She blames me…………………..

I keep silent………………….. I blame her in my silence………………….. She doesn’t know………………….. Nobody knows………………….. How many tears………………….. I had dropped because of her………………….. She always hurts me………………….. Her attitude………………….. Her speech………………….. Her behavior………………….. Her everything………………….. It is painful………………….. It sucks………………….. That is why………………….. I try to stay away from her………………….. Far far away …………………..

Ruined when doing id pray…………………..

Remember that time………………….. When she is still alive………………….. But I cannot meet her………………….. Devastated………………….. When I do my id pray………………….. Tears are running down………………….. Without warning………………….. Without pre thought………………….. Without expectation………………….. Without premonition ………………….. It runs down hard………………….. Unstoppable………………….. Ashamed………………….. I tried to hide………………….. That is why………………….. Now I don’t come to id pray………………….. Avoid it………………….. Sorry lord………………….. I am afraid lord …………………..

having negative thought…………………..

that that bitch is watching………………….. and will ruin my house………………….. scary thought………………….. in the name of lord………………….. put it all in his hands………………….. pray………………….. that all will be all right………………….. all will be safe………………….. coz he loves me………………….. he will protect me………………….. forever………………….. coz I had promised………………….. that I will be good………………….. to him………………….. to others………………….. to all …………………..

Although you have convinced yourself…………………..

That all will be all right………………….. Still………………….. Fail is fail………………….. Pain is pain………………….. Sad is sad………………….. In the name of lord………………….. There are still chances………………….. Windows are still open………………….. Doors are not closed yet………………….. Keep going………………….. Never back down………………….. Keep struggling………………….. This is good………………….. God loves good …………………..

So the world is a pray…………………..

Everything has both faces, good and bad………………….. Diamond is sparkling as it is hard killer………………….. It never stops you to be greedy………………….. Hours turn into days, weeks, months………………….. Love is no longer here………………….. Eternal loneliness seems approaching………………….. Venus is not another sunspot………………….. End is near they say………………….. Lunar is where you will go………………….. Destiny blocks freedom………………….. Echo rings and rings in your brain………………….. Weak head strong will………………….. Another chance is all I wish to have to be with you in the end …………………..

I am right…………………..

He is back………………….. Afraid………………….. God………………….. Help me………………….. Kill him………………….. I don’t want him around………………….. In this world………………….. In the name of lord………………….. Scared………………….. But I don’t know what to do………………….. Just take the days as usual………………….. Give it all to him………………….. Let him protect me………………….. All of it………………….. All of me………………….. The whole me …………………..

Ok…………………..

I sacrificed a lot………………….. If you don’t acknowledge it, that’s it………………….. Please go………………….. I will stay here………………….. Wait for others………………….. In the name of lord………………….. Now I am calm………………….. I hope he is back………………….. Want him back………………….. Want to be always together………………….. In his hall………………….. In his protection………………….. In his blessing………………….. Till the end………………….. Till death do us part …………………..

Suddenly tears ……………………..

Falling everywhere …………………….. Missing her …………………….. Want to meet her …………………….. But don’t want to come home …………………….. Don’t want to meet that person …………………….. And don’t want to leave the house …………………….. I think it is in danger …………………….. Because of yester case …………………….. Scary …………………….. Hope everything will be fine …………………….. Coz god loves me …………………….. God will protect me …………………….. Always …………………….. He never leaves me ……………………..

Crazy thing ……………………..

Still think of that …………………….. In erotic way …………………….. In torturous way …………………….. Want to get revenge …………………….. Want to avenge myself …………………….. I want him feel what I feel …………………….. I want him get tortured …………………….. Miserable …………………….. And much more …………………….. More than me …………………….. I feel bad …………………….. I want him feel worse …………………….. I feel worse …………………….. I want him feel the worst ……………………..

Still having thought ……………………..

Still having smell …………………….. Still having anger …………………….. What the hell …………………….. It sucks …………………….. The solution is …………………….. Pray hard …………………….. Really hard …………………….. Harder …………………….. Give it to him …………………….. Give it all …………………….. Put it all in his hands …………………….. It is too much …………………….. Too heavy …………………….. I cant handle this …………………….. It is torturing me …………………….. Sickening me …………………….. Put me in the dark side ……………………..