wow.............................

they attacks my psyche............................. i see them everywhere............................. home and around............................. office and around............................. streets............................. and that hurts more............................. i come undone............................. my body gets affected............................. lord i am not strong............................. lord help me please............................. lord make me strong please............................. lord protect me please............................. lord come to me please............................. lord i am sorry .............................

wow.............................

wow............................. they attacks my psyche............................. i see them everywhere............................. home and around............................. office and around............................. streets............................. and that hurts more............................. i come undone............................. my body gets affected............................. lord i am not strong............................. lord help me please............................. lord make me strong please............................. lord protect me please............................. lord come to me please............................. lord i am sorry .............................

i should not be selfish..........................

i must protect my family.......................... i must protect my relatives.......................... i must protect my coworkers.......................... lord help me please.......................... lord protect me please.......................... lord protect my family please.......................... lord protect my relatives please.......................... lord protect my coworkers please.......................... lord protect people around me please.......................... lord it is a very heavy attack.......................... lord i am not strong enough.......................... lord make me strong please ..........................

maybe it is all because of him...................................

he is behind these all................................... i dont know................................... i want to feel safe................................... lord help me please................................... i will present all my life and all my death................................... i will present all my body and soul................................... i will present all my love...................................................................... lord i surrender................................... lord i love you................................... lord i am afraid................................... lord i love you................................... lord i cant handle this'................................... lord i love you................................... lord please come to me ...................................

are you in holiday ..........................................

is it far away .......................................... congrats for that .......................................... please come back soon .......................................... i will wait for you .......................................... i beg you .......................................... lord .......................................... bring him back to me .......................................... lord dont make him leave .......................................... lord you are my saviour .......................................... lord he is the extenson of your hand .......................................... lord i love you ..........................................

cannot make a good poem..................................

i have limited vocabs.................................. meanwhile i did read a lot of books.................................. i hope i can grasp all the things i read.................................. back then i feel cocky.................................. i can finish a lot of books.................................. now i get the punishment.................................. all i read have gone.................................. not staying in me.................................. maybe this is a conviction.................................. coz i did steal a lot of books in library.................................. lord help me please.................................. bring back all the things i have read ..................................

now it happens again………………………………………….

thei become noisy bout what their own need…………………………………………. lord help me please…………………………………………. lord make me strong please…………………………………………. to face them…………………………………………. to face it…………………………………………. to take their noisiness…………………………………………. I hope everything will run smoothly…………………………………………. I hope there will not be cancellation…………………………………………. I hope there will not be heartache…………………………………………. I hope their noisiness will not disturb me…………………………………………. my calm, my aim, my pray…………………………………………. I hope I can focus what is important…………………………………………. I hope I will be safe there…………………………………………. I hope that place will make me happy ………………………………………….

hsti it here..................................

one of the reasons is that.................................. the story is crazily insane.................................. making me very irritated.................................. knowing the story line.................................. hearing it unwillingly.................................. becoming stone in my throat.................................. but must accept it.................................. must be patient.................................. it will be a little more.................................. the course will be ended.................................. no more coming here.................................. connecting in office.................................. of in cafe.................................. or maybe there is a belssing in disguise here.................................. that i dont know ..................................

chat with him ....................................

great .................................... now he has a partner .................................... who has children and wife .................................... and he is ready .................................... that in the future he will be dumped .................................... and he also has plan .................................... making their own family .................................... lord .................................... want that .................................... lord .................................... help me .................................... send to me .................................... confused .................................... there are choices .................................... you want that .................................... i want this .................................... lord .................................... help me please ....................................

they do it again..............................

like before.............................. there is a plan.............................. but i do not go there yet.............................. and they have already been bothering me with a lot of things.............................. making me annoyed.............................. but i have to accept it.............................. i must be patient.............................. i must be silent.............................. report it to him............................................................ i hope it did not happen again.............................. the failure like before.............................. i hope bless it.............................. i hope protect it ..............................

want to pray..................................

but there are a lot of things they ask me to do.................................. buy them all.................................. but me.................................. i dont want it.................................. being thrifty.................................. and dont want to make myself comfortable.................................. when bringing not so much things.................................. i hope i can be strong.................................. i must be strong.................................. holding the desire to shop.................................. whn i cant do it in a day to day basis.................................. let the lord help me.................................. i believe that.................................. i beg for that ..................................

i plan and i make debt..............................

my debt is piling up.............................. as i believe to something that is not certain yet.............................. that doesnt exist yet.............................. i rely the way i pay to that thing.............................. the one that doesnt exist yet.............................. the one that isnt certain yet.............................. jthat is satanic.............................. what he said.............................. now i cant be like that.............................. stop making plan.............................. stop making debt.............................. all must be paid little by little.............................. the cc maybe next month.............................. the aunt dont know when.............................. the office one and two will deducted from my salary monthly.............................. i must be able to live with my limited salary.............................. and i must be able to pay his tuition till he graduates.............................. may lord help me ..............................

something hits me..............................

i did have a plan.............................. to have a borading house business.............................. comcortable living after not working.............................. no more salary from work.............................. but get income from it.............................. then they talk about debt.............................. i got hit.............................. my debt now is a lot.............................. all my plan is ruined.............................. my debt is piling up.............................. in the cc.............................. in aunt.............................. in office1.............................. in office2.............................. i think i cant have plan nomore.............................. i cant have debt nomorw.............................. i cant rely on something doesnt exist yet.............................. something that is not certain yet.............................. that is satanic whisper.............................. that is satanic promise ..............................

i am afraid of my own home...............................

lord............................... love me please............................... dont make me like this............................... dont make situation like this............................... make it like before............................... as twice happening previously............................... make me dont care............................... but i will care to you............................... i will not ignore you............................... i will pray to you............................... i will whorship you'............................... i will report all to you............................... you are the only harbor............................... for my sailing ...............................

thx god.............................................

i go here............................................. free connection............................................. and all apps in cell suddenly updating by itself............................................. i hope i can do this often............................................. in the future............................................. make me happy............................................. mke them happy............................................. make everybody happy............................................. make you happy............................................. dear lord............................................. i am afraid............................................. you will punish me again............................................. dear lord............................................. love me please .............................................

kronologi............................

forgetting where i know the satan from............................ chat through app............................ meeting it............................ getting error............................ it was on june............................ then i got text from unknown numbers............................ it looks like it spies on me............................ it knows where my sis has her intern............................ i dont care............................ i reported it to baskoro............................ then it was on september i think............................ three satans come to my work place............................ the brother the wife the journalist............................ threathened me............................ i dont care............................ then i reported it to ryan............................ then it is on december............................ two people come to my place............................ the satan and his fren............................ i reported it to ryan and andre............................ i do scared a lot............................ it is different from before............................ i dont know why............................ lord help me please............................ lord protect me please ............................

22 des 18 sabtu..............................

atm.............................. pom.............................. dpmall.............................. cafe.............................. belanaj.............................. wrg.............................. allahuakbar..............................

21 des 18 jumat..............................

kamous.............................. pul.............................. masjid.............................. pul.............................. allahuakbar..............................

20 des 18 kamis..............................

wtg.............................. kampus.............................. bni.............................. allahuakbar..............................

19 des 18 rabu..............................

kampus.............................. bayar pajak motor.............................. fatima zahra.............................. kampus.............................. pucang gading acara kampus.............................. naik mobil bu fe w oamela.............................. kampus ambil motor.............................. allahuakbar..............................

18 des 18 selasa..............................

kampus.............................. bni w bmei pkamto banggun bikha adel.............................. pelangi cafe.............................. kampus ambil motor.............................. allahuakbar..............................

17 des 18 senen..............................

kampus.............................. bni with pamela.............................. kampus.............................. undip meet andre.............................. kampus.............................. alfa.............................. mlm ped.............................. net.............................. ngaji.............................. allahuakbar..............................

16 des 18 nminggu..............................

pom.............................. wrg.............................. gym.............................. om yono n om hari k rumah fixing roof.............................. ada setan.............................. allahuakbar..............................

15 des 18 sabtu..............................

dpmall.............................. alfa.............................. allhuakbar..............................

14 des 18 jumat..............................

dpmall.............................. meet wawan.............................. plg banjir.............................. but safe.............................. allhuakbar..............................

13 des 18 kamis..............................

wrg.............................. kampus.............................. pulgasik.............................. gym.............................. mlm w ciprut n saufa k ped.............................. jemput aunt ddian din.............................. java.............................. dinner.............................. ped ambil mobil.............................. allahuakbar..............................

12 des 18 rabu..............................

kampus.............................. mlm javamall.............................. meet nina n ahmed.............................. nonton.............................. allahuakbar'..............................

11 des 18 selasa …………………………………………….

11 des 18 selasa.............................. kampus.............................. pulgasik.............................. dpt kejutan ciprut.............................. allahuakbar..............................

afraid of the satan.....................................

stupid..................................... dont be afraid of the satan..................................... afraid of his wrath..................................... believe in him..................................... believe that he will help..................................... there are a lot of unseen angels..................................... the neighbors..................................... people in this city..................................... friends in this city..................................... family in this city..................................... people in the world..................................... friends in the world..................................... family in the world .....................................…………………………

lord..........................

i hope it is the last.......................... i dont order double.......................... i dont order extra.......................... i am trying.......................... lord.......................... make me strong.......................... dont make me waek of temptation.......................... here is full of those.......................... help me please.......................... lead me to your place.......................... the free one.......................... the cheap one.......................... the one that full of socialitaion ..........................

lord.............................

enough of this fear............................. enough of this torture............................. enough of this punishment............................. i am reaaly afraid............................. i promise............................. i will not be naughty anymore............................. i will be a good boy............................. waiting for your package............................. i will make myself worthy............................. so you will a valuable partner for me .............................

that person......................

looking at me...................... me looking at it...................... several times our eyes meet...................... locked...................... i dont know what to do...................... lord...................... tell me what to do...................... if it is good for me...................... make it close to me...................... if it is bad for me...................... make it far away from me...................... i dont want to be alone...................... i want a partner...................... who can be my leader...................... lead me to you ......................

all the things in this world are pseudo…………………………………………………..

even what is already in hand is mirage………………………………………………….. what is in hand doesn’t mean it is for us………………………………………………….. satanic false hope………………………………………………….. I thought what I have in hand is securely mine………………………………………………….. thus I do everything carelessly………………………………………………….. I make it to the max style………………………………………………….. and it turns out all of that is fake………………………………………………….. all of that is mirage………………………………………………….. he took it all away………………………………………………….. left me behind hopelessly………………………………………………….. full of blood and pus………………………………………………….. crying inside continuously………………………………………………….. inside the heart and soul …………………………………………………..

the connection is error…………………………………………………..

I have a lot to do………………………………………………….. I am confused………………………………………………….. I am stressed………………………………………………….. lord help me please………………………………………………….. I want to go home………………………………………………….. I want to meet my bike………………………………………………….. I want to find it in another place………………………………………………….. at aunt place………………………………………………….. at café………………………………………………….. but I am poor now………………………………………………….. don’t do it in café………………………………………………….. it is expensive………………………………………………….. make it at aunt place………………………………………………….. it is free………………………………………………….. but I should bear all the condition …………………………………………………..

mrw…………………………………………………..

want it………………………………………………….. but I don’t know………………………………………………….. if it is good for me or not………………………………………………….. lord help me please………………………………………………….. show me the way………………………………………………….. make it close if it is good for me………………………………………………….. make it far if it is bad for me………………………………………………….. lord help me please………………………………………………….. don’t give me false hope………………………………………………….. don’t make me sad………………………………………………….. don’t fly me high………………………………………………….. if in the end you make me fall …………………………………………………..

remember old time…………………………………………………..

have a police as a lover………………………………………………….. now regretting it………………………………………………….. want to go back to that time………………………………………………….. feeling stupid………………………………………………….. why did I have to let it go………………………………………………….. now feel insecure………………………………………………….. being chased by satan………………………………………………….. want to have that back………………………………………………….. so I will feel safe………………………………………………….. I will be calm………………………………………………….. lord help me please………………………………………………….. bring it back to me………………………………………………….. make me safe………………………………………………….. make me calm………………………………………………….. make me happy …………………………………………………..

all my notes are gone…………………………………………………..

coz my lap suddenly dead………………………………………………….. it is my fault………………………………………………….. I did not charge………………………………………………….. and I left it on the table………………………………………………….. making me stressed………………………………………………….. and now the connection is error too………………………………………………….. lord help me please………………………………………………….. make it work smoothly………………………………………………….. save my things nicely………………………………………………….. make it last long………………………………………………….. thus I can work………………………………………………….. making income for living………………………………………………….. and I will give my life to you………………………………………………….. my work………………………………………………….. my socialization\………………………………………………….. my salary………………………………………………….. my love………………………………………………….. my laugh………………………………………………….. my smile………………………………………………….. my cry………………………………………………….. my happiness………………………………………………….. my sadness ………………………………………………….. my everything …………………………………………………..

motorbike…………………………………………………..

I did buy food………………………………………………….. for the first time………………………………………………….. in that place………………………………………………….. then the seller borrowed my moto………………………………………………….. I didi not feel good\………………………………………………….. afraid that he will steal my moto………………………………………………….. in the name of lord………………………………………………….. I hope everything will be ok………………………………………………….. lord help me please………………………………………………….. lord protect me please………………………………………………….. from bad people………………………………………………….. who have evil intention for me………………………………………………….. I am afraid of that kind of thing………………………………………………….. I give you my all………………………………………………….. you are my everything………………………………………………….. without you I am nothing …………………………………………………..

his text makes me hurt\………………………………………..

now he doesn’t really care about me……………………………………….. I can see it through his text……………………………………….. I must fight alone……………………………………….. lord help me please……………………………………….. send me friends……………………………………….. should I report to aan……………………………………….. but the most important thing is to report to you……………………………………….. I give it all to you……………………………………….. all my problems……………………………………….. that satan……………………………………….. myself……………………………………….. all of me……………………………………….. my fear……………………………………….. I hope you come soon……………………………………….. to help me……………………………………….. to hold mev……………………………………….. to save me ………………………………………..

little kids at campus………………………………………..

many times seeing them……………………………………….. in the hall……………………………………….. making me want to have kids……………………………………….. lord help me please……………………………………….. allow me to have kids……………………………………….. allow me to adopt kids……………………………………….. many of them……………………………………….. lord help me please……………………………………….. allow me to be a parent……………………………………….. guide me to be a good father……………………………………….. lord help me please……………………………………….. allow me to love kids……………………………………….. allow me to prove myself……………………………………….. to you……………………………………….. showing all my strength……………………………………….. to the max……………………………………….. for you ………………………………………..

when I am in the traffic light………………………………………..

I become afraid of that satan……………………………………….. he comes to my mind constantly……………………………………….. when I am in the parking lot ……………………………………….. I am afraid of satan……………………………………….. everybody seems like him to me……………………………………….. when I am in the street……………………………………….. I am afraid of satan……………………………………….. the one behind me looks like him……………………………………….. or just my imagination……………………………………….. I don’t know……………………………………….. I am going crazy……………………………………….. lord help me please……………………………………….. lord protect me please……………………………………….. the things in the fence makes me afraid……………………………………….. when sis goes to home town……………………………………….. getting afraid of being left alone……………………………………….. when she is here……………………………………….. getting afraid that the satan will disturb her……………………………………….. lord help my family please……………………………………….. lord protect my family please ………………………………………..

I remember the satan in the pray room………………………………………..

I am very afraid……………………………………….. want to cry……………………………………….. it is very heavy burden……………………………………….. a lot of problems come to me……………………………………….. when I watch film……………………………………….. I am afraid that the satan come……………………………………….. I become sensitive to all things……………………………………….. it is very uncomfortable……………………………………….. lord help me please……………………………………….. lord protect me please……………………………………….. in the morning I am afraid again……………………………………….. in the name of lord……………………………………….. lord help me please……………………………………….. lord protect me please ………………………………………..

that man......................

i get a very bad vibe...................... lord help me please...................... i am very afraid...................... i hope my insticnt is wrong...................... i hope you protect my family...................... my sis...................... my place...................... god help me please...................... i cant help it...................... this feeling ruins me...................... god help me please...................... i did stop things like that...................... meeting people...................... meeting strangers...................... i just use my own strength...................... my own power...................... to entertain myself...................... to make myself happy...................... in my bubble...................... i hope you are here...................... in it...................... my bubble ......................

so it is amazingly how great you are...................................

it comes simultanously................................... yesterday it was the satan................................... not it is the fund................................... i dont know lord................................... it is up to you lord................................... i dont know what you want................................... but i will take everything you give me................................... until my last drop of blood................................... i am tired to protest................................... i am tired to ask................................... you never answer................................... maybe you did give me answer................................... but i dont want to hear................................... the first means that i shoul stop................................... from the satan world................................... the later means what................................... should i stop pursue my study................................... okay then................................... so be it ...................................

the satan comes again\...........................

lord help me please........................... i am afraid........................... afraid that he will come to my place again........................... afraid that he will come to office again........................... afraid he will harm my family........................... lord help me please........................... i am sorry i have a bad wish........................... kill him........................... so he will not be in this world........................... but seeing around........................... usually you take the good ones........................... and you left the bad ones........................... lord help me please........................... give him a good conscience'........................... so he will not do bad things agaiin........................... not harm me again........................... not harm others again ...........................

she asked me to go to pkl.............................

i dont know why i get angry............................. maybe there is a satan inside me............................. though the suggestion is good............................. she asked me to do silaturahim............................. to pa's family............................. thus it should not be broken............................. and i realize............................. that it has been awhile since i go to ngaliyan............................. lord help me please............................. make me go there............................. give me time............................. and intention............................. thus this entity do really go there............................. socializing............................. joking............................. in your way .............................

crazy night……………………………..

heavy rain in the afternoon…………………………….. still at office…………………………….. don’t go home yet…………………………….. wait for the rain to stop…………………………….. at night the rain decreases…………………………….. going home with motorcycle…………………………….. flood everywhere…………………………….. go back to campus…………………………….. put motor at campus…………………………….. trying to find online cab…………………………….. it is very difficult…………………………….. the signal is error…………………………….. the wifi is error…………………………….. the app is error…………………………….. maybe it was a punishment…………………………….. I do not face him yet…………………………….. but I was safe in the end ……………………………..

10 des 18 senen…………………………………………….

kmpus……………………………………………. w Pamela……………………………………………. bakery……………………………………………. soto……………………………………………. psubur……………………………………………. undip……………………………………………. kampus……………………………………………. mlm ped……………………………………………. net……………………………………………. ngaji……………………………………………. allahuakbar…………………………………………….

9 dea 18 minggu…………………………………………….

siang gym……………………………………………. mlml latihan mobil w ciprut n saufa……………………………………………. ss……………………………………………. allahuakbar…………………………………………….

8 dea 18 sabtu…………………………………………….

klinik……………………………………………. dpmall……………………………………………. mlm jemput baskoro……………………………………………. citra meet ibas n awi……………………………………………. sk……………………………………………. ngante baskoro……………………………………………. allahuakbar…………………………………………….

7 dea 18 jumat…………………………………………….

wrg……………………………………………. kampus……………………………………………. allahuakbar…………………………………………….