greensmg: Mar 17, 2013

Sunday, March 17, 2013

edan

dondi Muhammad arief budiman: Ml yuk Dondi: Yuk Dondi: Sini kekos Muhammad arief budiman: Serius? Dondi: Yea. Serius Muhammad arief budiman: Mana alamat? Dondi: Genuk karanglo Dondi: Km tunggu indomaret pom bensin sriwijaya ya Dondi: aku jemput disitu Muhammad arief budiman: Ok Dondi: Kutunggu Muhammad arief budiman: Siap Muhammad arief budiman: Aku udh d indomaret Dondi: Bntr hbs mndi gnti bju dl Dondi: Ttip rokok boleh Dondi: Dunhil putih Muhammad arief budiman: Ok Dondi: Jalan Muhammad arief budiman: Sip Dondi: minat? Dondi: Minat? Muhammad arief budiman: ??`(*)??´•??`¨?????´•(y)yU°°ºuº°°Up(y)•??`¨?????´•??`(*)??´ Dondi: PING!!! Dondi: Pagi Muhammad arief budiman: Pagi Dondi: Hw r u today? Muhammad arief budiman: Fine Muhammad arief budiman: N u? Dondi: Fine Muhammad arief budiman: Where are you? Dondi: Apartment. Dondi: Why? Muhammad arief budiman: What apartment? Dondi: Yeah I'm at a friend's apartment Muhammad arief budiman: What is ur schedule for today? Dondi: Working until 9 pm and the rest Muhammad arief budiman: Don't u have holiday today? Dondi: My last day of this event. so can not relax Muhammad arief budiman: What event? Dondi: @java supermall Muhammad arief budiman: Did u go clubbing last nite? Dondi: No, I slept last night. Dondi: I didn't Muhammad arief budiman: Is the boy from last nite your boyfriend? Dondi: No. That's my best friend. Why are you such a question? What's not to believe? Muhammad arief budiman: Both of u seem so close Muhammad arief budiman: Do u have a bf? Dondi: Indeed, we are destined to be friends and even relatives. if you look at our behavior you will understand the meaning of our friendship. I still have not found the right person to be my partner Muhammad arief budiman: I can't belive u r still 17. Ur words make u like a grown up. Very wise Dondi: Age is not supported on maturity. Because it requires maturity. And by 2013 I had to have a mind that is highly professional in every way. So we use our logic to all the activity and heart too, of course Muhammad arief budiman: From ur sentence it is belieable that u have such a good personality. I am sure you will have bright days in the future Dondi: Amin.. Thanks so much You shocked me. this is the first time we meet. You are so very beautiful. the more I know you, I understand that not only your appearance but also your personality is wonderful. You have a great beauty. You have a fabulous personality. The more shocking thing is that how the way you treat me. As you know from our meeting I don't have any confidence in me. I consider myself having many flaws. But you treat me so well as if I am the most beautiful man in the world. I never treat myself the way you do. Nobody treat me the way you treat me. It is so fucking incredible. You make me the luckiest man in the world. That was the best nite of my life ever. That is why the fear comes in me. I want more. So much more. I wish I knew the secret to conquer your heart. I fear of your rejection. I never have this kind of experience. Your treatment flies my hopes so high. I fear of falling. Falling into pieces. I can't read you. But I am sure you are able to read me. I am really surprised about your wisdom considering that you are only seventeen. I am defeated. I consider myself as a childish person. But not you. You are so mature. Your maturity makes me jealous. Your maturity forces me to manage myself to be a grown up, to be the same level as you. I dare myself to say my feelings out loud. The hope is to have as mine. I don't know about you. But you are so incredibly perfect. Physically and characteristically. You'll make someone be the luckiest person in the whole world. I dream it would be me. I dare myself to talk to you in person but I chicken out. I dare myself to ask you in this session but I chicken out. So I just want you to know that it would be a great honor to be your friend. But it would be heaven if it is more than that. His stat n dp make me depressed. His answer does more than that. At first I want to give up. But then I force myself to think positively. I believe I am a good person. I deserve a beautiful boy like him. He is so perfect physically and his personality is amazing. I don't want to lose him. I don't want to get hurt again. I ask the lord to help me to get him. I did, I do, and I will do good deeds all the time. I believe lord knows all that. I believe he will give me everything I want. This is what I want. I believe this will make me very happy. But suddenly the thinking appears. What I think makes me happy doesn't mean it is the same what the lord think what makes me happy. But again I force myself to be positive. I believe I will get him in my heart, in my mind, in my brain, in my head, in my life. the negative comes to my brain. i imagine he is having sex with others. but i force myself to think positive. i believe what he said that he is tired and need to get rest. and that he will be mine soon. 031613 it hurts. but i have to stay positive. i believe he just spends time with his friends to go clubbing. nothing happen. he will not have sex with others. he will not cheat on me. he will love me completely. he will contact me soon. he will always be there beside me.

coworker

he talks about negative sides of unaki. i dont care. i dont want to be affected by that that will make my day miserable. i want to think about positive sides of unaki that will make me happy to work there. there are many positive sides of unaki: i work in line with my study, i can use hotspot freely, there is no uniform, i can teach in other places, i have good friends, i have good students, i good paid monthly. with these thinking, i will have positive mind, positive brain, positive attitude, and positive aura. i will spread positive stuffs around me. thus the world will received positive effects from me and i will get positive effects from the world.

cheater

my hope was high. but suddenly everything falls apart. i got the same scenario before. and i was stupid enough to send money to him. but not now. i will be smart. i will send money no more. i believe he is not the one. i believe there is someone out there for me. i believe i am a good person. and i believe the lord knows that. thus i believe i deserve to have a perfect man who will not deceive me at all cost.

minimalis

kalo kamu kerja minimalis maka gajimu juga minimalis. hukum karma itu selalu ada. apa yang kamu tanam, itu pula yang kamu tuai. dalam islam pun menyebutkan bahwa kebaikan sebesar zarrah akan didalas sebesar zarrah pula. makanya klo kamu kerja maksimal gajinya juga akan maksimal. jangan mengharap gaji berlebih kalo kamu bekerja ala kadarnya. bos tidak perlu menegur kamu secara langsung. bukan hanya bos yang berhak menilai kinerja anda. lingkungan, rekan, bawahan, orang luar, bahkan pelanggan pun berhak menilai anda. dan yang pasti tuhan juga akan memberikan penilaian yang seadil-adilnya. jadi bekerjalah semaksimal mungkin. mencintalah semaksimal mungkin. tuhan akan memberikan reward yang maksimal pula. bahkan tuhan menjanjikan reward yang berlipatganda.

there

many negativities i done in there: i do unaki stuff in there, i dont change the holidays, i shorten the hour, i join two classes, i dont send good questions, i dont befriend with them. that thinkings stuck on my mind and affect my routine. and i believe those are the cause why they dont use me anymore. but now i force myself to think positively. i believe they dont use me only this semester. i believe they will use me again next semester because i am a very good lecturer.