27 des 17 rabu………………

Atm bank jateng……………… Wrg……………… Took listrik……………… Mlm ari hanggara dtg……………… Allahuakbar………………

26 des 17 selasa………………

Siang ke java……………… K catur……………… K java……………… Starbuck……………… Meet nina n ahmed……………… Solat……………… Nonton……………… Solat……………… Allahuakbar………………

25 des 17 senen………………

Dijemput amin……………… Bandungan……………… Amin eror……………… Kfc……………… Gojek……………… Mlm family diner at taman kb……………… Superindo……………… aLlahuakbar………………

24 des 17 minggu………………

Bus coyo……………… Otw pekalongan……………… Terminal……………… Masjid……………… Wrg……………… Masjid……………… Dijemput amin……………… Resepsi andi……………… Otw smg by motor……………… Pul……………… Pijet……………… Allahuakbar………………

23 des 17 sabtu………………

Mpe smg……………… Tidur……………… Dijemput amin……………… Lunch at kampong kali……………… Potokopi……………… Klinik……………… Apotek eror……………… Kampong pelangi……………… Museum mandala bakti……………… Bus wisata eror……………… Potong rambut……………… Servis jam eror……………… Pedurungan ambil brg……………… Pul……………… Mlm dijemput amin……………… Nonton at transmart……………… W amin brian ibash ardy……………… Pul……………… Allahuakbar………………

22 des 17 jumat………………

Kampus……………… Jalan……………… Indmrt terusan dieng……………… Dijemput travel……………… Otw smg……………… Allahuakbar………………

21 des 17 kamis………………

Kampus……………… Mog w natas andi widi……………… Nongki at c2c……………… Allahuakbar………………

20 des 17 rabu………………

Kampus……………… Ws w temen2……………… Arin jesika iko arum yudit fina nama widi andi……………… Indomrt……………… Allahuakbar………………

19 des 17 selasa………………

Atm……………… Kampus……………… Indmrt……………… Allahuakbar………………

18 des 17 senen …………….

18 des 17 senen……………… Kam[us……………… Indmrt……………… Allahuakbar………………

I want to go around…………………

But I cant go around………………… The reason is that I don’t have a motorcycle here………………… And there is no guide………………… The solution is gojek for replacing the motorcycle problem………………… And the internet for replacing the guide problem………………… Money wise? ………………… I should let it go………………… I should make it easy………………… If this is a positive thing………………… There will be replacement from god………………… We don’t bring money to the grave………………… So………………… Let just relax over it …………………

All day I have been sick…………………

Starting from last night………………… Tired………………… Fever………………… Get a lot of ac………………… Because of smoking………………… Because of eat fast………………… God………………… I am back to you………………… I don’t have anybody here………………… I don’t want to be sick………………… I want to be strong………………… If I am sick………………… There will be no one to take care of me………………… I hope I can take care of myself………………… I hope I have the strength …………………

Actually…………………

There is one………………… In my place………………… While I am waiting for gojek………………… Seeing them having date………………… Hiks………………… Make me sad………………… They are good looking………………… And they get partner easily………………… Me? ………………… Oh god………………… Help me………………… Give me the best………………… The best for you………………… If my heart is sad like this………………… Only you the one I remember………………… Because you are the only one who can………………… Send me somebody………………… Nobody else………………… That is why………………… I ask you………………… To send someone for me …………………

Just before there is a friend from program …………………

Who will make an activity in the weekend………………… I hope it is true………………… And I hope I can join them………………… If it is not true………………… If I cant join them………………… I hope I am not sad and depressed………………… Like the last weekend………………… Completely crazy………………… There is no activity………………… There is no motorcycle………………… Very confused………………… The second plan for weekend………………… Is to go around by myself………………… By gojek………………… Or practicing………………… Or anything else………………… That will make me happy for sure …………………

I want the program to be full…………………

From morning to afternoon………………… From Monday to Saturday………………… So I don’t have free time………………… Because when I am free I become sad………………… Stressed………………… Depressed………………… Because I don’t have friends………………… Because I don’t have activities………………… Because there is no motorcycle to go around………………… The reality is not like that………………… The program is only short………………… A lot of free time………………… The solution………………… Fill the time by practicing………………… Praying………………… And practicing again …………………

Maybe there is another reason…………………

Maybe don’t believe in what they say………………… That seems very expert………………… Because in my brain………………… I still consider them the same level as me………………… But in reality it isn’t like that………………… The reality is that they do much more clever than me………………… In the term of religion………………… The solution is trying to have a positive thoughts………………… Will do that………………… That is also promise to myself …………………

Maybe there is another reason……………………….

Jealous because they are more pious than me………………………. Jealous because their religious knowledge is much more better than me………………………. The solution is………………………. Often read the quranic verses ………………………. Reading the Islamic articles………………………. Reading Islamic stories, novel, poem, drama………………………. Will do that………………………. That is promise to myself……………………….

Maybe I am filled with demons……………………….

So the calling towards good………………………. Makes me stressed………………………. So the solution is making the demons go away ………………………. How to do that………………………. Tgrough ruqyah to myself………………………. How is that………………………. See in internet………………………. Say the quranic verses………………………. While putting two hand palms in front of the mouth………………………. Then after finish reading the quranic verses………………………. Swap the two palms all over the body………………………. Will do that……………………….

if they talk about that problem……………………….

I become annoyed………………………. I don’t know why………………………. I want to know why………………………. I want to analyze myself………………………. So I know………………………. Why I am annoyed………………………. If I know the reason………………………. If I know the problem………………………. Maybe I can find a solution………………………. For now I can only guess……………………….

Another thing that makes me stressed…………….

Is the article……………. It used to be easy for me to make an article……………. Now for me making an article is very difficult……………. At office I say to myself I will make it at home……………. At home I say myself to make it at office……………. At semarang I say to myself I will make it at malang……………. At office the reason because it is very noisy……………. At home the reason is because of the Korean dramas……………. At malang the reason because I don’t like it here……………. God……………. Please help me …………….

After I analyze myself…………….

I think I know……………. Why I got stressed here……………. One side is about that life……………. That I don’t have friend here……………. So I get very lonely……………. The solution is to concentrate……………. About friends that I got……………. In the program……………. They are nice, kind, and friendly……………. God send them to me……………. Coz they have meaning in my life……………. So lets concentrate on that……………. Enjoy that part of life……………. Coz god has reasons …………….

The plan is to study while eating…………….

But……………. When I come to the place……………. I just eat and daydream……………. My mind wanders all over the place……………. I cant concentrate……………. I cant my energy to open the material……………. But I force myself……………. To think about the positive things……………. Of this situation……………. Free……………. Not being imprisoned in the room the whole time……………. I get fresh air……………. I get new experience …………….

17 des 17 minggu…………….

Seharian d kos……………. Sakit……………. Mlm k cybermall……………. Meet lely……………. Diner……………. Belanja……………. Allahuakbar…………….

16 des 17 sabtu…………….

Londri……………. Matos……………. Ichiban sushi……………. Nonton……………. Java dancer coffee……………. Nonton……………. Allahuakbar…………….

15 des 17 jumat…………….

Kampus……………. Matos w natas andi widi jesika nama arum fina iko……………. Kampus……………. Allahuakbar…………….

14 des 17 kamis…………….

Kampus……………. Allahuakbar…………….

13 des 17 rabu…………….

Kampus……………. Allahuakbar…………….

12 des 17 selasa…………….

Kampus……………. Indomrt……………. Wrg……………. Allahuakbar…………….

11 des 17 senen…………….

Kampus……………. Matos belanja……………. Allahuakbar…………….

10 des 17 minggu’…………….

Maasage eror……………. Mlm k depans……………. Jalan2……………. Allahuakbar…………….

10 des 17 minggu’…………….

10 des 17 minggu’……………. Maasage eror……………. Mlm k depans……………. Jalan2……………. Allahuakbar…………….

9 des 17 sabtu…………….

Londri……………. Siang k matos……………. Lunch at ichiban……………. Nonton 2x……………. Allahuakbar…………….

8 dees 17 jumat …………………….

Kampus……………. Pak didik……………. Survey kos……………. Lunch w pak didik……………. Allahuakbar…………….

I put myself in front row………………………

And there is a corpse……………………… I am afraid of the corpse……………………… I didn’t know it was there……………………… Oh my god……………………… I am calling your name in the whole process of my jumat pray……………………… From the start till the end……………………… I want to move……………………… But I am ashamed……………………… I believe you hear me……………………… It was ok actually……………………… But I cant take my afraid feeling out of my chest……………………… It is there……………………… And it is still in there……………………… Oh my god ………………………

Don’t chase them………………………

Don’t look at sosmed……………………… Twitter……………………… Insta……………………… Fb……………………… They all evil……………………… Just concentrate on you……………………… Being good……………………… Being nice……………………… Improve yourself……………………… Make yourself better……………………… In the eye of the god……………………… So he will think that you deserve something good……………………… Thus he will send you something really good ………………………

7 des 17 kamis…………………….

Kampus……………………. Matos be;anja……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

6 des 17 rabu…………………….

Kampus……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

5 des 17 selsa…………………….

Gojek……………………. Kampus……………………. Ujan……………………. Gocar……………………. Mlm gofood……………………. Kerja eror……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

4 des 17 senen…………………….

Mpe mlg……………………. Gojek……………………. Kos……………………. Gojek……………………. Kampus……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

3 des 17 minggu……………………

Siang k wrg……………………. Pom……………………. Dpmall……………………. Nongki at maxxcoffee……………………. Sinau……………………. Oleh2 shop……………………. Cimol……………………. Sepatu eror……………………. Amin eror……………………. Pul……………………. Dijemput gojek……………………. Safaridarmaraya……………………. Otw mlg……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

Many times…………………..

I promise to myself………………….. That all has meaning………………….. There is something behind all that happen………………….. And I don’t know that meaning………………….. But I should believe that meaning………………….. And I should accept all………………….. That happen………………….. That way………………….. All will calm………………….. Heart will calm………………….. Heart will surrender………………….. Heart will accept………………….. But sometimes I forget………………….. Trigger by situation………………….. Get angry………………….. To all………………….. Make me dizzy………………….. Heart will not calm………………….. And all is destroyed………………….. Meanwhile………………….. In the end………………….. I will see………………….. In fact………………….. All runs well………………….. And in fact………………….. I should go through all that process …………………..

The longer I stay…………………..

The more negative I get………………….. It is different with before………………….. In the old place………………….. They treat us the same………………….. But not anymore………………….. They treat us as the second class …………………..

Sometimes I just wonder…………………..

What the hell happen………………….. Never get satisfied………………….. If I had The one………………….. Then I will see the other more interesting………………….. Then I will get bored with this………………….. The one that I have………………….. And I will chase that………………….. The new one that look more interesting………………….. And if I get that………………….. It will happen again………………….. For sometimes………………….. The new one will make me bored………………….. And I will chase the other………………….. Again and again………………….. Stupid me………………….. Very idiot …………………..

2 des 17 sabtu …………………..

Seharian d rmh…………………… Sore k wrg…………………… Dpmall…………………… Nunut solat…………………… Bl sndl eror …………………… Ntn…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

1 des 17 jumat…………………..

Mpe smg………………….. Siang wrg………………….. Nina………………….. Took kado………………….. Kfc………………….. Catur tilik bayi………………….. Nusantara………………….. Klinik………………….. Apotek………………….. Pijet………………….. Allahuakbar …………………..

30 nov 17 kamis …………………

Kampus………………….. Maksi w arwan agus ari………………….. Kos by gojek………………….. Ketiduran………………….. Dijemput travel………………….. Otw smg………………….. At rm ketinggalan………………….. Nunut travel liyo………………….. Mpe sragen………………….. On travel again………………….. Allahuakbar …………………..

29 nov 17 rabu…………………

Kampus………………… Kepagian………………… Wrg………………… Acara………………… Solat………………… Acara………………… Mall………………… Nonton………………… Belnaja………………… Allahuakbar…………………

28 nov 17 selasa…………………

Kampus………………… Matos w leli………………… Meet danu sugiharto………………… Nonton………………… Pul by danu………………… Allahuakbar…………………

27 nov 17 senen…………………

At wrg………………… Kos eror………………… Gojek………………… Survey kos………………… Gojek………………… Hotel ambil brg………………… Gocar………………… Kos nauh brg………………… Gojek………………… Kampus pendaftaran………………… Nemeni leli survey kos mpe sore………………… Gocar………………… Pul kos………………… Allahuakbar…………………

26 nov 17 minggu…………………

Nyampe malang pagi………………… Otw hotel by gocar………………… At hotel………………… Siang survey kos eror………………… Balik hotel………………… Mlm diner at kfc………………… Allahuakbar…………………

25 nov 17 sabtu…………………

Kampus………………… Upacara………………… Pelantikan………………… Pul………………… Dapur emak meet satrio………………… Klinik………………… Atm java eror………………… Atm kampus………………… Dpmall nonton………………… Pul packing………………… Tawang meet amin………………… Otw malang………………… Allahuakbar…………………