deliciously worse

 

before

the regret always comes lates

it is always like this

imagining all the white porridge

turn into rice

what abot that

squeezing the exploded heart

i should retreat with all my might

should do that

but i didnt

he wins

he converts me into something else

something evil

something dark

something scary

it scares me

will i always be like that

i hope not

hope you save me

and bring  me to light

one hundred percent depending on you

all my hope and all my wish

should put my pray in your hand

in your care

stupidity taking over

telling the heart to go bad

deliciously worse

against all odds

against all i believe

the crash in unavoidable

coilition to the explosion

idiocrasy laughing out loud

humbleness is nowhere to be seen

stupid

 

you send them those kind of things

and it affects me

it hits my heart dearly

making me confused

i lost everything

feel like that

all the lights shines me before

its all gone

blown by the whispering wind

that carry the news of the unfortunate events

that destroy all hope and dream

of good people

and beyond

including me

making me wonder

whether i deserved this

i know i had many sins

i know i am stupid

but still

it is free to dream high

learn to be calm all the time

 

Taking a long time

Holly molly

Should be patient

I need to harvest it from all over the world

personally

i feel i have a very thin patience

evrything irritates me easily

and that is bad

that is dangerous

he doesnt like that

should learn to be better

learn to be calm all the time

everytime and everywhere

what should i do tho

need something to ignite my calmness

need path to follow

need guidance to lead

7 april 24 minggu

 

7 april 24 minggu

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