another thing is……………………………………………

if I do this willingly…………………………………………… god will see this as my sincere giving…………………………………………… then he will reward me a big thing…………………………………………… it is okay to expect things from him…………………………………………… he will make my wish come true…………………………………………… he will grant my wish…………………………………………… what did happen…………………………………………… why do I sneeze so much suddenly…………………………………………… it is weird…………………………………………… lord help me please…………………………………………… don’t make me sick…………………………………………… make me healthy always…………………………………………… I have a lot of things to do…………………………………………… I have a lot of tasks to finish…………………………………………… just hoping for the best…………………………………………… wishing everything is amazing…………………………………………… running wildly but happy…………………………………………… whatever problem comes to me…………………………………………… believe that I will have power to solve it…………………………………………… believe that he will not give obstacles that I cant handle…………………………………………… he promises that ……………………………………………

don’t report about the separation……………………………………………

still get the fund…………………………………………… is it being blessed…………………………………………… maybe it is the cause why I am bloating…………………………………………… afraid…………………………………………… will report it if he allows…………………………………………… I hope he will bless me…………………………………………… I hope after that the fortune will come routinely…………………………………………… I hope I can manage my life…………………………………………… with minimum fund…………………………………………… scared…………………………………………… don’t be scared…………………………………………… if it is good then he will bless it…………………………………………… and keep working hard…………………………………………… work right…………………………………………… so the result is right…………………………………………… so the fund is right…………………………………………… so the meal is right…………………………………………… so the healthy is right ……………………………………………

have nothing to do here……………………………………………

just accompany her here…………………………………………… lets enjoy the time…………………………………………… lets keep smiling…………………………………………… lets keep laughing…………………………………………… lets keep loving…………………………………………… maybe lord has something behind this…………………………………………… maybe both of us will pass the document screening…………………………………………… both of us will be called for interview…………………………………………… will pass the interview…………………………………………… will get the awards…………………………………………… will go there and study…………………………………………… will finish study…………………………………………… will go back here…………………………………………… will teach again…………………………………………… till the end of time…………………………………………… and lord will bless that…………………………………………… will be on our side all the time ………………………………………………

the hot one comes late................................................

dont know what to do................................................ dont know what will happen................................................ just hope for the best................................................ thx lord there is someone who help me to pick the package................................................ thx lord i can do both jobs................................................ teaching as waiting their presentation................................................ and guiding for final paper................................................ and then there is a jammed situation in the middle of the process................................................ making me more annoyed................................................ in the name of lord................................................ keeping the self being calm................................................ keeping the self to enjoy the moment................................................ keep fighting................................................ keep smiling................................................ keep loving them ................................................

this happens................................................

i am late................................................ they are late................................................ it is karma................................................ i must be patient................................................ lets enjoy the moment................................................ do everything to make you happy................................................ the cellphone................................................ the paer................................................ the poem................................................ thx lord i bring big paper................................................ thus i can write a lot................................................ and i am cranky................................................ i dont eat yet................................................ this is dangerous................................................ and the signal is crazy................................................ and the line is crazy ....................................................

next time……………………………………………………………

if I got an exam again…………………………………………………………… I should leave a day before…………………………………………………………… so I am not wrecking nervous like this…………………………………………………………… lets make it a learning process…………………………………………………………… lets make it an experience…………………………………………………………… and another thing is…………………………………………………………… that if it is like this…………………………………………………………… I don’t have a room…………………………………………………………… I don’t have a bathroom…………………………………………………………… confused…………………………………………………………… note that…………………………………………………………… more thought on it…………………………………………………………… I think I am high maintenance…………………………………………………………… it is difficult to take care of me…………………………………………………………… want a lot of things…………………………………………………………… and the thinking goes…………………………………………………………… I love it…………………………………………………………… I want it to run fast…………………………………………………………… so it will feel as if I wait only for a little while…………………………………………………………… what did happen…………………………………………………………… why do suddenly I sneeze many times…………………………………………………………… is someone spraying pepper…………………………………………………………… it looks like it ……………………………………………………………

they say it will late for an hour……………………………………………………………

making me nervous…………………………………………………………… I hope I can make it tomorrow morning…………………………………………………………… wish me luck guys…………………………………………………………… scary…………………………………………………………… scared…………………………………………………………… nervous…………………………………………………………… my own mistake…………………………………………………………… I should leave this morning…………………………………………………………… or before…………………………………………………………… stupid me…………………………………………………………… but that was the past…………………………………………………………… it is no use being sorry over the spilt milk…………………………………………………………… now just pray…………………………………………………………… pray hard…………………………………………………………… pray really hard…………………………………………………………… lets hope lord bless me…………………………………………………………… and make it happen for me…………………………………………………………… taking the test tomorrow morning…………………………………………………………… then everything runs smoothly…………………………………………………………… thanks god for that…………………………………………………………… it is just that…………………………………………………………… the questions are difficult ……………………………………………………………

I am in so much trouble……………………………………………………………

lets go back to the previous state…………………………………………………………… just being an ordinary teacher…………………………………………………………… just teaching and being happy…………………………………………………………… and loving god…………………………………………………………… and hoping he loves me back…………………………………………………………… coz it hurts a lot…………………………………………………………… the work line…………………………………………………………… the love line…………………………………………………………… lets smile and laugh…………………………………………………………… gets and give love to the whole big world…………………………………………………………… and there is this case…………………………………………………………… if I don’t make it…………………………………………………………… the whole world will know…………………………………………………………… that I am stupid…………………………………………………………… in another aspect…………………………………………………………… maybe they will stop asking me for help…………………………………………………………… translating for free…………………………………………………………… that is annoying…………………………………………………………… in the end…………………………………………………………… I should not expect things from human……………………………………………………………

it is always like this……………………………………………………………

when you afraid…………………………………………………………… suddenly there is so much going on…………………………………………………………… in your head…………………………………………………………… it is very chaotic in there…………………………………………………………… a lot of thoughts…………………………………………………………… mostly bad…………………………………………………………… and it makes you more nervous…………………………………………………………… more scared…………………………………………………………… more afraid…………………………………………………………… oh my god…………………………………………………………… and I lost my note…………………………………………………………… making me more confused…………………………………………………………… making me more afraid…………………………………………………………… lord…………………………………………………………… how could it happen…………………………………………………………… help me please…………………………………………………………… you are the great…………………………………………………………… in the end…………………………………………………………… you did bless me…………………………………………………………… you don’t make me late…………………………………………………………… I can make it to the test…………………………………………………………… and I am grateful for that ……………………………………………………………

waiting……………………………………………………………

and being afraid of the result…………………………………………………………… I had paid expensive for this…………………………………………………………… and I got a very difficult question…………………………………………………………… and there is a possibility of not passing…………………………………………………………… I am in so much afraid…………………………………………………………… and now I am scared…………………………………………………………… waiting for the travel…………………………………………………………… I hope I can stay here till seven…………………………………………………………… lets hope so…………………………………………………………… just don’t know what to do…………………………………………………………… and it is annoying…………………………………………………………… seeing people around…………………………………………………………… it is good…………………………………………………………… as if nothing happen…………………………………………………………… at least I order food…………………………………………………………… and it is expensive…………………………………………………………… so it is my right to enjoy the place…………………………………………………………… for a long time…………………………………………………………… as long as I want…………………………………………………………… and there is no queue…………………………………………………………… so I don’t make trouble for others…………………………………………………………… so that is the solution…………………………………………………………… for my problem …………………………………………………………………..