waiting a gift from lord...............................................

at mosque............................................... at his house............................................... at his meeting............................................... he will tell me............................................... i dont know how and when............................................... just wait for the best............................................... lord is loving mehe will send someone to me............................................... i will not be bad............................................... i will take care of myself............................................... i will improve myself............................................... i will protect myself............................................... i will stay away from bad things............................................... i love my lord .................................................

god i think you can kill me with fear....................................

i was taken care of.................................... and i feel now i was not being taken care of.................................... it scares me to death.................................... lord i love you.................................... lord protect me please.................................... lord i promise i will not be bad.................................... lord i promise i will do all your command.................................... lord i promise i will stay away from all your prohibition.................................... lord i love you.................................... lord take me close to you.................................... lord hold me tight.................................... lord save me please ......................................

there is a suspicious man sitting next to me..............................

but he is nothing.............................. thx god i am saved.............................. i feel paranoid.............................. i got suspicious to everybody around me.............................. it makes me crazy.............................. i think they are successful in making me insane.............................. and from this moment on.............................. i promise to lord.............................. i will not be defeated.............................. as lord is on my side ..............................