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tidak semua harus kembali padamu………………………………………………………… tidak semua harus berpusat padamu………………………………………………………… tapi itu yang terjadi………………………………………………………… aku tak bisa mengendalikan otak ini………………………………………………………… pikiran ini selalu melayang ke kenangan bersamamu………………………………………………………… sungguh kejam………………………………………………………… berkali-kali kau jatuhkan harapan………………………………………………………… berulang kalin kau hancurkan impian………………………………………………………… ku sudah menjauh………………………………………………………… tapi kau mendekat lagi………………………………………………………… meminta lagi………………………………………………………… untuk berjumpa………………………………………………………… kembali ku terperangkap………………………………………………………… kembali ku berharap………………………………………………………… kembali kuhancur………………………………………………………… kutatap matamu………………………………………………………… tak ada cinta di situ …………………………………………………………………………….

doaku yang terbaik untukmu sahabat………………………….

kepada sahabatku yang terkasih…………………………. terima kasih untuk selalu ada di sisiku selama ini…………………………. selalu menemaniku dalam kondisi apapun…………………………. bahkan dalam terpurukku…………………………. kau tidak pernah meninggalkanku…………………………. tak tahu lagi bagaimana caranya aku berterimakasih padamu…………………………. ingin kupeluk erat dirimu…………………………. namun kini kau tak lagi ada di sisiku…………………………. hanya dia yang bisa ku kirim untukmu…………………………. semoga kau bahagia di sana…………………………. semoga Dia mengerti semua apa yang telah kau lakukan untukku…………………………. semoga Dia mencintaimu seperti aku mencintaimu…………………………. doaku yang terbaik untukmu sahabat ………………………………….

aku lelah………………………….

jika ini baik untukku…………………………. biarkan aku di sini…………………………. jika ini tak baik untukku…………………………. ijinkan aku pergi…………………………. lain di bibir lain di hati…………………………. hatiku menjerit…………………………. ingin ku pergi dari sini…………………………. pergi yang jauh sekali…………………………. ke dunia antah berantah…………………………. dimana aku tak kenal siapapun…………………………. di sini tersiksa sekali…………………………. aku tak ingin tersiksa…………………………. aku ingin bahagia………………………………….…………………. aku ingin pergi…………………………. ingin kutemukan bahagia di luar sana…………………………. namun mereka berkata…………………………. kita harus selalu bersyukur…………………………. haruskah kusyukuri semua ini…………………………. haruskan aku menikmati derita ini…………………………. tak boleh kah aku mencicipi nikmatnya dunia…………………………. aku bingung…………………………. aku tersesat…………………………. aku lelah………………………….

yesterday………………………….

the suggestion is to fail the civil servant test…………………………. now the reason is to have a cooperation with her…………………………. if it is good…………………………. let it be…………………………. if it is bad…………………………. may she escape with your bless…………………………. with your help…………………………. in the name of lord…………………………. may you protect both of them…………………………. if he allows…………………………. he will make them not having bad intentions…………………………. he is the greatest…………………………. he will make miracles\…………………………. he will save both of them…………………………. he will make both of them having bright future ………………………….

The english class…………………………………………………………

The reality there are many………………………………………………………… The system said it is little………………………………………………………… I am confused………………………………………………………… I am annoyed………………………………………………………… I am angry………………………………………………………… I can do it properly………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………… All will be fine………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………… He will make all fine………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………… I will be nice to them………………………………………………………… I will be nice to the system………………………………………………………… I will be nice to people in the system………………………………………………………… All has reasons………………………………………………………… Including this………………………………………………………… He has plan for me………………………………………………………… I don’t know it yet………………………………………………………… But I am sure his plan is grand …………………………………………………………

so many shopping…………………………………………………………

in bali………………………………………………………… in online………………………………………………………… and i have to pay the workers too………………………………………………………… in the name of lord………………………………………………………… may he bless all the things I have done………………………………………………………… if he allows………………………………………………………… all of them will gave function in my life………………………………………………………… he is the greatest………………………………………………………… he will make miracles………………………………………………………… he will make me able o pay them all………………………………………………………… he will make me not waste all of them …………………………………………………………

me vs them…………………………………………………………

i dont have to show off my brain………………………………………………………… they do need to………………………………………………………… they should be independent………………………………………………………… and their independence must be reported………………………………………………………… so many reasons………………………………………………………… i am in this position ………………………………………………………… it means i do have the capability………………………………………………………… i am smart………………………………………………………… i understand………………………………………………………… i do grasp it………………………………………………………… in the name of lord………………………………………………………… I hope I am fine………………………………………………………… I hope they fine………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………… We will be fine………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………… He will make them fine………………………………………………………… He will make them clever………………………………………………………… He will make them understand………………………………………………………… He will make them nice …………………………………………………………

mra………………………………………..

scary stories……………………………………….. i think he destroyed lifes of two men……………………………………….. the one he loves……………………………………….. and the one his love cheated on ……………………………………….. from his side of story……………………………………….. he tried so hard to explain the reason……………………………………….. that he is good……………………………………….. as he wants to make his love in the right path……………………………………….. but from my perspective……………………………………….. he cant force that kind of thing to others……………………………………….. he may be allowed to ask others to join him……………………………………….. in his version of right path……………………………………….. i just cant believe what he did……………………………………….. i just pray for him……………………………………….. may he always well……………………………………….. may his purpose is always good……………………………………….. may he finds a right way to meet his purpose……………………………………….. may god open his eyes if he did wrong……………………………………….. may all people around him are fine……………………………………….. his ex……………………………………….. his ex's lover……………………………………….. his family……………………………………….. all of them……………………………………….. may god bless them all ………………………………………………..

20 feb 20 kamis…………………………………………………………………….

Hujan……………………………………………………………………. Car……………………………………………………………………. Kampus……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Wrg……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Lapak eror……………………………………………………………………. Alfa……………………………………………………………………. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………….

19 feb 20 rabu…………………………………………………………………….

Wrg……………………………………………………………………. Kampus……………………………………………………………………. Pulgasik……………………………………………………………………. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………….

18 feb 20 selasa…………………………………………………………………….

Kampus……………………………………………………………………. Lunch with momo mei dwi catur……………………………………………………………………. Kampus……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Lapak……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Ngajar malam……………………………………………………………………. Café with satria……………………………………………………………………. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………….

17 feb 20 senen…………………………………………………………………….

Wrg……………………………………………………………………. Kampus……………………………………………………………………. Took plastic……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Lapak……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Wilis k rumh……………………………………………………………………. Dian k rmh……………………………………………………………………. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………….

16 feb 20 minggu ……………………………………………….

Ped……………………………………………………………………. Jemput dian……………………………………………………………………. Belanja at harmony……………………………………………………………………. Took sprei……………………………………………………………………. Superindo……………………………………………………………………. Lapak……………………………………………………………………. Ped net……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Alfa odol air rokok……………………………………………………………………. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………….

She didn’t give me money yet……………………………………………

Must be patient…………………………………………… All has its own way…………………………………………… Including this…………………………………………… In the name of lord…………………………………………… May he help me…………………………………………… If he allows…………………………………………… He will make my stall have a lot of buyers…………………………………………… He is the greatest…………………………………………… He will make miracles…………………………………………… He will make it produce a lot of money…………………………………………… More than enough…………………………………………… For salary…………………………………………… For rent…………………………………………… For stuffs…………………………………………… For ingredients …………………………………………………

15 feb 20 sabtu……………………………………….

Ped net………………………………………. Allahaukabr……………………………………….

14 feb 20 jumat……………………………………….

Wrg………………………………………. Kampus………………………………………. Super penhyet w Pamela anjun mei………………………………………. Jumatan………………………………………. Super penyet………………………………………. Kampus………………………………………. Allahuakbar……………………………………….

13 feb 20 kamis……………………………………….

Wrg………………………………………. Kampus………………………………………. Cimb………………………………………. Kampus………………………………………. Johar………………………………………. Meet dian………………………………………. Be;anja………………………………………. Wrg………………………………………. Pul………………………………………. Superindo………………………………………. Alfa………………………………………. Allahuakbar……………………………………….

12 feb 20 rabu……………………………………….

Kampus………………………………………. Dijemput ciprut………………………………………. ‘pul………………………………………. Pijet………………………………………. Jne………………………………………. Ada madu telor………………………………………. Warteg………………………………………. Allahuakbar……………………………………….

11 feb 120 selasa……………………………………….

Hotel………………………………………. Cekout………………………………………. Pasar sukowati………………………………………. Celung pusat oleholeh………………………………………. Resto soka………………………………………. Pelabuhan gilimanuk………………………………………. Ppelabuhan ketapang………………………………………. Rm grafika………………………………………. Otw smg………………………………………. Allahuakbar……………………………………….

10 feb 20 senen……………………………………….

I am bali………………………………………. Jogger………………………………………. Rm krisna………………………………………. Pantai padangpadang………………………………………. Jimbaran………………………………………. Makrab………………………………………. Allahuakbar……………………………………….

9 feb 20 minggu……………………………………….

Nyampe bali………………………………………. Transit hotel pop………………………………………. Pura ulun danu bedugul………………………………………. Puja pandawa………………………………………. Pantai pandawa………………………………………. Gwk………………………………………. Hotel………………………………………. Café meet adi………………………………………. Allahuakbar……………………………………….

8 feb 20 sabtu …………………………………………………………

……………………………………………………………….. Gocar………………………………………. Kampus………………………………………. Otw bali………………………………………. Piknik kantor dosen dan karyawan 8 bis………………………………………. Allahuakbar……………………………………….

7 feb 20 jumat…………………………………………………………

Kampus………………………………………………………… Pul………………………………………………………… Sd penarikan magang………………………………………………………… Pul………………………………………………………… Jumatan………………………………………………………… Pul………………………………………………………… Café meet aan………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………

6 feb 20 kamis…………………………………………………………

Wrg………………………………………………………… Kamous………………………………………………………… Pamela………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………

5 feb 20 rabu…………………………………………………………

Wrg………………………………………………………… Kampus………………………………………………………… Pulgsk………………………………………………………… Dik ina………………………………………………………… Pul………………………………………………………… Eplaza meet satrio………………………………………………………… Wrg………………………………………………………… Cl nonton………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………

4 feb 20 selasa…………………………………………………………

Wrg………………………………………………………… Kampus………………………………………………………… Pamela………………………………………………………… Pul………………………………………………………… Lapak bayar sewa………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………

3 feb 20 senen ……………………………………………………………..

Wrg………………………………………………………… Kampus………………………………………………………… Sd………………………………………………………… Allahuaikbar…………………………………………………………

Slippers are gone……………………………………………….

At first I got mad………………………………………………. Now I don’t care………………………………………………. May I got the replacement………………………………………………. I still have a lot at home I think………………………………………………. In the name of lord………………………………………………. May the person who took it realize it………………………………………………. If he allows………………………………………………. He will make him get his sense………………………………………………. He is the greatest………………………………………………. He will make miracles………………………………………………. He will make him not do this kind of thing again………………………………………………. He will make him a good person ……………………………………………….

Someone called me……………………………………………….

He said he is a police………………………………………………. Make my heart race so fast………………………………………………. Make me afraid………………………………………………. Did I do something wrong………………………………………………. Will they put me in prison………………………………………………. Will they catch me………………………………………………. Will they punish me………………………………………………. Lets pray hard………………………………………………. And harder………………………………………………. In the name of lord………………………………………………. Remember those two………………………………………………. If he allows………………………………………………. May he protect those two………………………………………………. He is the greatest………………………………………………. He will make miracles………………………………………………. May I get the opportunity to meet those two again………………………………………………. May we meet in a happy occasion………………………………………………. May we meet in his blessing ……………………………………………….

Dear lord……………………………………………….

You show me couple………………………………………………. Directly in front of my eyes………………………………………………. I want that………………………………………………. I am jealous………………………………………………. In the name of lord………………………………………………. I will make myself better………………………………………………. If he allows………………………………………………. He will make me worthy to have a partner………………………………………………. He is the greatest………………………………………………. He will make miracles………………………………………………. He will send a very great and grand person into my life………………………………………………. He will make that person love me dearly………………………………………………. He will make us live a happy life ……………………………………………….

I should choose the one I had known……………………………………………….

But I didn’t ………………………………………………. Stupid me………………………………………………. I hope it is safe………………………………………………. I am paranoid lately………………………………………………. In the name of lord………………………………………………. I hope I will not be stupid again………………………………………………. If he allows………………………………………………. I will be clever………………………………………………. He is the greatest………………………………………………. He will make miracles………………………………………………. All people I choose will be ok………………………………………………. They will not be bad………………………………………………. I will be safe always …………………………………………………….

I apply in thai…………………………………………………

I do hope I get accepted in india………………………………………………… This is for back up plan………………………………………………… But I got a supervisor here………………………………………………… I wish he will not get mad if I don’t go to thai………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………… If I dot accepted in india………………………………………………… I hope I have a way to make piece with thai supervisor………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………… He will help me to make peace with him………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………… He will get me accepted in india………………………………………………… If I don’t………………………………………………… He will help me got accepted in thai………………………………………………… As this one is expensive………………………………………………… I need a lot of money to apply………………………………………………… Fee for online registration………………………………………………… Fee for English documents sending………………………………………………… All is my efforts………………………………………………… All results are up to him………………………………………………… I surrender………………………………………………… May he give me the best ……………………………………………………

The magic…………………………………..

I want it that way………………………………….. But I am afraid………………………………….. But then again………………………………….. He did make that kind of thing………………………………….. He make it exist in this world………………………………….. That thing cannot be existed if he doesn’t allow it………………………………….. In the name of lord………………………………….. Lord I am confused………………………………….. If he allows………………………………….. I hope he will give me a clue………………………………….. Or clues………………………………….. He is the greatest………………………………….. He will make miracles………………………………….. Maybe I should do both………………………………….. Keep praying hard………………………………….. Really hard………………………………….. Harder and harder………………………………….. And also take that route………………………………….. The point is………………………………….. I give all of my effort………………………………….. One hundred percent and more………………………………….. And give the result to him………………………………….. And surrender the outcome to him ………………………………………..

Mrb…………………………….

I thought it will be quick……………………………. But it took a long time……………………………. I thought he waited there……………………………. But it turned out like this……………………………. In the name of lord……………………………. It turns out everything is ok……………………………. If he allows……………………………. We will be ok……………………………. He is the greatest……………………………. He will make miracles……………………………. He will help mrb……………………………. He will love mrb……………………………. I hope he bless mrb……………………………. He did help me a lot……………………………. I cant count all of them …………………………….

The deads…………………………….

There are so many……………………………. I get confused……………………………. Want to send pray……………………………. But my head got stuck……………………………. Grandma……………………………. Pa……………………………. Uncle……………………………. Aunt……………………………. Step ma……………………………. Aaaaaaa……………………………. Remembering the friends……………………………. ibas……………………………. In the name of lord……………………………. Hope he take care all of them\……………………………. If he allows……………………………. He will put them in a nice place……………………………. He is the greatest……………………………. He will make miracles……………………………. He will love them……………………………. They will love him …………………………………….

The stall……………………………………………

I hope he bless this effort…………………………………………… I hope he help me…………………………………………… I hope he make it sold out…………………………………………… I hope he gives me a lot of buyers’ everyday…………………………………………… I hope I don’t get bankrupt…………………………………………… I hope I get profit everyday…………………………………………… I hope it blooms…………………………………………… I hope I will get a nice place…………………………………………… I hope I can buy a place…………………………………………… I hope I will have a branch…………………………………………… Or branches…………………………………………… In town…………………………………………… In province…………………………………………… All over country…………………………………………… In the name of lord…………………………………………… He will make it sold out…………………………………………… If he allows…………………………………………… He will give profit…………………………………………… He is the greatest…………………………………………… He will make miracles…………………………………………… He will love me…………………………………………… I will love him…………………………………………… Till the end …………………………………………………

The doctor…………………………………….

Telling her about interview……………………………………. As she ask……………………………………. Then the reaction……………………………………. Must be strong……………………………………. Must be patient……………………………………. Being looked down……………………………………. Does she can do this……………………………………. Do they can do this……………………………………. They don’t know mu struggle……………………………………. It has been more than ten years……………………………………. There are so many rejections……………………………………. Let only lord know it……………………………………. Let only lord reward my efforts……………………………………. Let only lord judge me……………………………………. Am I deserved this……………………………………. In the name of lord……………………………………. I hope he thinks I deserve this……………………………………. If he allows……………………………………. He will make me get this……………………………………. He is the greatest……………………………………. He will make miracles……………………………………. He will make me pass the interview……………………………………. He will put me in the next stage……………………………………. Being summoned to the embassy……………………………………. Getting the grants……………………………………. Going there……………………………………. Getting campus……………………………………. Getting place……………………………………. Getting wifi……………………………………. Getting guide……………………………………. Getting students group……………………………………. Getting friends……………………………………. Getting special bond……………………………………. Getting elephant sanctuary ………………………………………….

2 feb 20 minggu……………………………………………………………..

Bmei…………………………………………………………….. Otw pwd…………………………………………………………….. Paguyuban fip…………………………………………………………….. B mei ambil motor…………………………………………………………….. Ngantar bdwi…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. Lapak gaji…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

1 feb 20 sabtu……………………………………………………………..

Wrg…………………………………………………………….. Nyuci motor…………………………………………………………….. Café…………………………………………………………….. Ped…………………………………………………………….. Lapak…………………………………………………………….. Ped netv…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. Lapak…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

31 jan 20 jumat……………………………………………………………..

Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Pamela…………………………………………………………….. Undip…………………………………………………………….. Predi…………………………………………………………….. Bratna…………………………………………………………….. Pamela…………………………………………………………….. Wrg…………………………………………………………….. Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Pamela…………………………………………………………….. Wrg…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

30 jan 20 kamis……………………………………………………………..

Kampus…………………………………………………………….. At kkn siwalan…………………………………………………………….. W anggun mei ikha…………………………………………………………….. Café Oliphant…………………………………………………………….. Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Superindo…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

29 jan 20 rabu……………………………………………………………..

Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Pul gasik…………………………………………………………….. B mei pbroto fia k rmh…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

28 jan 20 selasa……………………………………………………………

.. Kampus…………………………………………………………….. W pamela n anggun…………………………………………………………….. Café…………………………………………………………….. Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Klinik eror…………………………………………………………….. Ped ambil sere…………………………………………………………….. Alfa…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

27 jan 20 senen……………………………………………………………..

…………………………………………………………….. Wrg…………………………………………………………….. Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Sd…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

26 jan 20 minggu ……………………………………………………………………..

Otw smg w ciprut…………………………………………………………….. Rmh…………………………………………………………….. Took plastic…………………………………………………………….. Lapak…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. W ciprut…………………………………………………………….. Jemput bulik…………………………………………………………….. Ambil dompet…………………………………………………………….. Tilik dian…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. Pijet…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

25 jan 20 sabtu……………………………………………………………..

With fam…………………………………………………………….. Sarapan…………………………………………………………….. Durian place…………………………………………………………….. Market…………………………………………………………….. Grandma place…………………………………………………………….. Pharmacy…………………………………………………………….. Grandpa place…………………………………………………………….. Dawet jabung…………………………………………………………….. Movie…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

24 jan 20 jumat……………………………………………………………..

Wrg…………………………………………………………….. Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Ped…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. Otw ponorogo w ciprut…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..