take the positive only………………….

make it as lesson…………………. for the future…………………. someday if you graduate and become teacherrr…………………. aaand meet this kind of students…………………. so you will understand…………………. will already have the experience…………………. already know what to do…………………. what not to do…………………. what to improve…………………. what to erase…………………. what to copy…………………. is all there…………………. just memorize it…………………. and apply it later…………………. it will be safe…………………. as long as god blesses it ………………….

and it happens again………………….

the situation when I feel awkward…………………. the intention is…………………. come early…………………. then got to the point…………………. the test time…………………. five in a row…………………. then finish it all…………………. then go home………………….…………………. nothing in between…………………. but the reality is not like that…………………. they postpone it as they wish…………………. then I got nothing to do…………………. nothing to talk about…………………. let us just enjoy it ………………….

hear the sound of pray………………….

in this school…………………. or the school next door…………………. this is nice…………………. good behavior…………………. good routine…………………. hope it can shape their personality…………………. the students…………………. they will be good and nice…………………. they will not be bad and naughty…………………. coz I see it all…………………. many of them are bad nowadays…………………. have no manner…………………. no attitude whatsoever…………………. the courtesy is none…………………. the culture is beyond believe…………………. they are savage…………………. their words are barbarous………………….

their presentation is barbaric………………….

their friendship is barbarian…………………. their relationship is uncivilized…………………. their daily routine is wild…………………. their brain is uneducated…………………. their mind is inhuman…………………. their maturity is low and raw…………………. their conduct is insolent…………………. their demeanor is heathenish…………………. their deportment is impolite…………………. their deeds are gothic…………………. thai is how I see their mannerism…………………. hope they get their right mind…………………. and they can save the future…………………. of their life and of this country ………………….

the future of this nation is in their hand………………….

the world depends on them…………………. they should take it for their consideration…………………. since now…………………. they cannot act carelessly…………………. they need to think it through…………………. something nice comes along…………………. the picture is nice…………………. the hope behind it is great…………………. I think it is the wish of the whole…………………. and I hope it will come true…………………. lord will make it real…………………. he will grant our wish…………………. he will bless us all ………………….

it felt a long time………………….

it feels a long time…………………. yesterday the noisy one felt a long time…………………. now the quiet one feels a long time…………………. it is getting bolder…………………. their presentation…………………. their words…………………. their demands…………………. their shows…………………. it is everywhere…………………. and we can see it freely…………………. continuously…………………. I hope they win…………………. and I wish he blesses them…………………. confused…………………. they ask me to come along…………………. I want to join…………………. but I have my plan…………………. let us see…………………. if theirs is late at night…………………. then I can come…………………. let us hope…………………. or…………………. let me enjoy this kind of thing…………………. by myself ………………….

great form………………….

great method…………………. great media…………………. a little bit lack connection to students…………………. take too much time on preparation…………………. and he is nice…………………. have manner…………………. compare to others…………………. and hot…………………. I think I am mad…………………. having plan…………………. to give him high score…………………. it is objective…………………. and subjective…………………. in the same time ………………….

Why did he appear again…………………….

Still hoping……………………. Still hurting……………………. Then again……………………. There are some obstacles……………………. The first is that I get stuck in the school……………………. The second is that mrj goes away……………………. The third is that the comp in the rental place is dead……………………. Those signs……………………. Make me afraid……………………. Dear lord……………………. Help me……………………. Should not be afraid……………………. He plans everything……………………. He plans the best for me …………………….

He is nice…………………….

The media he used seems to work fine……………………. It is effective……………………. Make students stay still……………………. Pay attention……………………. Too much focus on himself……………………. Not much contact with students……………………. Concentrate only on the front row……………………. But he uses nice media……………………. And he tries hard……………………. He is positive……………………. He gives positive aura……………………. Then again……………………. He takes too much time on his media……………………. Let just say……………………. Everything will turn out alright for him …………………….

Weird position…………………….

Is not free to do things……………………. Hate this place……………………. But……………………. Let us enjoy it……………………. Then……………………. The teacher……………………. Homerun teacher……………………. When I enter he seems busy……………………. So I just sit……………………. I want to greet……………………. I want to say hi……………………. I want to shake hands……………………. But he is occupied……………………. Let just say everything will not be a problem …………………….

It should have been four ………………….

But it is just one …………………. It has taken a long time …………………. The time that should have been enough for more than one …………………. Hok dank …………………. Hope it will not happen again …………………. And I hope it will be smooth …………………. For the next classes …………………. And I can finish all five of them …………………. And tomorrow too …………………. Will be smooth as well …………………. All five …………………. And can finish early ………………….

And he did his correction process ………………….

And he wanted me to just stay there …………………. He should let me go …………………. Cursing …………………. I did ask …………………. I just need a while …………………. You should ask me out …………………. After the time I proposed …………………. After that …………………. It is up to you …………………. If you want to teach again …………………. The longer you make me stay …………………. The more negative things I see from your presentation …………………. The students are littering …………………. They are noisy …………………. Others …………………. And I hope the teacher is okay …………………. The from is difficult …………………. I just hope they make it simple …………………. Just giving the score and the mark ………………….

He is annoying ………………….

He said it will start at seven …………………. But the reality is not …………………. When I ask …………………. It appears he just waits for me …………………. In front of me …………………. From quite some time …………………. Just silent …………………. What in the name of lord …………………. Grumbling inside …………………. And the class starts late …………………. And the end takes a lot of time …………………. Cursing inside …………………. There are more students …………………. That is so …………………. God knows everything …………………. He should ask me to come out before …………………. Then I will leave …………………. After that it is up to you if you want to continue to teach ………………….

I hope they will do better ………………….

More involvement from the students …………………. More attention to them …………………. More variety in the source of learning …………………. Make the class cheerful …………………. Use interesting medias …………………. Make me bad mood …………………. Late at the start …………………. Late at the end …………………. It should be on time …………………. I have a lot of jobs to do in the office …………………. Nut I was stuck there …………………. Let it be my way of getting the blessing from him ………………….

He did it again ………………….

Ask for help …………………. Considering …………………. What day it is …………………. What time it is …………………. Whatever I do that time …………………. Just sent the job …………………. And expect the result soon …………………. annoying …………………. but …………………. let us hope …………………. there is always something behind it all …………………. a blessing in disguise ………………….

No gym ………………….

yesterday …………………. I hate that …………………. Hate the situation …………………. Hate myself …………………. Want to be a regular member …………………. Want to go there everyday …………………. Want the quick result …………………. Wish everything will be smooth …………………. Will be okay …………………. Will be successful …………………. And I will be happy …………………. And he blesses me ………………….

Feel bad………………..

Really bad……………….. Often forget the brake……………….. Stupid me……………….. Very stupid……………….. Idiot……………….. And remember what mrj said……………….. That it will be very expensive to repair the car……………….. I hope the car is fine……………….. I hope the owner does not get angry……………….. Hope lord always protect us all……………….. Me……………….. The owner……………….. The car……………….. I need to buy my own……………….. In the name of lord……………….. Will do that someday……………….. Soon……………….. In lord allows ………………..

time to escape……………………..

it is too late…………………….. he comes…………………….. and gives me jobs…………………….. damn…………………….. butwhatever…………………….. just leave…………………….. and more…………………….. much more…………………….. dont feel comfortable…………………….. lets leave…………………….. lets just leave…………………….. the thing is…………………….. that it is difficult to do so…………………….. the addiction gets worse…………………….. it nails me to my chair…………………….. hot damn…………………….. hate this situation…………………….. the more you feel…………………….. the more anger you gets…………………….. the longer you stay…………………….. the hotter your heart boils ……………………..

27 agus 18 senen…………………………

Kampus………………………… Pul………………………… Gym………………………… Superindo………………………… Pul………………………… Kampus………………………… Bu ira………………………… Klinik………………………… Apotek………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………

26 agus 18 minggu…………………………

Laatihan stir………………………… Gym………………………… Ngaantar baskoro………………………… Sk………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………

25 agus 18 sabtu…………………………

………………………… Gym………………………… Ped………………………… Mlm pijet………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………

24 agus 18 jumat…………………………

Kampus………………………… Unaki………………………… Pul………………………… Jumatan………………………… Gym………………………… Superindo………………………… Mlm ped………………………… Ngaji………………………… Sk………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………

23 agus 18 kamis…………………………

Kampus………………………… Pul………………………… Atm………………………… Gym………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………

22 agus 18 rabu…………………………

Ped net………………………… Buah………………………… Mlm sk………………………… No gym………………………… I hate that………………………… A lot………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………

21 agus 18 selasa ………………………………………………………

Kampus………………………… Gym………………………… Jemput ryan………………………… Ngempon………………………… Positif? ………………………… Meet ibas baskoro jo………………………… Nganter ryan………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………

that kind of part.............

naughty party............. i want them all............. rainbow one............. white one............. wings one............. culture one............. swimsuit one............. underwear one.......................... i want all of then .............

creating my own pageant.............

the biggest one............. noone ever produced before............. the weirdest one............. underwear ............. swimsuit............. sport............. short.......................... formal............. jeans............. national costume............. talent............. interview............. social work............. social media............. photo contest............. cat walk............. and the list still goes on .............

It is online system…………………..

It should not need him………………….. But I must meet him ………………….. Meanwhile I had submitted online………………….. Rejected………………….. Must meet him for sure………………….. Sorry for negative thinking………………….. As if he asks for money………………….. Bully………………….. As what did happen always………………….. Sorry for negative thinking………………….. I hope it is not right………………….. I hope the thing that I have to meet him is that I really must do that …………………..

It is not mrb’s mistake ………………..

If he chooses mrr ……………….. Coz mrr is bigger ……………….. It is not mrr’s mistake ……………….. If he is being chosen ……………….. Because I am less than him ……………….. But still ……………….. It hurts ……………….. I should find my own ……………….. Who enjoy me dearly ……………….. Who accept me unconditionally ……………….. Then we will live together ……………….. Forever and ever ……………….. Happily ……………….. In god’s blessing ……………….. Till god do us part ………………..

Damn ………………..

They pass me by ……………….. And then they disappear ……………….. I think they do it in a secret place ……………….. And I just wait ……………….. I hate waiting ……………….. As if I am a mosquito repellant ……………….. Holyfuck ……………….. Then I met my friends ……………….. I hang out with them ……………….. I am happy ……………….. And mrr asks mrb to pick me up ……………….. Hot damn ……………….. Why didn’t he pick me up himself ……………….. Hate that ……………….. It gets on my nerve ……………….. I am boiling ……………….. I should stay away from him ……………….. For a while ………………..

He gets it ………………..

I take part in it ……………….. Thx god he allows it ……………….. Although I get the leftover ……………….. It is okay ……………….. Rather than getting nothing ……………….. At least I enjoy it ……………….. Twice ……………….. In a way ……………….. I am happy ……………….. Contented ……………….. It is proven above ……………….. ……………….. Nothing to lose ……………….. It is what it is ……………….. I come there for it ……………….. Rught ……………….. You get it ……………….. Although it is only residual ………………..

Pig vs kuldi ………………..

All people ……………….. Many people have negative thinking ……………….. About using pig as serum ……………….. For medicine to cure illnesses ……………….. God does create pigs ……………….. If he does that ……………….. ……………….. It means that pigs have some kind of benefit in some sort ……………….. Maybe this is it ……………….. And they do not want to admit that ……………….. Is it possible that pigs are kuldi ……………….. Who mislead adam and eve ……………….. Being cast out from heaven ……………….. Just like human vs pigs ……………….. If they use pigs in any form ……………….. They will be cast out from the true happiness ………………..

kerjaane wong kui

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20 agus 18 senen ……………………………

Kampus …………………………… Pul …………………………… Gym w baskoro …………………………… Allahuakbar ……………………………

19 agus 18 minggu ……………………………

Alfmrt …………………………… Pom …………………………… Ped net …………………………… Superindo …………………………… Mlm olip …………………………… Allahuakbar ……………………………

18 agus 18 sabtu ……………………………

Pg sekolah …………………………… Ped net …………………………… Mlm ped jaga bulik …………………………… Lampus mati …………………………… Atm …………………………… Sk …………………………… Allahuakbar ……………………………

17 agus 18 jumat ……………………………

Jumatan …………………………… Mlm ped …………………………… Net …………………………… Ngaji …………………………… Allahuakbar ……………………………

16 agus 18 kamis ……………………………

Kampus …………………………… Allahuakbar ……………………………

15 agus 18 rabu ……………………………

Kampus …………………………… Kendal takziyah …………………………… Kampus …………………………… Allahuakbar ……………………………

14 agus 18 selasa ……………………………

Kampus …………………………… Fatimazahra …………………………… Pul …………………………… Sore kurusus …………………………… Mlm ped …………………………… Net …………………………… Ngaji …………………………… Allahuakbar ……………………………

13 agus 18 senen ……………………..

Kampus …………………………… Pul …………………………… Ambil mbl …………………………… Kampus ambil roti …………………………… Pul …………………………… Mlm ped …………………………… Ngaji …………………………… Allahuakbar ……………………………

there was then ....................

the old days .................... there were a lot of dangers .................... you are not here yet .................... scary places .................... catastrophic world .................... soon .................... wait for the time .................... when you hold me tight .................... and never let me go ..... ................................... they are bad .................... dont want them to hurt me .................... no more ....................

memory of nizar

only you know this sacrifice……………………………

only you know this tears…………………………… the reason…………………………… the cause…………………………… all behind it…………………………… you tell me to fight alone’…………………………… I did that lord…………………………… I hope you come soon…………………………… I miss you…………………………… I want to come home…………………………… All is evil…………………………… Only you are the best ……………………………

It is not him……………………………

Who sits in front of you…………………………… Who talks to you…………………………… But why it is him…………………………… In your eyes…………………………… In your brain…………………………… In your smile…………………………… It is crazy…………………………… Don’t want to think bout him…………………………… But cant help it’…………………………… He just comes uninvited…………………………… As he pleases…………………………… Not considering me ……………………………

Respect life……………………………

Stay away from that part…………………………… But look…………………………… That hot red color…………………………… It is so nice…………………………… It attracts you near…………………………… Draw you close…………………………… The temptation is big…………………………… It is like pollen for bees…………………………… The honey is there…………………………… In the end…………………………… But the thorn will kill you…………………………… If it is not now…………………………… It will eventually…………………………… You are doomed ……………………………

The lust thing……………………………

I think this is the reason behind all…………………………… The bad things…………………………… Happen in my time’…………………………… Always assume the others bad…………………………… Meanwhile it is not one hundred percent that I am good before him…………………………… Honestly…………………………… If I see it more detail…………………………… There are a lot of bads in me…………………………… Afraid…………………………… Don’t want it…………………………… Want to change…………………………… Become white…………………………… Then fly away ……………………………