Monday, March 2, 2026

make me

 




I woke before the morning did,
eyes open to a silent sky—
the clock whispered responsibility,
but my blanket held me tighter
than any promise I had made.

“I’ll rise in five,” I told myself,
negotiating with the dawn.
The pillow felt like destiny,
the mattress like a loyal friend—
and so I drifted back
into the soft betrayal of sleep.

Now the sun stands high and bold,
and I stand guilty in its light.
Lesson plans waiting.
Students trusting.
A calling greater than my comfort.

Lord,
You see this fragile will of mine—
the tug between purpose and pillow,
between fire and fatigue.
Help me, please.

Turn my laziness into discipline,
my delay into determination.
Teach my feet to move
when my heart hesitates.
Make me rise not just from bed,
but from excuses.

Let me teach with passion
even if I woke in weakness.
Let my class feel energy
even if I fought gravity this morning.

Tomorrow,
when the alarm calls my name,
remind me who I am—
not a servant of sleep,
but a teacher with a mission.

Lord,
make me diligent,
make me steady,
make me rise.

2 maret 26 senen

 




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A Prayer in a Room Full of Shadows

 




A Prayer in a Room Full of Shadows

This group feels frightening now,
crowded, yet heavy with something dark.
Too many who strum false tunes in secret,
too many who flatter to survive,
too many who smile while hiding knives behind their backs.

God,
I am afraid.
In the middle of the noise, I feel alone.
In the middle of laughter, I feel cautious.

Protect me from wicked hearts,
from hidden intentions,
from those who force their will on others,
who act as if they know everything,
who love to lecture,
who believe they are the most righteous in the world.

Protect me from subtle insults,
from words that sound gentle but carry poison,
from manipulation wrapped in kindness.

If anyone has wronged me,
let justice come in Your way, not mine.
I do not wish for revenge.
I only wish for peace and safety.

Calm my heart.
Strengthen my steps.
And please—
do not let me become like them.

Amen.

Sunday, March 1, 2026

1 maret 26 minggu

 




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Saturday, February 28, 2026

28 feb 26 sabtu

 



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di Antara Riuh Perjalanan

 





.god is great
Banyak sekali masalah datang beriringan,
seperti gerbong kereta yang tak henti melaju,
mengguncang dada,
menguji sabar yang nyaris retak.

Namun Tuhan masih sayang.

Tas tertinggal di kereta—
panik berlari di lorong waktu,
jantung berdetak lebih keras dari roda besi.
Tapi ia kembali.
Seolah ada tangan tak terlihat
yang menjaganya sampai ke pelukanku lagi.

Tiket hangus—
uang melayang seperti asap tipis.
Harus beli lagi,
walau mahal,
walau hati sempat mengeluh pelan.
InsyaAllah nanti diganti.
Rezeki tak pernah benar-benar hilang,
ia hanya berpindah jalan.

Alhamdulillah bisa nambah bagasi.
Walau mahal,
walau dompet terasa menipis.
InsyaAllah nanti diganti.
Sebab Tuhan tahu isi koper dan isi hati,
mana yang penuh oleh barang,
mana yang penuh oleh harap.

Masalah bagasi dan power bank—
aturan, batas, kebingungan di bandara.
Namun Alhamdulillah teratasi.
Satu demi satu simpul kusut terurai,
seperti doa yang perlahan dijawab
tanpa suara, tanpa tanda besar,
hanya rasa lega yang tiba-tiba hadir.

YOLO, kata dunia.
Hidup cuma sekali.
Tapi aku tahu,
hidup ini bukan sekadar sekali—
ia perjalanan menuju-Mu.

Tuhan,
Lindungi aku dari segala kesialan
yang tak terlihat dan yang mengintai diam-diam.
Lindungi aku dari orang-orang jahat
yang tersenyum tapi menyimpan niat gelap.

Jika masalah datang lagi,
ingatkan aku pada tas yang kembali,
pada tiket yang terganti,
pada bagasi yang teratasi.

Agar aku selalu ingat—
di balik setiap hampir celaka,
ada Engkau
yang tak pernah benar-benar pergi.

27 feb 26 jumat

 




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