9 nov 16 rabu..................

Ikip mpe mlm.................. Pul macet.................. Mlm burjo.................. Allahuakbar..................

8 nov 16 selasa..................

Ikip mpe sore.................. Mlm alfamrt.................. Apotek.................. Starhotel.................. Burjo.................. Allahuakbar..................

7 nov 16 senen..................

Ikip mpe sore.................. Tilik b intan w p fian n p asep.................. Diner at nasgor sriwijaya.................. Pul kos.................. Capcay.................. Omah baru.................. Allahuakbar..................

6 nov 16 minggu..................

Omah baru.................. Bulik w fam.................. Omahbaru ngantar ciprut.................. Pul kos.................. Seharian tepar.................. Omah baru.................. Allahuakbar..................

5 nov 16 sabtu..................

Ikip.................. Pul gasik.................. Omah baru meet fam.................. Pedurungan bulik.................. Giant with fam.................. Pedurungan ngantar dian.................. Nginep omah baru.................. Allahuakbar..................

4 nov 16 jumat..................

Ikip.................. Pul gasik.................. Mlm ikip w fam.................. Nonton standup eror.................. Allahuakbar..................

3 nov 16 kamis..................

Ikip.................. Pul gasik.................. Seharian tepar.................. Mlm omah baru.................. Diner w ciprut.................. Nginep omah baru.................. Allahuakbar..................

2 nov 16 rabu..................

Ikip.................. Pul gasik.................. Pul kos.................. Omah baru.................. Pedurungan.................. Ada with fam.................. Wrg.................. Nginep omah baru.................. Allahuakbar..................

What is it..................

Something makes me cant sleep.................. The thinking of before.................. The quarrel.................. Maybe this is only from my side.................. That side doesnt think at all.................. Just assume ordinary.................. Not like me.................. Being very sensitive.................. Thinking it too much.................. Burdening self.................. With the thought.................. And then.................. The solution comes.................. Just let it go.................. Like never happen.................. Life must go on.................. There are others.................. Many things to do.................. That should be on your mind.................. Put yourself to work.................. Get everything done.................. Not just thinking it over.................. And torture yourself.................. With your own thought..................

The cancellation from him..................

Thinking that there is power.................. Preventing him to meet me.................. Preventing me to meet him.................. To get acquaintance.................. To enjoy our pleasure.................. And ask for more.................. To please self.................. Dont care the consequences.................. Just think about now.................. How to live it fully.................. Limitless.................. This soul needs entertainment.................. Do everything that makes you happy.................. Coz nobody understands you.................. But yourself.................. Noone knows what makes you smile.................. Except you.................. No person can give you.................. That kind of sweet.................. That will boost you.................. It is coming from you.................. From within..................

In the middle..................

Surrounded by them.................. Cant concentrate.................. They are tempting.................. Really tempting.................. Not like usual.................. It is difficult.................. To get something.................. Out of my brain.................. To put it down.................. On this paper.................. To entertain self.................. That is how it is usually done.................. Getting entertained.................. By writing everything.................. That comes through my mind.................. And then.................. Never think of it again.................. Just let it go.................. As the writing is the solution.................. The theraphy.................. For this sick soul..................

Remembering the lie..................

Connect it with consequences.................. The bad karma.................. Should be honest.................. And then will get reward.................. Beautiful present.................. Of whatever available.................. Heavenly connection.................. Paradise fall.................. Higher realm.................. And that kind of picture.................. I usually go places.................. But not anymore.................. Something prevent me.................. The lack of fund.................. And the lack of soul.................. The free soul.................. Something happens to this soul.................. Getting attached.................. Grounded..................

The thought of family..................

The thought of me.................. How bad i am.................. And they will always accept.................. No matter what.................. No question ask.................. Maybe some pretend.................. Rejecting the true me.................. Accepting the fake me.................. It is as it is.................. Everything happens for reason.................. Including this.................. Although not know what.................. But someday.................. The reason will appear.................. The enlightment.................. From him.................. To tell a beautiful story.................. How i will be embraced.................. Will be loved.................. Will be happy.................. After all this suffering..................

Consequences..................

Make you stay up all night.................. The job in the morning.................. The early go home.................. Rest all day.................. Hope the night will be good.................. Dont have to go to that place.................. But plan doesnt always come true.................. Just go with the flow.................. And accept all.................. Dont be disappointed.................. That will make you crazy.................. And you cant enjoy life.................. As it should be.................. Life is beautiful.................. It depends on you.................. You consider it happy.................. Then it will be happy.................. You consider it sad.................. Then it will be sad.................. So the thought counts.................. Give it positive consideration.................. And then you will recieve.................. All positiveness in the world..................

Ngaliyan..................

Missing them.................. But feeling ashamed.................. For what happen.................. Dont dare to show up.................. Afraid to present self.................. Just avoiding the meeting.................. Someday.................. When i get my courage.................. I will face them.................. With smile.................. With laugh.................. Full of spirit.................. Just like usual.................. Present yourself as you.................. In front of them.................. They are your family after all.................. They will accept you.................. No matter what.................. Coz you are you.................. You are special.................. Believe it in your mind.................. Live it in your day and night..................

Train of thought..................

The land of freedom.................. The winner of the new.................. Islamphobia.................. Failing in the past.................. Not finding supervisor first.................. Plan for now.................. Contacting the agency.................. The connection to the group.................. Him leaving.................. There is secret group.................. Selected people.................. Imagining them.................. Want to purify themselves.................. And everyone around them.................. And want the moslem things.................. So they should completely erase.................. All the non moslem things.................. In their life.................. And i think that is impossible.................. Think about the gadget.................. The show.................. The book.................. The clothes.................. There are many non moslem things.................. In their life.................. Do they think.................. I dont think so.................. And they exclude me.................. Coz they think i am non moslem..................

The luxury of downtown..................

Opposite of uptown.................. The sound of the world.................. Enjoy the gift from above.................. The night life.................. Everything is provided.................. Everything is given.................. You just take it.................. Absorb it.................. Like it means the world.................. Color your life.................. Make rainbow.................. Remember the past.................. The stupid me.................. Is all my fault.................. It is not them.................. How the way i treat them.................. Is all wrong.................. I should give love.................. I will accept love.................. I should spread care.................. I will receive care..................

Those people..................

With their thinking.................. Give opinion of big problem.................. And ignore the little one.................. Around them.................. What they think little is.................. Actually very big.................. They think by ignoring.................. Little think around them.................. They can change the world.................. Just by giving opinion.................. To the big problems.................. That actually happens.................. In the far away land.................. They should concentrate the near.................. Correct the near.................. That will affect the far.................. If they ignore the near.................. And make it bad.................. The bad will reach far..................

Translate..................

The add to the pile.................. Burden all over.................. And then it hits.................. It is all you.................. I said it once.................. And i will say it again.................. And again.................. All over again.................. Till i get used to it.................. That everything happens.................. Is from you.................. There will be something.................. Out of it.................. Believe me.................. You will get advantage.................. From what you do.................. Nothing is useless.................. Everything is beneficial.................. You do.................. You finish.................. You will get it.................. Maybe not directly.................. But it will come.................. For sure.................. Believe yourself..................

Are they right..................

If they are.................. Let them be.................. If they are wrong.................. Correct them.................. And help me to correct them.................. Coz i feel something.................. Is not right.................. How the way they say.................. They give opinion.................. Is just so wrong.................. Degrading others.................. Punishing others.................. Judging others.................. Is it really reflecting you..................