I didnt teach……………………………………..

Sorry students…………………………………….. Yesterweek I got gusy with my lappy…………………………………….. This week I got busy with my papers…………………………………….. Lord…………………………………….. I am sorry…………………………………….. Lord…………………………………….. I hope it is not negative…………………………………….. I hope I can teach in the future…………………………………….. I don’t have to be excused…………………………………….. I can attend classes…………………………………….. In the name of lord…………………………………….. I hope he will help me…………………………………….. I wish he will bless me…………………………………….. I love you lord ……………………………………..

Sleep at traffic light……………………………………..

In the name of lord…………………………………….. I hope it wont happen again…………………………………….. I am shocked…………………………………….. I am worried…………………………………….. A lot of negative thoughts…………………………………….. Sleep while driving…………………………………….. It is dangerous…………………………………….. In the name of lord…………………………………….. I hope it wont happen again…………………………………….. I hope I will be safe in the future…………………………………….. I hope I wont be sleepy again while driving…………………………………….. I hope I wont sleep while driving…………………………………….. I hope he will always protect me ……………………………………..

They ignore me……………………………………..

In the name of lord…………………………………….. I must be strong…………………………………….. I must be patient…………………………………….. I did it my best…………………………………….. In the name of lord…………………………………….. Pray for them…………………………………….. I hope they got it smoothly…………………………………….. I hope I got it smoothly too…………………………………….. I hope they can make it…………………………………….. I hope I can make it too…………………………………….. I hope god bless them…………………………………….. I hope god bless me too…………………………………….. I hope god love them…………………………………….. I hope god love me too ……………………………………..

I shouldn’t go home early……………………………………..

And it is right…………………………………….. I got text…………………………………….. She said I did it wrong…………………………………….. In the name of lord…………………………………….. I hope today everything runs smoothly…………………………………….. I hope I can finish it all today…………………………………….. Lord…………………………………….. I am afraid I will fail…………………………………….. Lord…………………………………….. I am afraid it will happen again…………………………………….. Lord…………………………………….. I force myself to be positive…………………………………….. I love you lord ……………………………………..

A lot of disturbances……………………………………..

Printer didn’t connect…………………………………….. But being grateful…………………………………….. Mrb help me…………………………………….. And it works…………………………………….. Printer has a long line…………………………………….. But being grateful…………………………………….. I have my turn…………………………………….. The connection was error…………………………………….. But being grateful…………………………………….. I can do my job…………………………………….. Dear lord…………………………………….. I want to make it fast…………………………………….. I want to run…………………………………….. But there are a lot of obstacles…………………………………….. Dear lord…………………………………….. Make me patient please ………………………………………………..

Did something bad……………………………………….

Feeling very guilty………………………………………. I am sorry lord………………………………………. I promise I will never do that again………………………………………. Visiting aunty place………………………………………. Sitting outside………………………………………. No talking………………………………………. Stay silence………………………………………. No answering………………………………………. That was very bad of me………………………………………. Should not have done that………………………………………. Should sit inside………………………………………. Should talk to them………………………………………. Should answer them………………………………………. Will do that next time………………………………………. May lord help me………………………………………. May lord forgive me………………………………………. May lord bless me ……………………………………………….

30 sep 19 senen……………………………………..

Kampus…………………………………….. Pamela…………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………..

29 sep 19 minggu ……………………………………….

At ponorogo…………………………………….. Otw smg w cip n ma…………………………………….. Mampir rujak petis…………………………………….. Rest area madiun…………………………………….. Rest area ngawi…………………………………….. Bulik…………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………..

28 sep 19 sabtu……………………………………………

At ponorogo………………………………………. With fam go places………………………………………. Market buy flowers………………………………………. Grandpa grave………………………………………. Dawet………………………………………. Grandma grave………………………………………. Salon………………………………………. Maksi………………………………………. Pul………………………………………. Allahuakbar……………………………………….

27 sep 19 jumat ……………………………………………………

Kampus…………………………………………… Bni…………………………………………… Pul…………………………………………… Jumatan…………………………………………… Pul…………………………………………… Otw ponorogo with ciprut…………………………………………… Rest area sragen…………………………………………… Makan di madiun…………………………………………… Mpe dg selamat…………………………………………… Allahuakbar……………………………………………

In the name of lord………………………………………………

Allow me to go there……………………………………………… Allow me to get supervisor……………………………………………… Allow me to get acceptance……………………………………………… Allow me to get scholarship……………………………………………… Allow me to study……………………………………………… Allow me to study more……………………………………………… Allow me to get permit……………………………………………… I want all that……………………………………………… I want you to grant all of those……………………………………………… I promise……………………………………………… I will always love you……………………………………………… I will always obey you……………………………………………… I will never go against you……………………………………………… I want to experience all those……………………………………………… And you are with me in all my steps……………………………………………… In every stages……………………………………………… Till the end……………………………………………… Never letting me go……………………………………………… Never be apart……………………………………………… Always be together ………………………………………………

Let my fly lord………………………………………………

Give me wing lord……………………………………………… I will fly towards you……………………………………………… I will not leave you……………………………………………… I will not get afar from you……………………………………………… I will not do wrong to you……………………………………………… I will fly in your way……………………………………………… I will fly in your path……………………………………………… Allow me to taste the world……………………………………………… Allow me to grasp the world you create……………………………………………… Allow me to feel the beauty of the world you create……………………………………………… Allow me to go around the world……………………………………………… I want you to be with me……………………………………………… Take me everywhere……………………………………………… Roam all places in the world ………………………………………………

26 sep 19 kamis………………………………………………

Kampus……………………………………………… Bank jateng……………………………………………… Masjid……………………………………………… Kampus……………………………………………… Bni erir……………………………………………… Café……………………………………………… Apotek……………………………………………… Allahuakbar………………………………………………

25 sep 19 rabu ………………………………………………

Hotel……………………………………………… Kampus……………………………………………… Pul……………………………………………… With ciprut……………………………………………… Atm bri……………………………………………… Jemput dian……………………………………………… Took kasur……………………………………………… Kfc……………………………………………… Apotek……………………………………………… Tlogosari……………………………………………… Nganter dian……………………………………………… Allahuakbar………………………………………………

Going there……………………………………………………………

At three…………………………………………………………… It is very tight…………………………………………………………… It seems impossible…………………………………………………………… But his power is real…………………………………………………………… Believe in him…………………………………………………………… He can make miracle…………………………………………………………… If he allows the announcement will be tomorrow…………………………………………………………… If he allows I can process the chief’s letter in a flash…………………………………………………………… If he allows I can process the minister’s letter quickly…………………………………………………………… If he allows I can process my visa in full speed…………………………………………………………… If he allows I will go there for sure…………………………………………………………… If he allows I will get supervisor there…………………………………………………………… If he allows I will get the loa there…………………………………………………………… He is the greatest ……………………………………………………………

Mrn……………………………………………………………

I hope he gets his destination safely…………………………………………………………… I hope his interview runs smoothly…………………………………………………………… I hope he gets the job…………………………………………………………… I hope he moves to this city…………………………………………………………… I hope he gets a room here…………………………………………………………… I hope he can study while working…………………………………………………………… I hope I can help him…………………………………………………………… I hope this plan is blessed by him…………………………………………………………… I hope this plan is liked by him…………………………………………………………… I hope this plan is loved by him…………………………………………………………… I hope he help him…………………………………………………………… I hope he help me…………………………………………………………… I hope he help all ………………………………………………………………………

I don’t want to be cocky………………………………………………………………………

I really ask pray from them……………………………………………………………………… I am afraid……………………………………………………………………… Then I play it secretly……………………………………………………………………… I didn’t have the courage to tell others……………………………………………………………………… Afraid being cocky……………………………………………………………………… Afraid of something bad happen……………………………………………………………………… And it did happen……………………………………………………………………… Now I have the courage to tell others……………………………………………………………………… As I ask for their pray for me……………………………………………………………………… I don’t have the intention to show off……………………………………………………………………… I don’t have the intention to be arrogant……………………………………………………………………… As I do really feel afraid……………………………………………………………………… That that happening will happen again……………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord……………………………………………………………………… I love you lord ………………………………………………………………………

Thinking about the program with mrsm………………………………………………………………………

I heard negative things about her from others……………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord……………………………………………………………………… I hope that will not happen to me……………………………………………………………………… I hope all is positive……………………………………………………………………… I hope all will run smoothly……………………………………………………………………… I hope god bless this……………………………………………………………………… I hope all get along well……………………………………………………………………… I hope all work well……………………………………………………………………… I hope the program will run without obstacles……………………………………………………………………… I hope the effects will be positive……………………………………………………………………… I hope there are no negative……………………………………………………………………… I hope we can work together again in the future……………………………………………………………………… I hope all is happy ……………………………………………………………………………

24 sep 19 selasa………………………………………………………………………

Kampus……………………………………………………………………… Pul……………………………………………………………………… Hotel……………………………………………………………………… Nizar……………………………………………………………………… Mlm k java……………………………………………………………………… Nginep hotel……………………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………………

23 sep 19 senen………………………………………………………………………

Kamous……………………………………………………………………… Satriyo……………………………………………………………………… Simpanglima……………………………………………………………………… Bowo……………………………………………………………………… Istana mi……………………………………………………………………… Scc……………………………………………………………………… Atm……………………………………………………………………… Scc……………………………………………………………………… Nganter bowo ke roni……………………………………………………………………… Nganter bowo k brt……………………………………………………………………… Marina w satriyo……………………………………………………………………… Kampus……………………………………………………………………… Pul……………………………………………………………………… Café……………………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………………

22 sep 19 minggu………………………………………………………………………

Seharian d rmh……………………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………………

21 sep 19 sabtu …

………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… Dinus……………………………………………………………………… Pul……………………………………………………………………… Ketiduran di jalan……………………………………………………………………… Malam rapat rt……………………………………………………………………… Nongkrong witk neighbors……………………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………………

should i teach reading....................................

but i want listening.................................... i hope it is allright.................................... i hope it is not negative.................................... i hope it give positives effects.................................... and students come late.................................... i got irritated by it at first.................................... but now i force myself to enjoy it.................................... all has reasons pray for them.................................... so they can be smart.................................... they will handle this land.................................... lead this land.................................... manage this land.................................... in the future.................................... it is in heir hands ..............................................

the guests come early......................................

the food is not ready...................................... that time i feel negative all around...................................... but thx lord...................................... all is running smoothly...................................... being grateful for that...................................... then my mind is all tangled uo...................................... being afraid...................................... if something bad happen...................................... the food is lacking...................................... or else...................................... afraid if he gets angry...................................... he is different now...................................... all little things can trigger his anger...................................... those little things can make him angry .....................................................

20 sep 19 jumat…………………………………………………

kampus………………………………………………… kampus 3 nunut momo………………………………………………… jumatan at sampangan………………………………………………… nunut catur………………………………………………… kampus………………………………………………… pul………………………………………………… mlm dijemput satrio………………………………………………… hungrill kitchen………………………………………………… noms kopi………………………………………………… allahuakbar……………………………………………………………………………………………………

19 sep 19 kamis…………………………………………………

atm………………………………………………… pom………………………………………………… kampus………………………………………………… matahari………………………………………………… ada………………………………………………… kampus………………………………………………… Pamela………………………………………………… pul………………………………………………… olip k rmh………………………………………………… ke temenya ciprut………………………………………………… minta kucing………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………

18 sep 19 rabu…………………………………………………

kampus………………………………………………… johar ngantar anjun………………………………………………… café………………………………………………… pul………………………………………………… pijet………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………

17 sep 19 selasa…………………………………………………

kampus………………………………………………… indosat w anjun………………………………………………… johar ngantar anjun………………………………………………… simpanglima………………………………………………… parker baiturhman………………………………………………… meet bowo………………………………………………… pizza hut………………………………………………… computer center………………………………………………… toko oen………………………………………………… the………………………………………………… olip………………………………………………… ngantar bowo pul kaliwungu………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………

16 sep 19 senen…………………………………………………

kampus………………………………………………… alfa………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………

15 sep 19 minggu…………………………………………………

nikahan dik inug………………………………………………… at novi pamitan………………………………………………… at hotel packing………………………………………………… otw smg w mom dan dad………………………………………………… rest area 2x………………………………………………… mpe smg mlm………………………………………………… allahuakbatr…………………………………………………

14 sep 19 sabtu…………………………………………………

with bapak n ciprut………………………………………………… otw cikampek………………………………………………… mampir rest area brebes………………………………………………… mpe guest house………………………………………………… ke calonnya dik inuk………………………………………………… balik hotel………………………………………………… mlm diner………………………………………………… indomaret………………………………………………… hotel………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………

13 sep 19 jumat ……………………………………………………………………….

kampus………………………………………………… jumatan at sampangan………………………………………………… at unnes………………………………………………… ujian s3 pak aji………………………………………………… kampus………………………………………………… superindo………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………

someone slap my car in the street....................

i want to turn left.................... so i take the left side of the road.................... i am right, aint i.................... so why did he do that.................... it is scary.................... may it will not happen again in the future.................... may lord give that person patient.................... and peace be with him always........................................ may lord protect me from those bad guys.................... may lord protect us all.................... may lord love us all..................................... may lord save us all .....................................

it seems like they don’t like it………………………………………………

he doesn’t like it……………………………………………… it is scary to have this thought……………………………………………… that I am happy……………………………………………… when I update my status……………………………………………… showing that I am a little bit happy……………………………………………… then suddenly there is a thing that forces me back down……………………………………………… dear lord……………………………………………… make me patient please …………………………………………………………………

12 sep 19 kamis………………………………………………………

kampus……………………………………………………… allahuakbar………………………………………………………

11 sep 19 rabu………………………………………………………

sekolah……………………………………………………… wrg……………………………………………………… kampus……………………………………………………… allhuakbar………………………………………………………

10 sep 19 selasa………………………………………………………

kampus……………………………………………………… bhslps……………………………………………………… allahuakbar………………………………………………………

9 sep 19 senen………………………………………………………

kampus……………………………………………………… bhsps……………………………………………………… allahuakbar………………………………………………………

8 sep 19 minggu………………………………………………………

café……………………………………………………… allahuakbar………………………………………………………

7 sep 19 sabtu………………………………………………………

gym……………………………………………………… pul……………………………………………………… café……………………………………………………… pul……………………………………………………… layat……………………………………………………… bulik pengajian……………………………………………………… anekajaya……………………………………………………… allahuakbar………………………………………………………

6 sep 19 jumat ……………………………………………………………………..

kampus……………………………………………………… café w Pamela……………………………………………………… kampus……………………………………………………… jumatan……………………………………………………… Pamela……………………………………………………… allahuakbar………………………………………………………

in the name of lord..................................

i cant stand it lord.................................. i cant bear it lord.................................. my chest feels heavy.................................. i am shaking.................................. help me lord.................................. make me enjoy it.................................. tho it is very hard.................................. let me do it slowly.................................. let me finish it in my own pace.................................. slow but sure.................................. tho it hurts.................................. i feel being used ............................................

for you..................................

be patient.................................. there is a reason behind all.................................. tho we don not know the reason now.................................. just believe it.................................. that he makes you quit the current job now for your own good.................................. maybe if you continue to work at current place.................................................................... it will be bad for you.................................. if he allows.................................. there will be a btter replacement.................................. concentrate on your study.................................. make yourself comfortable first.................................. if he allows i will help.................................. may he give me the power to do so.................................. if you feel comfortable in your study.................................. you can find a new job.................................. maybe it is one of the reasons you are being laid off.................................. so you can adapt on your new study.................................. it needs adaptation.................................. it needs habituation.................................. it needs routine.................................. if you have them all.................................. you feel comfortable.................................. you feel ok.................................. you could search for new opportunities.................................. dont forget to be always spiritful .............................................

i didnt bring drink........................

expecting there will be a lot of it here........................ as it is a party........................ but it is zonk........................ lord i entrust a pray........................ for him and his family........................ his old family........................ his new family........................ for me........................ for my parents........................ for your lover and his descendants........................ for your first being and his descendants........................ they seem lacking of chairs........................ they seem lacking of food................................. he is the greatest................................. all is well .......................................

it is artful and it is artsy...........................................

to have the ability to write the unreadable........................................... is it to me........................................... and then yawn........................................... when there ia a pray........................................... they say........................................... it is some kind of sign........................................... that you have evil inside you........................................... true...................................................................................... big yawn........................................... the friend is not attending........................................... lord........................................... i cant stop yawning........................................... what did he preach........................................... sorry for not listening........................................... suddenly think a lot about it........................................... is it for me........................................... suddenly missing cats at home........................................... silbi sora gembul .......................................................

in the name of lord....................................

bad mood.................................... cat do that.................................... h is the greatest.................................... enjoy the moment.................................... everything happens for reason.................................... pray for the future.................................... pray for me.................................... pray for him.................................... pray for his family.................................... pray for his new family.................................... pray for his future.................................... just like that........................................................................ he likes this.................................... and maybe she will do the same for me ..............................................

maybe it is his way...........................

to protect me........................... to show me........................... who they really are........................... when everyday seem nice........................... but actually they are fake........................... this is his way........................... to protect me........................... tho i can feel it now still........................... still dizzy........................... still having fast heart beat........................... still shaking........................... thingking of them........................... they are disgusting........................... i hope god put bad people away from me........................... i hope god put the fake poeple away from me........................... i hope god put the two faces people away from me ....................................

mrsp....................................

she is amazing.................................... i asked for help.................................... she said yes immediately.................................... at first i thought she will say no.................................... as it is not working hour.................................... i ask for help in the night.................................... she said yes.................................... i ask for help in the afternoon.................................... sh said yes.................................... i am amazed.................................... i will be forever grateful to her.................................... i am still shocked.................................... she is so very nice to me.................................... thx u lord.................................... for bringing her to my life ...............................................

mrsf………………………………

she is bad……………………………… she promised to take care all of the documents……………………………… but she didn’t take care of mine……………………………… but she took care of everybody elses……………………………… what the heck……………………………… when I need it……………………………… I ask for help to mrs mrf mra……………………………… all said no……………………………… hell them all……………………………… got me so irritated……………………………… got me undone……………………………… I got so much crazy……………………………… I wrote a lot of bad things……………………………… they see them all……………………………… regret it……………………………… I don’t think so……………………………… part of my history ………………………………

5 sep 19 kamis……………………………………………………

kampus…………………………………………………… bank…………………………………………………… wrg…………………………………………………… bengkel…………………………………………………… pul…………………………………………………… mlm ddijemput satrio…………………………………………………… café…………………………………………………… kota lama…………………………………………………… allahuakbar……………………………………………………