When my hand cant shake you………………………..

Hold you……………………….. Touch you……………………….. Sad is what I feel……………………….. Unimaginable……………………….. Let us be the ones who know……………………….. Only the two of us……………………….. And him……………………….. There……………………….. Let us smile……………………….. Towards him……………………….. Let us present……………………….. Our white hearts……………………….. Before him ……………………….. Let him know……………………….. Let him judge……………………….. Let him bless……………………….. Let him curse……………………….. Let him cure……………………….. Let him do whatever ………………………..

Stressfull………………………..

The error gadget……………………….. Being full……………………….. The error app……………………….. Oh god……………………….. Should I ask for a new one……………………….. Damn……………………….. Fuck……………………….. Want to curse everything……………………….. There are many spent this month……………………….. And I think I will do more……………………….. For this one……………………….. And others……………………….. But this one is scary……………………….. I try to find the one with big capacity……………………….. But I am afraid I will not find one……………………….. They are liars……………………….. They cheat all customers……………………….. Including me……………………….. When they say they have a big one……………………….. It is only in the beginning……………………….. But……………………….. In the end……………………….. It will be smaller and smaller ………………………..

Find one………………………..

Find me one……………………….. Send me one……………………….. And let me settle……………………….. I am tired god……………………….. I beg you……………………….. I pray to you……………………….. I ask you……………………….. Me being naughty……………………….. Change from heart to heart……………………….. All the time……………………….. Never satisfied with one……………………….. Always distracted when the new one come along……………………….. I need the one……………………….. Who can make ma settle……………………….. Who can satisfy me………………………..

So………………………..

It seems like it……………………….. I am not one of them……………………….. Not on their circle anymore……………………….. May lord always protect me……………………….. The chat yesterday……………………….. With him……………………….. From different program……………………….. My previous program……………………….. Makes me think……………………….. That many people in this place are connected in a way or another……………………….. Family connection……………………….. But not me……………………….. Feel so alone……………………….. Feel as an outsider……………………….. So help me lord ………………………..