Thursday, January 1, 2015
i believe your plan is much better than mine
their kiss burns my eyes
stabs my heart
into pieces
feels like hell
the jealous in me
eat my soul
eat my brain
i am undone
it is always like this
being the third wheel
when will i become the one
for the one who i love
and it is happening on new year
is it a sign
that i will not get that kind of love
that i should stay away from that kind of love
being positive
i will believe you
i will trust you
you are the only one who loves me
unconditionally
THE WATER DROPS
walking step by step
in the middle of the jungle
nothing to hear
just the sound of water drops
the sound of Your greeting
You greet the deads
You create the greens
You create the lives
being grateful
being thankful
admiring how everything changes
You greet the earth
the water drops greet the greens
the steps continue
the drops don't stop
the cold embraces all
it is You
everything is You
all around is You
the feeling of being small
very tiny
compare to all You have
what is the thought?
being afraid? or being amazed?
everything becomes one
it never stops
just imagining being all alone but You
it is always You
nothing understands me better but You
nothing accepts me completely but You
(jambangan 181214 1500)
the light, the big and me
i just stood there
staring at the big standing there
while the light warming me
i tried really hard
deep breathing
inhaling You
understanding You
searching You
where are the signs?
i am not that good YET
need You to show me
explicitly
that You are exist
that You are here
with me
around me
protect me
then the clouds hide the light
is it the illumination?
is it Your way to illuminate me?
don't go
believing You
You can do EVERYTHING
i can do what You allow me to do
You can do all the big things
admiring You
realizing how small i am
realizing how great You are
then the life goes on
i am here
carrying Your gifts
(kalimati 191214 0600)
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