I see fat on my chin………………………………………………………

it is annoying……………………………………………………… but i should accept it……………………………………………………… i should be happy about it……………………………………………………… as long as i am healthy……………………………………………………… but i will not stay still……………………………………………………… i will do my sprot again……………………………………………………… i will exercise a lot……………………………………………………… thus it will be gone……………………………………………………… i hope so……………………………………………………… i will tired myself to the max……………………………………………………… i will sweat a lot……………………………………………………… i will make myself better……………………………………………………… i will make myself having a good shape……………………………………………………… for my own sake……………………………………………………… if anything come after that……………………………………………………… then it will be a gift from lord ……………………………………………………………

lump in eye……………………………………………………….

I am afraid that this is a very severe illness………………………………………………………. then I should take the surgery………………………………………………………. then the surgery failed………………………………………………………. then I am blind………………………………………………………. lord I am afraid………………………………………………………. lord protect me please………………………………………………………. lord help me please………………………………………………………. lord make me healthy please………………………………………………………. lord love me please………………………………………………………. lord I love you………………………………………………………. I hope it is nothing………………………………………………………. I hope it is only a mere sickness………………………………………………………. I hope it can cure itself ………………………………………………………….

lord...............................

it is very slow............................... i am annoyed............................... there are a lot of jobs queueing............................... i hope it will be smooth after this............................... so i can finish all the jobs that are practically lining up there............................... so i will be debt free............................... no it is not like that............................... there are so many debts left............................... at least my debts will be reduced ............................... if i can finish some of it now ...............................

they act they know it all………………………………………………

in the name of lord……………………………………………… getting annoyed……………………………………………… in the name of lord……………………………………………… I cant be angry……………………………………………… in the name of lord ……………………………………………… give it all to him……………………………………………… in the name of lord……………………………………………… take the positive side……………………………………………… from all their words there must be something positive in it……………………………………………… and all of this must have a hidden reason from him……………………………………………… though I don’t know what his intention……………………………………………… so just let us have positive thinking……………………………………………… and I am sure they have good intention……………………………………………… it is impossible for them to have negative intention……………………………………………… if they do have negative reason……………………………………………… hope he forgive them all……………………………………………… and I hope he always protect me……………………………………………… and I hope he always love me……………………………………………… stay positive thinking all the time……………………………………………… stay loving him till the end …………………………………………………………

if I prepare it, I don’t meet them………………………………………………

if I don’t prepare it, I meet them……………………………………………… making me annoyed……………………………………………… but I cant be irritated……………………………………………… maybe there is reason why it happens……………………………………………… though I don’t know what it is……………………………………………… though I don’t know it yet……………………………………………… keep positive thinking……………………………………………… maybe someday I will now the reason……………………………………………… maybe someday he will tell me the reason……………………………………………… accepting it all with big heart……………………………………………… keeping smile to all……………………………………………… keeping love him ………………………………………………

I have been sick for days………………………………………………

I hope it can wipe all my sins……………………………………………… and taken there by mrb……………………………………………… getting a lot of things……………………………………………… I hope all of it make me healthy……………………………………………… having food……………………………………………… getting drink……………………………………………… enjoying smoke……………………………………………… hearing speech……………………………………………… healthy for my soul……………………………………………… and healthy for my body……………………………………………… never lose faith……………………………………………… always believe in lord ………………………………………………

always think bout good things………………………………………………

plan good things……………………………………………… expect good things……………………………………………… should be sensitive……………………………………………… pray for all……………………………………………… for family……………………………………………… for neighbor……………………………………………… for friend……………………………………………… for coworkers……………………………………………… for the lates……………………………………………… pray for myself……………………………………………… being healthy……………………………………………… always near the good people ………………………………………………

they try to scare me………………………………………………

in the name of lord……………………………………………… I am taking it all willingly……………………………………………… anything you give me……………………………………………… I will accept it all if he allows me to……………………………………………… I hope I have the strength to do it……………………………………………… my mind wanders everywhere……………………………………………… remembering a friend who go there with his partner……………………………………………… if they can I am sure I can do it too……………………………………………… and there is a public figure too……………………………………………… he survives till he gets home……………………………………………… and I am sure there are a lot more than them……………………………………………… the ones that I don’t know ……………………………………………… want to be like them……………………………………………… the most important thing is I should clean myself……………………………………………… cleaning my heart too……………………………………………… then asking this that and all……………………………………………… asking the good things……………………………………………… don’t think recklessly and weirdly ………………………………………………