The nice man.....................

Nice story..................... Not like that video..................... God creates kindness..................... God loves kindness..................... I want kindness..................... But it is rare..................... The world full of shit..................... A lot of hurts..................... Bad people is everywhere..................... I want to be good..................... And i want to be contageous..................... So i can change them..................... Change the world.....................

The nice kid.....................

I used to be like him..................... Solve everything with kindness..................... Only know black and white..................... Not anymore..................... There are a lot of grey areas..................... And the input from outside..................... Make me question everything..................... It is not as simple as it used to be..................... Everything is complicated..................... Many factors in it..................... Mostly bad ones..................... The hate controls the world.....................

Ara ata nada.....................

Hope he is fine..................... I think he is moving there..................... With his new husband..................... With his new job..................... With his new love..................... With his new life..................... Hope he is happy..................... And can make me happy too..................... When i need him..................... When i am sad..................... When i need company..................... It has been a very long..................... Up and down relation..................... God with us.....................

The lost memory.....................

I am losing it..................... Oh my god..................... I know i have it..................... I give sign in my hand..................... But i cant remember it..................... And it is very annoying..................... I want to know..................... What was that..................... What should i do..................... Something is wrong..................... Really wrong..................... I should do something..................... But i dont know what it is..................... Damn.....................

The weird man.....................

He serves well..................... But he gets distraction..................... He loves it more..................... Than giving a good service..................... Really weird..................... Something about him..................... Very annoying..................... Dont know what it is..................... Dont know why..................... But my heart feels it..................... I am sure something is wrong..................... Something is not right.....................

The people.....................

The full booked..................... But the favourite place it is..................... Love the design..................... Love the situation..................... The layout the price..................... Love the aura..................... But sometimes it is packed..................... And i dont like it..................... Now i force myself to love it..................... Love them..................... Love all of them..................... No matter what..................... Maybe there is someone..................... Among them for me..................... Sent from up above..................... Just for me..................... Hope it is real.....................

The eat.....................

Hate it..................... When you cant control yourself..................... Want to lose the desire..................... To all of them..................... So i can be what i want..................... Feeling empty..................... All the time..................... Love the sick..................... Loved them all the time..................... But now..................... Got easily weak..................... It is all in the brain..................... I should know it..................... It is all imagination..................... I will kill them.....................

The money box.....................

Now or then..................... That is the question..................... I should do it now..................... Coz we dont know..................... What will happen tomorrow..................... Maybe there will be many..................... To do tomorrow..................... And you dont have time..................... To do what you actually can today..................... That is the thought..................... Good job..................... Lets do that again..................... Sometimes..................... All the times.....................

The rain.....................

Love the rain now..................... Not like it used to be..................... Hate it when it comes..................... Feeling disturbed..................... Annoying the journey..................... Now it is a company..................... Through every mood..................... Wash all the bad things..................... Clear all the sorrow..................... Let it comes..................... Flow through your skin..................... Wipe your face clean..................... Be happy with it.....................

The guest.....................

Very charming..................... Interesting person..................... Hold the situation..................... Just leave it be..................... When it means to be..................... It will be..................... Dont push it..................... Everything goes on its way..................... They have their destiny..................... Whether you like it or not..................... It comes when it comes..................... It goes when it goes..................... You follow through..................... Put your heart aside..................... Hot hurt feeling..................... Enjoy the moment..................... Cherish the picture.....................

The hesitation.....................

Going or staying..................... Many things in the head..................... Many thoughts wandering around..................... Very irritating..................... And then you just do it..................... What the heck..................... Whatever consequences are..................... Will face them bravely..................... Not to be afraid..................... I will win..................... I will held my head high..................... It is me..................... Everything will be fine..................... You are with me..................... All the time.....................

Being the me.....................

It is burdening..................... Many responsibilities..................... The future of them..................... The future of me..................... The future of world..................... Oh then it comes..................... The obstacle..................... That always makes me angry..................... Irritates me to the bones..................... Itch under my skin..................... So much anger..................... To it..................... Curse it..................... Curse the world..................... There it is gone..................... The peacefull.....................

Dear god.....................

I feel you..................... Lately..................... You are closer..................... And much more closer..................... Many signs..................... That you are here..................... With me..................... The smoothness..................... Of everything..................... The changing of self..................... Being spiritful..................... Being organized.....................

Dear jobs.....................

There you come..................... A lot of you..................... Many things..................... Done this and then..................... Come others..................... Never stop..................... Never end..................... But this is me..................... Unstoppable..................... Unconquerable..................... I will beat you..................... I will defeat you..................... All of you.....................

Dear morning.....................

Love to meet you..................... It is a rare occasion..................... But lately..................... It feels good..................... To be with you..................... Dance with you..................... Walk with you..................... Run with you..................... Going here..................... Going there..................... Going everywhere..................... To all direction..................... To conquer the world..................... To wander the universe.....................

22 sep 16 kamis

Ikip.................... Guratjingga eror dompet cd.................... Cimb.................... Toko sampangan dompetcd.................... Atm cimb.................... Omah baru eror kunci.................... Massjid.................... Pul.................... Sore kampus ngajar.................... Bhsl ps.................... Burjo.................... Allhuakbar ....................

21 sep 16 rabu

Ikip.................... Pul.................... Indmrt.................... Atm.................... Burjo.................... Bri syariah.................... Kampus.................... Pul.................... Sore pijet.................... Bakso.................... Allhuakbar....................

20 sep 16 selasa

Ikip.................... Bhsl ps.................... Burjo.................... Allhuakbar....................

19 sep 16 senen

Ikip mpe sore.................... Bhsl ps.................... Allhuakbar....................

18 sep 16 minggu

Pg bulik ngantar oleh2.................... Renang.................... Omah baru naruh kunci.................... Bulik nunut makan.................... Pul tepar.................... sore burjo.................... mlm wrg.................... allhuakbar....................

17 sep 16 sabtu

At blora.................... Hotel.................... Alun2.................... Hotel.................... Kiki ijab kabul.................... Pusar kripik.................... Kiki resepsi.................... Pul smg by bis kampus.................... Mampir b ida.................... Mampir b kartina.................... At kampus ambil motor.................... Pul tepar.................... Allhuakbar....................

16 sep 16 jumat

Ikip mpe sore.................... Pul kos.................... Balik ikip.................... Otw blora w p suju.................... At kiki’.................... Nginep hotel.................... Allhuakbar....................

15 sep 16 kamis

Ikip mpe sore.................... Wrg.................... Bhsl ps.................... Allhuakbar....................

14 sep 16 rabu

Ikip.................... Tilik anak b ervina d panti wiloso w pgsd people.................... Maksi d erlangga by p jokosul.................... Ikip mpe sore.................... Mlm k burjo.................... Allahuakbar....................

13 sep 16 senen

Ikip mpe sore.................... Allhuakbar....................

Does it end.................................

I dont think so................................. There is more................................. But i dont have it................................. The block................................. The fortress................................. Keep me away................................. From that place................................. Cast me away................................. Out of haven................................. Dump to the earth................................. Crawling................................. Skin to the bone.................................

The request the question.................................

The hammer that hits................................. Right in the head................................. It is strange though................................. It is other’s story................................. And i feel it................................. As if it is mine................................. How crazy it is................................. Really stupid being................................. Careless soul................................. Reckless brain................................. Thoughtless character.................................

The grin on my face.................................

The memory on my head................................. Killing you killing me................................. The string between................................. Connect us................................. Prison us................................. Just let it go................................. Let us fly................................. To the sky................................. With the birds................................. On the clouds................................. We will build the house there.................................

The sound of the rain.................................

The story of the dream................................. The pain of hope................................. All is out there................................. Unreachable................................. O dear mouth................................. Let the heart screams................................. It is swelling inside................................. O dear cheat................................. Can u be bigger................................. Breathless................................. Where is the air................................. What kind of stone you are.................................

Why is this head spinning .................................

The blame is on me ................................. The fault is on me ................................. The mistake is on me ................................. The wrong is on me ................................. The sin is on me................................. U know that right ................................. U know it is true................................. Dont blame her ................................. Blame me................................. Punish me ................................. Kill me ................................. Take me tp ur place................................. That is a good idea ................................. To be in ur place ................................. To be with u ................................. To meet u ................................. To see u .................................

Dear heart.............................

What happen with you............................. Everything hurts............................. Oh my god............................. And then it kills me............................. The torture............................. I cant handle it............................. The words are in the mouth............................. Dont dare to shout it............................. Just cursing inside............................. Condemn all the things.............................

When you are love.............................

When you are hate............................. I dont know what to do............................. With this heart............................. To cast you away............................. To welcome you............................. You make me tremble............................. You stop my life............................. It is all confusing............................. I cant think at all............................. Share your thoughts............................. Thus i can read you............................. Dont make me blank............................. I swear to you............................. You make it uneasy............................. Really............................. Help me............................. I am losing it.............................

Put all in the perspective...............................

In my own perspective............................... It looks good............................... I think it through............................... But then again............................... They say that socialize is needed............................... You will get inputs............................... A lot of them............................... Many perspectives............................... More and more............................... Then you will know............................... Whether your perspective............................... Is good or bad ...............................

Put the brain to remember...............................

Event on those moments............................... Never forget the pain............................... In this heart hurt like hell............................... People are cruel............................... Unbelievably hurt each other............................... Love is not around............................... Onto the chance to kill each other............................... Where there is a chance............................... On the tiny bit window............................... Never make it useless............................... Get the knife and stab them............................... All of them............................... Not let them go...............................

When you give me things...............................

All of those stuffs............................... Realize that i am stupid............................... I go berserk............................... Spend it all............................... And you come late............................... Now i am flat............................... Going to you with nothing............................... And you take me............................... Believe in me again............................... Enormous heart............................... Ruin the self and other............................... Kill the black and the red............................... All the shines............................... Here to you i go home...............................

Buying a home...............................

It is for my safety............................... You know what it is............................... But actually the safety is in you............................... You handle all............................... You control all............................... But i want to try............................... At least i show you my effort............................... When it can work............................... To produce the safety net............................... For the rest of my life............................... And maybe more............................... You will value my effort............................... And i hope it is not nothing............................... I hope it is worth before you...............................

God... ...............................

Lets dance............................... Together............................... Can i take you dance............................... Can i do that............................... Do you allow me to do that............................... It would be so great............................... Feel you............................... So real............................... Grasp you in my hand............................... Touch you on my skin............................... The real you............................... And never let you go............................... Ever...............................

Going there, really? ...............................

Can i pray there............................... All these things i want............................... What if i pray wrong............................... Will you slap me directly............................... In the face............................... Make it all red............................... I want to find the magic word............................... Where i can make you do............................... Grant my wishes come true............................... The love of you............................... For all people............................... For me............................... I want more............................... I am greedy............................... This is scary...............................

Regret the talk...............................

I feel stupid............................... I am not good with words............................... I hear myself very stupid............................... I sound ridiculous............................... Speak nonsense............................... What the hell............................... Why did i do that............................... Why did i speak............................... Why did you make me do that............................... The regret comes............................... It is late............................... All is done............................... Now the result............................... All in your hands...............................

I used to think that...............................

When she died............................... I will come undone............................... I will break into pieces............................... But nothing happens............................... I am numb............................... My heart is frozen............................... I cant feel anything............................... Maybe it is self defense............................... Maybe someday i will really be broken............................... Dont know yet............................... But that thought is scary............................... And it is likely happening...............................

Suti in mecca...............................

So she says she will pay............................... My journey to your home............................... I am afraid............................... I am happy............................... I am confused............................... So many emotions............................... I used to think i will get burnt............................... In your land............................... Coz i am having all the sins............................... What if those things really happen...............................

Afraid after the purifying process...............................

What if i am still the same............................... Will you send me someone............................... To accompany me............................... For the rest of my life............................... What if it works............................... And i have a new life............................... And i don't have a clue at all............................... Will you be there for me............................... Of course you will...............................

12 sep 16 senen

Ga solat id....................... Sorry lord....................... Ada fatmawati....................... Meet kristian....................... Mranggen meet taurus....................... Pijet at ian mranggen....................... Wrg....................... Allhuakbar.......................

11 sep 16 minggu

At new house....................... Meet fam....................... Wrg....................... New house....................... Allhuakbar.......................

10 sep 16 sabtu

Ikip....................... Superindio....................... Pulsa....................... Teapr....................... Allhuakbar.......................

9 sep 16 jumat

Ikip....................... Klinik....................... Superindo....................... Wrg....................... Bhsl ps....................... Mlm matlam....................... Kfc full....................... Burjo full....................... Rain....................... Flood....................... Allhuakbar.......................

8 sep 16 kamis

Ikip....................... Bengkel....................... Pul tepar....................... Allhuakbar.......................

7 sep 16 rabu

Ikip....................... Pul gasik....................... Tepar....................... Pindahan....................... Wrg....................... Bhsl ps....................... Mlm k mikosampangan....................... Mogok bensin....................... Burjo....................... Allhuakbar.......................

6 sep 16 selasa

Ikip mpe sore....................... Allhuakbar.......................