Want someone who is in balance with me…………………

Or above me………………… So it doesn’t have to be like this………………… Imbalance………………… It must be me who always take care of him………………… It is heavy for me………………… It is heavy for my side………………… It is heavy for my heart………………… Imagining that he sends someone above me………………… Physically and mentally………………… Sorry god………………… But this is me………………… The shallow me………………… Only see the surface………………… I want to change………………… But it is hard………………… But I will try………………… And I believe I will change………………… With your help …………………