make disappear all the weird desires inside my heart………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………… He will make me clean………………………………………………… He will clean me………………………………………………… From all dirts inside me …………………………………………………

Meeting…………………………………………………

There are two hearts on it………………………………………………… The one want to join………………………………………………… The other doesn’t want to join………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………… If I don’t join………………………………………………… I will work here………………………………………………… I have a lot of jobs………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………… He will help me finishing my works………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………… I hope it is ok………………………………………………… There is nothing bad happen in my neighborhood………………………………………………… I hope all is safe………………………………………………… I hope he protect me and my family………………………………………………… And all me neighbors ……………………………………………………

And him……………………………..

She is very strange…………………………….. Lord…………………………….. Just caring for certain people…………………………….. Her boyfriend…………………………….. And the girls…………………………….. Lord…………………………….. Help me please…………………………….. Make me strong…………………………….. Save me please…………………………….. From bad people …………………………….. They are amazing…………………………….. The get it for free…………………………….. But they ask for more…………………………….. Unbelievable……………………………..

I heard it……………………………..

Lord …………………………….. I heard it…………………………….. I am speechless…………………………….. I cant talk to her…………………………….. I cant ask her…………………………….. I ask you…………………………….. Lord…………………………….. Help me please…………………………….. Set me free…………………………….. Send me there…………………………….. Far away…………………………….. To the neverland ……………………………………..

I find a negative one………………………………

I should find the positive one……………………………… Love from ma is good……………………………… As he said it……………………………… Ma is the number one……………………………… But it didn’t work……………………………… Lord……………………………… Let me go away……………………………… Let her know that I want to go away……………………………… Make her let me go……………………………… I want to go places……………………………… Wander all over the world……………………………… Living abroad……………………………… Working abroad……………………………… Making money……………………………… In the name of lord……………………………… I hope he bless this plan……………………………… If he allows……………………………… I will always be good……………………………… He is the greatest……………………………… But you are the best planner……………………………… But lord……………………………… I am tortured here……………………………… Inside out……………………………… Body and soul ……………………………………

He is selfcenter ……………………

The inside makes me angry…………………… Again and again…………………… It did yesterday…………………… It does now…………………… I did send my ex to school…………………… But not like this…………………… And he is also working too…………………… Ok then…………………… It is fixed…………………… Let him do it on his own…………………… Let it all out…………………… He did ask for money…………………… And he did ask me to do things…………………… As if I am his slave…………………… I did the one giving help…………………… I didn’t want he treat me this way……………………

Birthdays………………………………………

Find the positive of it……………………………………… Gathering with family……………………………………… Reconnecting with relatives……………………………………… Making the connection tighter……………………………………… In the name of lord……………………………………… I hope all positives come out of it……………………………………… If he allows……………………………………… He will bless all I did……………………………………… He is the greatest……………………………………… He will always love me……………………………………… I will always love him……………………………………… Till the end ………………………………………

Graveyard………………………………………

Why did they forbid it……………………………………… Visit it……………………………………… I didn’t ask things to them……………………………………… I did try to find positive out of it……………………………………… I send prayers for them……………………………………… I try to remember the death……………………………………… In the name of lord……………………………………… I hope he put me far away from sinful things……………………………………… If he allows……………………………………… I hope what I did is not wrong……………………………………… Before him……………………………………… He is the greatest……………………………………… He will forgive my stupidity……………………………………… He will show me the right path ………………………………………

This torture me………………………………………

Lord……………………………………… Let me taste a little bit of heaven……………………………………… Your heaven……………………………………… For me heaven is there……………………………………… In the name of lord……………………………………… I hope you bless this wish……………………………………… If he allows……………………………………… I wish you grant this dream……………………………………… You are the greatest……………………………………… You will make miracle……………………………………… You will send me there……………………………………… You will give me a person……………………………………… You will give me acceptance letter……………………………………… You will give me grant……………………………………… You will give me job……………………………………… You will allow me to stay there……………………………………… Forever and ever ………………………………………

I did heard………………………………………

It will be three pm……………………………………… I must be strong……………………………………… I must be patient……………………………………… Don’t bring lappy……………………………………… Don’t bring book……………………………………… The cell is dead……………………………………… And I think about my work a lot……………………………………… They say we will wait so it will not this hot……………………………………… Then we had lunch……………………………………… I did have my work over load……………………………………… Let it be……………………………………… Must be strong……………………………………… Must be patient……………………………………… Train it myself……………………………………… There is reason……………………………………… Why I should be here……………………………………… I don’t know what……………………………………… But I have to be here ………………………………………

I didn’t bring my lappy………………………………………

My book……………………………………… My cell is dead……………………………………… Weird……………………………………… The cell……………………………………… The battery……………………………………… I unplug it this morning……………………………………… I charge it before I go to sleep……………………………………… So it is full……………………………………… Now it is dead……………………………………… It could last long……………………………………… Very long time……………………………………… In the name of lord……………………………………… I hope he guard my cell……………………………………… If he allows……………………………………… My cell will be fine……………………………………… He is the greatest……………………………………… He will make miracle……………………………………… So my cell is not broken……………………………………… And my cell will last long ………………………………………………

his eyes wander everywhere...............................

then what i am............................... what i am to him............................... what is the position of mine in the heart............................... what is the position of mine in the life............................... in the name of lord............................... i must be strong............................... to release him............................... to kill him............................... to kill this feeling for him............................... to shoo him away............................... to shoo him away from the heart............................... if he allows............................... he will help me............................... he is the greatest............................... he will protect me............................... from bad people ......................................

their request.................................

is scary................................. is disgusting.................................................................. is dangerous.................................................................. for my future................................. in the name of lord................................. i hope i can dodge it................................. if he allows................................. he will give e a way out................................. he is the greatest................................. he will make miracles................................. he will help me................................. saving my future ....................................

you give free for others.......................

but not for me....................... what the heck....................... what the ef.............................................. just looking for perfect physic....................... just looking for the rich....................... let it be....................... i must awake....................... must do it....................... must and must....................... just pray for him to be safe....................... on the way home....................... for his life here....................... meeting a lot of people....................... as it is his nature....................... as here people are bad ........................

mrn.....................

he did the movie..................... he asks for more..................... so much more..................... shoes..................... things..................... more eats..................... boarding house..................... the words tho..................... cuts deep and through..................... thouroughly..................... deeply..................... making me scars everywhere..................... making me bleed now and then ........................

mrn.....................

mrn..................... he did the movie..................... he asks for more..................... so much more..................... shoes..................... things..................... more eats..................... boarding house..................... the words tho..................... cuts deep and through..................... thouroughly..................... deeply..................... making me scars everywhere..................... making me bleed now and then ........................

i will not chase............................

i will stay still............................ i will pray hard............................ i will wait for him to come............................ as i always choose the wrong one............................ the one who hurts me so bad............................ in the name of lord............................ lets make myself presentable............................ before him............................ if he allows............................ he will show me the way............................ how to make myself presentable............................ he is the greatest............................ maybe i already knew............................ sorry lord............................ i will do my best............................ i will try my best............................ still love you tho............................ hope you love me too .................................

the discussion is unbelievable...........................

and i forget........................... is it a blessing........................... but not so much........................... then it makes me furious to the core........................... is it the end game........................... just like the movie i watch just now........................... what should i do........................... what should i think........................... keep doing good........................... keep loving him........................... keep running towards him........................... never stop doing that........................... never stop loving him........................... never stop praying ...............................

whatever you say............................

all you said makes me boiled............................ dont read it............................ dont reply it............................ just pray for him............................ in the name of lord............................ i hope he survives till he graduates............................ if he allows............................ he will give me a chance............................ to help him............................ he is the greatest............................ he will make miracles............................ so he can be strong............................ he can be independent............................ he can make it............................ he can reach the destination............................ he can reach final spot............................ graduate with flying colors ..............................