Want someone who is in balance with me…………………

Or above me………………… So it doesn’t have to be like this………………… Imbalance………………… It must be me who always take care of him………………… It is heavy for me………………… It is heavy for my side………………… It is heavy for my heart………………… Imagining that he sends someone above me………………… Physically and mentally………………… Sorry god………………… But this is me………………… The shallow me………………… Only see the surface………………… I want to change………………… But it is hard………………… But I will try………………… And I believe I will change………………… With your help …………………

And then…………………

Want to go there………………… Completely strange place………………… Where nobody knows me………………… I can be myself………………… Not pretending anymore………………… Where there are many people like me………………… And I don’t have to be fake anymore………………… Where there is you………………… So I will be protected all the time………………… Nobody will hurt me…………………

Remembering the selbi…………………

She loves me if only the mom gets away………………… But if mom comes home………………… She will ignore me………………… Completely………………… Hiks…………………………………… False hope………………… Expecting too much………………… Disappointed too much………………… Hurt too much………………… Just like my love life in the human world………………… Damn …………………

What is it……………………….

The three things………………………. That should come to my brain………………………. The filling………………………. The time spent………………………. To wait for that moment………………………. To experience the new place………………………. For the first time………………………. And I did it………………………. Filling the time………………………. Spending the time………………………. Enjoy the moment………………………. Loving the place ……………………….

4 okt 17 rabu……………………

Kampus…………………… Unisula…………………… Kampus…………………… Ngantar ika…………………… Pedurungan ambil paket…………………… Indmrt…………………… Pul…………………… Jemput rian…………………… Ngempon…………………… Ngantar rian…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

3 okt 17 selasa……………………

Kampus mpe mlm…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

2 okt 17 senen……………………

Kampus…………………… Orenji w brina…………………… Pul…………………… Mlm nonton at cl w baskoro ibash…………………… Diner at solaria…………………… Ngantar baskoro…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

1 okt 17 minggu……………………

Ban bocor…………………… Workshop bhs isyarat at rri…………………… Makan at warung penang w mela nina ahmed…………………… Pul…………………… Nambal ban…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

30 sep 17 sabtu……………………

Pg k rri…………………… Workshop bhs isyarat…………………… Maksi at adys culinary w nina n ahmed…………………… Ptgrmbt…………………… Alfmrt…………………… Mlm k atm…………………… Indmrt meet bmei arif fia…………………… At bu dwi meet bdwi imus hana…………………… At stadion meet udin pucup…………………… Ntn konser so7…………………… Ga dpt tiket…………………… Udan deres…………………… Ngiyup d alfmrt lama banget…………………… Makan nasgor…………………… Yg lain masuk kecuali aku bdwi arif…………………… Ngantar imus…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

29 sep 17 jumat……………………

Kampus…………………… Pulgasik…………………… Jumatan…………………… Dpmall…………………… Nongkrong at maxx coffee…………………… Nonton…………………… At Julia…………………… Kejebak ujan lama banget…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

28 sep 17 kamis……………………

Kampus…………………… Cimb…………………… Pul…………………… Kampus…………………… Bhsl ps…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

27 sep 17 rabu ……………………

Kampus…………………… What…………………… Allahuakbar……………………