Really dont know.......................

It is all tears today....................... The movie....................... The series....................... The stories....................... The film....................... It all makes me cry....................... Non stop....................... What will happen....................... They say it is a bad one....................... For a man to cry easily....................... So....................... Lets pretend....................... To be tough....................... To never cry again....................... To be bitchy....................... Dont let anyone know....................... Just make the one know....................... Just him....................... Him alone .......................

This the man you want me to be.......................

I will be what you want....................... The tough one....................... The hard one....................... The bitchy one....................... Who dont care about everything....................... Who will fight to the end....................... Who will handle all problems....................... Who will beat all of that.......................

This the man you want me to be.......................

This the man you want me to be....................... I will be what you want....................... The tough one....................... The hard one....................... The bitchy one....................... Who dont care about everything....................... Who will fight to the end....................... Who will handle all problems....................... Who will beat all of that.......................

And he adds more mistake.......................

That annoying me so bad....................... He parks the cycle far....................... From the place....................... And he doesnt come to me....................... At the food stall....................... Dont disturb a hungry person....................... I can kill you all....................... That easy....................... You know i can....................... In the name of him....................... Come to him....................... Pay the bill....................... Goes to places .......................

And the guards ignore.......................

Making me more boiled....................... Almost exploding....................... Remembering yesterday....................... The evil one....................... He prolongs his speech....................... Crash the time llimit....................... Disturbing time to eat....................... And then he does again....................... In the praying process....................... Wish him bad....................... But that was yesterday....................... It is now....................... Different matter....................... The same boiling soul....................... Want to channel it somewhere....................... Into something....................... Make it go away....................... It is burdening inside....................... Sickening....................... Killing you .......................

Damn.......................

He picked me up late....................... And i cant see him from my window....................... Everything is chaotic....................... Making me annoyed....................... Very angry....................... And then....................... He and she sees him....................... I think....................... Dont care about that....................... The one that i care is....................... Bout the coupon and the free meal....................... If being picked up late....................... On the way late....................... Arriving late....................... Not getting coupon....................... Not getting free meal....................... Eating outside....................... Spending money....................... And he chooses the expensive one....................... What the hell....................... Dont care bout him....................... Just eat in front....................... The cheap one....................... Let him alone....................... Let make myself happy....................... And serve him right....................... No matter what....................... Believe that god is with me....................... He will make me calm....................... Eventually....................... Not now....................... But soon....................... There is the red devil within....................... Fighting....................... Quarelling .......................

2 juni 17 jumat.......................

Kesiangan....................... Kampus....................... Cimb....................... Majt....................... Pul....................... Majt/kultum/magrib/bukber/rest/isak/taraweh....................... Dijemput satrio....................... Angkringan pandawa....................... Allahuakbar.......................

1 juni 17 kamis.......................

Sseharian d rmh....................... Sore bukber at lombok ijo w fam....................... Allahuakbar.......................

31 mei 17 rabu.......................

Kampus....................... Pul gasik....................... Majt/telat/magrib/wrg/ketemubroyan n yoyok/majt/isak/taraweh....................... Alfamrt....................... Allahuakbar.......................

30 mei 17 selasa.......................

Kesiangan....................... Kampus....................... Bukber at dapur emak w mei dkk....................... Allahuakbar.......................

29 mei 17 senen .....................

Kesiangan....................... Kampus....................... Pul gasik....................... Majt/kultum/magrib/bukber/rest/isak/taraweh....................... pIjet....................... allahuakbar.......................