31 jan 17 selasa.........................

Pul kos......................... Kampus......................... Pedurungan......................... Dvd bajakan......................... Pul kos......................... Cl w anggit......................... Pul kos......................... Indmrt......................... Bakmijowo......................... Omahbaru......................... Nginep......................... Allahuakbar.........................

30 jan 17 senen.........................

Pul kos......................... Kampus......................... Pedurungan......................... Pul kos......................... Rise cafe w rempong......................... Pul kos......................... Omah baru......................... Nginep......................... Allahuakbar.........................

29 jan 17 minggu.........................

Pedurungan......................... Omah baru......................... Nginep......................... Allahuakbar.........................

28 jan 17 sabtu.........................

Seharian d rumah......................... Sore pul kos......................... Mlm joc meeting......................... Allahuakbar.........................

27 jan 17 jumat.........................

Kampus......................... Pedurungan......................... Pul kos.............. .................................... Jumatan......................... Pul kos......................... Omah baru meet parent n ciprut......................... Nginep......................... Allahuakbar.........................

I dont have experience..............

But i dont feel good about it.............. The memory.............. The good heaven-like event.............. Always comes back.............. It is stucked.............. Coz that was so damn amazing.............. Oh my god.............. I cant get it out of my head.............. Oh my god.............. This is scary.............. Oh my god.............. I am addicted.............. It is dangerous.............. The devils win..............

Lets do something..............

I think it is over.............. Then there is again.............. Got the heart beaten.............. Crazy head.............. Crazy road.............. Forgetting the med.............. Going insane.............. Love is a bitch.............. Really..............

You come..............

And i got so stressed.............. Alot.............. I smoke a lot.............. Not like usual.............. I rarely smoke.............. That is the sign.............. That i got depressed coz you are here.............. Oh my god.............. I want to get smashed.............. To get beaten up.............. Maybe the pain.............. Is not like this.............. Not even near..............

Thinking negative...................

Because of last night................... Please dont................... Being recruited................... Being passed................... Being selected................... Is a good thing................... Being among them................... Is god’s gift................... Be grateful................... Be thankful................... And he will give more................... Much more ...................

And it comes again...................

You have black thought................... About yourself................... Coz something happens................... Something bad................... And you blame yourself................... You think it is your fault................... And it destroys you................... Eating you alive................... Inside out................... Lord help me...................

The feeling...................

The news................... The theme................... Are all combined................... Make you down................... Scary................... But i should not be scared................... Of it................... Of them................... I just am scared of god................... I cant describe the feeling................... It is not scared................... It is disgusted................... Dont know................... The torture................... The hierarchy...................

Skin of paradise..................

Brown of heaven.................. Sound of angels.................. Heavenly creature.................. The perfect sculpture.................. Flawless.................. The role of saint.................. Entertain everybody.................. Not choosy.................. Perfect material.................. For tying the knot.................. To sail the white.................. To wander the soft ..................

Thx u for the mouth..................

Thx u for the kiss.................. Thx u for the view.................. Thx u for the eye.................. That was extra ordinary.................. Not complaining.................. Just want u to know.................. My other wishes.................. To be with the angel.................. To taste.................. To hug.................. To love.................. To do..................

Hope the two corners..................

Knowing me.................. And take me.................. Into their life.................. But not the middle.................. But usually.................. The not becoming the yes.................. That is what i usually get.................. Because i always thought negatively.................. Now i change.................. Positively i think that.................. My wishes will come true.................. Coz god loves me..................

26 jan 17 kamis.........................

Renang......................... Pedurungan eror......................... Pul kos......................... Kampus......................... Cimb......................... Burjo......................... Pul kos......................... Pedurungan......................... Diner at mi lampung w family......................... Pedurungan ambil motor......................... Allahuakbar.........................

25 jan 17 rabu.........................

Renang......................... Pedurungan......................... Pul kos......................... Kampus jemput yayan kiki dian......................... K mbak dina-diskusi toefl......................... Makan at sambel layah......................... Kampus balikin helm......................... Ngantar yayan......................... Allahuakbar.........................

24 jan 17 selasa.........................

Seharian d kos......................... Sore k burjo......................... Allahuakbar.........................

23 jan 17 senen.........................

Kampus......................... Bca......................... Ambil sandal at servis sandal......................... Nyuci motor-eror-sandal ilang-almost died engine......................... Mlm capcai......................... Allahuakbar.........................

22 jan 17 minggu.........................

Pedurungan......................... Servis sandal w dian......................... Pedurungan ngantar dian......................... Allahuakbar.........................

That news.......................

The calls....................... The destroying....................... Want to kill them all....................... How come they be like that....................... They are so spoiled....................... It is their fault....................... Who spoil them all along....................... Up to now....................... Now i have to be tough....................... No more spoiling....................... It is for their future....................... It is for their sake....................... So help me lord....................... And i am sorry....................... If i make mistake....................... I cant handle them right now....................... It is so painful....................... They are annoying....................... They hurt my heart....................... So bad....................... I want to distance myself....................... From them.......................

Tear will drain you.......................

You are made from water....................... There are holes in your body....................... You are leaking....................... You will be drained....................... The sadness will drain you....................... The sorrow will drain you....................... The hurt will drain you....................... The broken heart will drain you....................... So help me lord....................... ....................... You are the only one who can....................... Repair me....................... Protect me....................... And i will always....................... Run to you.......................

Smell.......................

It is personal....................... It is not general....................... Some love them....................... Some hate them....................... I hate them....................... Not like you guys....................... Who love them....................... Tell about them....................... Cherish them....................... It disgusts me....................... I cant handle it....................... So dont force me....................... To like them....................... I am me....................... I am not you....................... Just let me be me.......................

Vast universe.......................

Many objects....................... So many things....................... And i am one of them....................... A tiny part....................... A very little thing in the universe....................... This makes you think....................... What is your purpose....................... Being here....................... You question him....................... Why did he put you here....................... Do you carry some kind of purpose....................... That you dont know....................... How will you behave....................... If you dont know anything....................... Just trust him.......................

Vast universe.......................

Vast universe....................... Many objects....................... So many things....................... And i am one of them....................... A tiny part....................... A very little thing in the universe....................... This makes you think....................... What is your purpose....................... Being here....................... You question him....................... Why did he put you here....................... Do you carry some kind of purpose....................... That you dont know....................... How will you behave....................... If you dont know anything....................... Just trust him.......................

Problem one.......................

The missing foot....................... Problem two....................... The almost died engine....................... What will do....................... Never go there again? ....................... But the place is nice....................... But the experience is hurtfull....................... And i am afraid....................... It will happen again....................... I should not be afraid....................... God is with me....................... He will make everything fine....................... Just like before....................... As usual.......................

Being sick.......................

And that news....................... It gives you chill....................... Makes me afraid to death....................... What if i am like her....................... Ah lord....................... Help me....................... I am afraid....................... I give it all to you....................... I know you are with me....................... I know you protect me....................... Sorry lord....................... To negatively thinking bout you....................... You are the best....................... I will be nice....................... All the time’.......................

A lot of protests.......................

Avoiding campus....................... Lord help me....................... Please dont punish me....................... I am sorry....................... This heart hate them....................... For what they do....................... But i am afraid of you....................... If you will punish me....................... Because of this....................... Because i avoid them....................... I promise....................... I have good intension....................... It is for them....................... For their good.......................

A lot of films.......................

Distract everything....................... The want is to entertaint....................... The soul....................... The sick soul....................... The reality is....................... It prevents me to do anything else....................... Make me lazy....................... Lord help me....................... I need this....................... I need you.......................

Baby thing.......................

I ask her....................... And it fails....................... And i ask the other one....................... And it fails again....................... So i ask you....................... To give me one....................... I think i am ready....................... But if you think oherwise....................... Please tell me....................... What did i do wrong....................... I want to be her....................... Who willingly accept her....................... I want to accept all....................... I will accept all....................... I will try my best.......................

Three jobs.......................

Two disturbances....................... And then your head explodes....................... You get confused....................... Very much....................... It is irritating....................... It is annoying....................... But thank god....................... I can do two of them....................... Despite the obstacle....................... I believe it is you....................... Because you are here....................... Because you help me.......................

Water of the sun.......................

Are you real or fun....................... Let me put you on my pan....................... So i can store you in my can....................... Just wait a second....................... While i present you a present....................... It is a beautiful shine....................... That more than a van....................... Let us shun....................... Them who bring gun.......................

Bad news.......................

No math class....................... Make me sad....................... Really sad....................... Goodbye the money....................... Goodbye the students....................... Nice students....................... Nicer than these ones....................... Hate this one....................... Lord help me....................... I will love them....................... With your help.......................

21 jan 17 sabtu.........................

Kampus......................... Burjo......................... Hiski meeting at chanadia......................... Indomaret......................... Allahuakbar.........................

20 jan 17 jumat.........................

Kampus......................... Burjo......................... Kos......................... Eplaz meet dewi......................... Lunch w dewi at erlangga......................... Juamatan at erlangga......................... Nonton w dewi e eplaz......................... Allahuakbar.........................

19 jan 17 kamis.........................

Kampus......................... Pul kos......................... Burjo......................... Kfc......................... Bowo......................... Pul kos......................... Tbrs acara kampus......................... Allahuakbar.........................

18 jan 17 rabu.........................

Kampus......................... Lombok ijo w ipah ika mamat......................... Pul kos......................... Baiturahman meet ungaran dayat......................... Mlm pulsa......................... Allahuakbar.........................

17 jan 17 selasa.........................

Kampus......................... W coworkers k tokoroti......................... K rs romani tilik p ras......................... Kampus rapat......................... Allahuakbar.........................

Feel insecure.

In the middle of the crowd. But u have no clue what to talk about. It is like u come from aanother wolrd another planet another universe another dimension another language..... Feel strange.... U cant talk u cant move everything is false everything is wrong.... damn soul fuck this lets enjoy the shit

Sorry i cant make you proud.........................

Sorry i dissappointed you......................... Sorry i am me......................... All is dedicated for you......................... For him......................... For all......................... I hope everybody accepts......................... I am who i am......................... I hope everybody accepts......................... My dedication......................... From heart......................... The deepest one......................... Only for you......................... Thus you are happy.........................

Thx u for everything.........................

You make the program succeed......................... And i hope......................... The succeed continues......................... Coz the program is not over yet......................... Before......................... I believe you are with us......................... All the time......................... All the way......................... Until the end......................... Hope that will happen again......................... Coz you love us......................... As we love you......................... Sincerely......................... Unconditionally.........................

I dont want to come home.........................

I dont want to stay with you......................... I had done that......................... It hurts......................... You kill me all the time......................... You hurt me all the time......................... Mentally......................... I rarely smile at home......................... Not like when i am out......................... With my friend......................... I can laugh......................... Out loud......................... Let me laugh......................... Let me smile......................... Let me be happy......................... Let me love......................... Love you my way.........................

There is someone.........................

Who put the umbrella......................... On the top of my head......................... But i dont see......................... I always chase......................... The one who stole my umbrella......................... My head is a mess......................... My brain is in hectic flow......................... Let me make you proud of me......................... Let me deserve your love......................... Let me deserve god’s love.........................

Dont ask me to go home.........................

Let me wander the world......................... Let me conquer the world......................... Let me see the world......................... Let me admire the world......................... Admire god......................... Adimer his creations......................... All of them......................... There are many of them......................... Bless me......................... Your bless is god’s bless......................... Your love is god’s love......................... Your pray is god’s pray......................... Everyhting will be ok......................... If you allow me......................... Everything will be ok......................... If your prays are with me.........................

Thx u for everything.........................

Thx u for making me......................... Shaping me......................... I am who i am today......................... This is all because of you......................... I cant be like this......................... Without you......................... I ams orry for everything......................... I am not good at all......................... I am annoying......................... Make you cry......................... Make you sad all the time......................... But......................... Why do you make me cry......................... All the time......................... It hurts......................... A lot.........................

They win.........................

I cry......................... I want to be a winner......................... Like them......................... If you dont allow me......................... To be a winner......................... In front of the world......................... Please allow me......................... To be a winner......................... In front of you......................... Day by day......................... Having tough heart......................... Loving you......................... Always.........................

16 jan 17 senen.........................

Kampus......................... Pul gasik......................... Mlm ke pedurungan ambil brg......................... Allahuakbar.........................

15 jan 17 minggu.........................

Omahbaru......................... Pedurungan......................... Lunch di tembalang w fam......................... Scc nyari laptop w dian......................... Pedurungan by taxi......................... Allahuakbar.........................

14 jan 17 sabtu.........................

Renang......................... Pedurungan......................... Kampus......................... Allahuakbar.........................

13 jan 17 jumat.........................

Kampus......................... Allahuakbar.........................

12 jan 17 kamis.........................

Kampus......................... Allahuakbar.........................

I hate this.........................

Switch the brain......................... If u have negative thought in the morning......................... It will afect your whole day......................... Just say that......................... You love them......................... Everything will be ok......................... They will be nice......................... I will be good......................... This day will be amazing......................... Noone can take that away from me.........................