the old place………………………………..

thx lord……………………………….. today I visit it……………………………….. and I succeed……………………………….. two places……………………………….. don’t have to be stressed about it anymore……………………………….. I am enjoying it……………………………….. I am being relax……………………………….. I hope the result is okay……………………………….. satisfying……………………………….. get the papers I want ………………………………..

lord………………………………..

this headache is very severe……………………………….. lord……………………………….. make me strong ……………………………….. make me healthy……………………………….. let me face you……………………………….. don’t let me go……………………………….. don’t give up on me……………………………….. hold me tight……………………………….. lead me home……………………………….. to your place ………………………………..

camping………………………………..

they don’t ask me to join them before……………………………….. now mrd forgets mentioning my name……………………………….. I am hurt……………………………….. I think it is on purpose……………………………….. my prediction……………………………….. changing the mind……………………………….. I hope he did it unintentionally……………………………….. then mri ask me to join……………………………….. thx lord……………………………….. I feel relieved……………………………….. they plan two camps……………………………….. want to join them all……………………………….. but I have a lot of debts……………………………….. it is scary……………………………….. lord……………………………….. help me please ………………………………..

I did go to the gym before………………………………..

it was very error……………………………….. headache is on……………………………….. very acute……………………………….. but thx lord……………………………….. I survive……………………………….. and I can finish it……………………………….. base on my standard……………………………….. I hope he help……………………………….. grant what I want……………………………….. being healthy……………………………….. being thin……………………………….. being adorable……………………………….. being hot……………………………….. being sexy\……………………………….. being amazing……………………………….. get a person……………………………….. and more……………………………….. much more……………………………….. in his lead……………………………….. in his way……………………………….. in his blessing ………………………………..

don’t have mood………………………………..

don’t have energy……………………………….. very lazy……………………………….. and the stomach is error too……………………………….. I should say yes……………………………….. maybe they want to say something……………………………….. maybe they want to talk……………………………….. and it is the only way……………………………….. coz I am weird……………………………….. always alone……………………………….. always hiding in my room……………………………….. lets do that……………………………….. always find the positive side ………………………………..

white cock…………………

many advantageous………………… when they roar………………… they signal us………………… that angels are coming………………… they say that the white ones are from heaven………………… descendant of the heaven creatures………………… they do block black magic………………… can bring blessing………………… the fish too………………… the fisha and fishk…………………………………… theo do fasting for so long………………… angels do have animals as their pets /…………………

the relationship between husband and wife is the kind of pray............................

whorshipping him............................ devoting ourselves to him............................ both are fragrance............................ do it in so many ways............................ it is danger though............................ the topic is hot............................ it is scary............................ people say a lot of things............................ both positive and negative............................ the danger ones too............................ if you are getting old........................................................ they will say that you arent appropriate to have new kid............................ then it hits you............................ so hard............................ make you down ............................

i am too tired to care,...............................

bout everything,............................... my body and soul,............................... are exhausted,............................... defeated,............................... crushed,............................... dear lord,............................... please come to me,............................... entertain me ,............................... cheer me up,............................... pick me up ,...............................

there is always the supporting role...........................

who is very stupid........................... doing everything for love........................... sacrificing everything........................... what the hell is in his mind........................... in the end he doesnt get the love of his life........................... lord........................... i dont want to be like that........................... i dont want that destiny........................... i want to be the main role........................... who gets the love........................... who gets the happiness........................... who gets the blessing from you........................... in this world........................... and in the after life ...........................

the decision is final..........................

and it hurts a lot.......................... like hell.......................... holy ef.......................... annoying.......................... i teel them.......................... but they dont understand.......................... it is chaotic.......................... holy ef.......................... you dead.......................... i am dead.......................... mentally ..........................

he knows..........................

and he teases.......................... it hurts a lot.......................... dont ask.......................... stupid.......................... dont go back.......................... stupid.......................... dont beg.......................... stupid.......................... you have that man.......................... stupid.......................... you are blind.......................... stupid.......................... why does love hurt this bad.......................... we tend to chase the one we cant have.......................... and we dont see the one near.......................... who clearly love us so much ..........................

lord..........................

this make me afraid.......................... my debt is everywhere.......................... many places.......................... campus.......................... family.......................... cc.......................... and now i have to find a new one.......................... help.......................... lord.......................... help me please.......................... sorry.......................... dont leave me please.......................... show me the way ..........................

goodbye my dream............................

i should say my farewell............................ you are out of my reach............................ you run so fastv............................ i cant chase you............................ you fly so high............................ i cant reach you............................ you hide so well............................ i cant find you............................ you dive so low............................ i cant catch you............................ i want to continue to fight............................ but i am tired............................ who will fight for me............................ i want you fight for me ............................

i force myself for a while to be good.......................................

hold many things to be crazy....................................... going insane....................................... so you grant my wish....................................... but the reality is like this....................................... let it be....................................... allow me to be crazy again'....................................... it is time for me to entertain myself....................................... no need to hold here and there....................................... all free now....................................... time for screaming your heart out .......................................

i am suspicious of everybody.......................................

sorry....................................... lord....................................... make this satan dissapear from my mind....................................... that text....................................... making me to do this....................................... everybody has the power to make me fail....................................... by looking at me....................................... by looking at my pic....................................... by thinking of me....................................... by their pray....................................... and now everyone is suspects....................................... families....................................... friends....................................... seniors....................................... enemies....................................... coworkers....................................... what the heck....................................... i am tired....................................... my mind is never stop wandering....................................... thinking all the possibilities....................................... the bad ones.......................................

very annoying………………………………….

they don’t understand…………………………………. but they insist to help…………………………………. thus it is error…………………………………. make me boiling…………………………………. I don’t want to explain it the complete way…………………………………. it will be long…………………………………. lord…………………………………. make me patient…………………………………. make me strong…………………………………. I swear it…………………………………. I think it continuously…………………………………. make me grumble inside…………………………………. lord…………………………………. I am blocked…………………………………. you finish that…………………………………. not me…………………………………. I cant handle it…………………………………. I am not strong enough ………………………………….

the crime of the mind………………………………………

naughty mind……………………………………… dirty mind……………………………………… criminal mind……………………………………… put me in those places……………………………………… the prison of the impolite……………………………………… the prison of steel bars……………………………………… the prison of dreamers……………………………………… there are so many……………………………………… lead me to the hot place……………………………………… some lead me to the dark place……………………………………… and others lead me to burning place……………………………………… hell……………………………………… and those things never stop……………………………………… it is always working, grinding, grilling, rolling……………………………………… every little things can trigger those……………………………………… the dreamland……………………………………… mostly I go there……………………………………… where I can feel happy……………………………………… and no one judge me ……………………………………………

they have their wives........................

they have their kids........................ but they do couple things........................ in front of them\........................ in front of me........................ make me jealous........................ i do hope they are for real........................ coz they look good together........................ perfect in all aspects........................ in sync and in harmony........................ pray for them........................ they will last long........................ till the end of the day........................ and inspire everyone else........................ around them........................ to do the same........................ feel happy bout it........................ feel happy bout them........................ hope the same for me ........................ will happen soon........................ and fly me to the moon ........................

the paper is here...........................

but things dont look good........................... report it to dgroup........................... report to ugroup........................... that answer is shocked me........................... before she gave me hope........................... now she is like that........................... lord........................... make me patient........................... make me strong........................... i dont know anything anymore........................... i surrender........................... it looks like everything gots complicated since start........................... the paper is late........................... the paper is not approved directly........................... the letter between them........................... the admins are error........................... lord........................... let me continue my life........................... dont disturb me........................... dont hurt me........................... dont torture me ...........................

from earlier i dont feel like it being here...............................

a lot of sgins............................... the dead lamp............................... but it turns on again............................... the dead net............................... but it works again............................... then the heavy one............................... got the info............................... must find person from old place............................... find ex supervisors.............................................................. let it be............................... do it............................... dont over think bout it............................... dont make it heavy............................... if i get it............................... then thx to him............................... if i dont get it............................... then find another one ................................

the paper is done .........................

but things got complicated ......................... i hope they do things for me ......................... they are stupid officers ......................... they did know the date of the program ......................... but they still help my paper ......................... now when they release it ......................... it is too late ......................... it is useless ......................... it is all their fault ......................... i hope they know it ......................... and i hope thay pay their mistake ......................... make special program just for me ......................... or netter than that ......................... offering me study ......................... their pay ......................... lord ......................... make them do this ......................... for me ......................... for you ......................... for all ......................... lets conquer all ......................... lets destroy all .........................

it gets everywhere..........................

lord.......................... hate this.......................... i tell sis coz i have to.......................... as she take me and oick me up to the airport.......................... i tell my grup coz mrsm search for me when i am off.......................... i tell pa coz he tries to help me.......................... or disturb.......................... it feels like it.......................... lord.......................... i did held myself.......................... not to update my status.......................... i promise myself.......................... i will only update my status in blog.......................... where noone read.......................... only you and me know it.......................... lord.......................... i am afraid if i update my status.......................... and my haters read it.......................... they will send bad pray.......................... to make it all fail.......................... thats why ..............................

my old place...........................

lord........................... too much toughts........................... to much fear........................... make them dissappear........................... i will do everything........................... there are only two possibilities........................... being accepted........................... or rejected........................... if it is the second........................... then let it be........................... find another one........................... if it is the first........................... then it is thx to you........................... send them gift of being grateful ..................................................

they interfere ..........................

i am stressed coz of it .......................... i tell my stories to you .......................... just telling .......................... but i dont want you to help me .......................... let me do it myself .......................... with mu effort .......................... with my power .......................... with my sweat .......................... with my tears .......................... with my blood .......................... you can send me your pray .......................... that is enough .......................... very much enough .......................... lord help me .......................... make me patient .......................... make me strong ...........................

22 nov 18 kamis…………………………………………..

atm bni cimb………………………………………….. kampus………………………………………….. indosat………………………………………….. kampus gladi bersih………………………………………….. acara perpisahan………………………………………….. pul………………………………………….. kampus ditelpon bmei………………………………………….. bmei pjoko pyusuf………………………………………….. inul vista………………………………………….. kampus2 acara perpisahan………………………………………….. kampus ambil motor………………………………………….. pul………………………………………….. allahuakbar…………………………………………..

21 nov 18 rabu…………………………………………..

kampus………………………………………….. alfa………………………………………….. pul gasik………………………………………….. gym………………………………………….. pul………………………………………….. mlm ped………………………………………….. net………………………………………….. ngaji………………………………………….. allahuakbar…………………………………………..

20 nov 18 selasa…………………………………………..

motor………………………………………….. dpmall………………………………………….. net………………………………………….. belanja………………………………………….. allahuakbar…………………………………………..

19 nov 18 senen…………………………………………..

with fam………………………………………….. pantai marina………………………………………….. pemancingan victory………………………………………….. es degan………………………………………….. ped………………………………………….. net………………………………………….. ngaji………………………………………….. allahuakbar…………………………………………..

18 nov 18 minggu…………………………………………..

dpmall………………………………………….. café………………………………………….. nonton………………………………………….. alfa………………………………………….. allahuakbar…………………………………………..

17 nov 18 sabtu…………………………………………..

seharian tidur………………………………………….. siang bengkel………………………………………….. superindo………………………………………….. bad experience………………………………………….. mlm pijet………………………………………….. allahuakbar…………………………………………..

16 nov 18 jumat…………………………………………..

kampus………………………………………….. toko dvd………………………………………….. pul………………………………………….. matlamp………………………………………….. dpmall………………………………………….. parker eror………………………………………….. nonton………………………………………….. allahuakbar…………………………………………..

15 nov 18 kamis ………………………………………………………………………..…………..

kampus………………………………………….. mlm jemput ikha………………………………………….. jowo deles………………………………………….. ngantar ikha………………………………………….. allahuakbar…………………………………………..

there is a member of p joining the election............................

there is an info of misconception............................ some say that ll p member should choose him............................ then mrr decides............................ all member of p do not have the obligation to choose him............................ coz election is free to choose............................ according to one's heart............................ i agree............................ then mrx gets angry............................ and he left the group............................ pray to lord............................ if the candidate is good............................ i hope he wins the election............................ and can improve the organitasion............................ in all aspects............................ as i feel our organitation is not good yet............................ it still needs improvement........................................................ a lot .............................

i am sorry that i love you ...........................

you dont have to love me back ........................... you are my star ........................... please shine always ........................... continuously ........................... non stop ........................... i will have your lght from afar ........................... i will always pray for you ........................... your good ........................... your success ........................... your health ........................... your bright ........................... i will always have you in my mind ........................... i do hope the best for you ........................... the swells in my heart ........................... i can take it to my grave ........................... i think i can happy this way ........................... he gives this love to me ...........................

suddenly i sweat a lot..................................

it is a bad sign.................................. and i remember my dream last night.................................. i think i screa for real.................................. i shout 'thief' very loudly.................................. what is the meaning of this lord.................................. i am confused.................................. please explain.................................. i dont want to be curious.................................. i really dont feel good.................................. what happen.................................. i am afraid lord.................................. i hope i am fine.................................. i hope you protect me all the way.................................. always.................................. never stop.................................. it is scary.................................. this world is scary place.................................. and you create this.................................. and you put me here.................................. why ..................................

i dont know how.........................

but these two bring hot air......................... not in positive way......................... i do feel hot suddenly......................... it feels like in sauna......................... what is it......................... i hope i am fine......................... i hope these two dont give me negative vibe......................... they look fine......................... like couple......................... i hope they are couple......................... that would be nice......................... then they will give me impact......................... their love power gets over me......................... so i am infected......................... and i will have my own......................... and i will be happy......................... this one will last long......................... till the day i die......................... till death do us part......................... in the name of lord .........................

my lap is slow............…………………………………………………………

will ask help to him............………………………………………………………… hope he can help............………………………………………………………… and my lap will be fast again............………………………………………………………… that would be nice............………………………………………………………… that will make me happy............………………………………………………………… and I will use it properly............………………………………………………………… to make me close to you............………………………………………………………… thus you bless my lap............………………………………………………………… and it will last long............………………………………………………………… so I don’t have to spend a lot of money............………………………………………………………… to buy a new one............………………………………………………………… I must buy a new one............………………………………………………………… if it is easily broken............………………………………………………………… I hope you don’t break my lap............………………………………………………………… in the name of lord …………………………………

will I be sick again……………………………………….

I feel like it………………………………………. I hope it will not come true………………………………………. make me strong lord………………………………………. make me healthy lord………………………………………. make me happy lord………………………………………. soul and corpus………………………………………. I am tired lord………………………………………. tired of being sad………………………………………. tired of being disappointed………………………………………. tired of everything………………………………………. tired of soul and corpus………………………………………. I want to be happy………………………………………. lord………………………………………. I don’t want to suffer anymore ……………………………………….

what will happen tomorrow……………………………………….

will I join them………………………………………. will not I join them………………………………………. finally I join………………………………………. and all is fine………………………………………. thx lordv………………………………………. the beach………………………………………. the fishing spot………………………………………. the street vendor………………………………………. all is good………………………………………. hope it will happen again………………………………………. someday………………………………………. with his blessing………………………………………. with his help ……………………………………….

being watched when shop……………………………………….

hate that………………………………………. the first place did that………………………………………. the second one did that too………………………………………. promise to myself………………………………………. will never shop there again………………………………………. ever………………………………………. will shop in another place………………………………………. hope the new place will make me happy………………………………………. will make me comfortable………………………………………. will make me safe………………………………………. will have a lot of stuff………………………………………. will have the complete package………………………………………. will have hot staffs………………………………………. a lot of them………………………………………. and they will treat me nice………………………………………. and more ……………………………………….

there are five..................................

but in the end all is fine.................................. the first is.................................. the box is error.................................. but it suddenly works.................................. the second is.................................. my favorite spot is being taken.................................. although it is like that.................................. but i still get the spot.................................. the third is.................................. the net is very slow.................................. i just stay for a while.................................. my works are not finished.................................. the fourth is.................................. i didnt hear being called.................................. but i still get my drink.................................. thx lord.................................. the fifth is.................................. the customer gets angry to the staff.................................. but i block my ears.................................. i just pray for them.................................. the right gets his blessing.................................. the wrong gets his punishment.................................. in the end i go to movie.................................. make me happy.....................................

no power of authority..................................

no power of famous.................................. just the power of rightousness.................................. love that.................................. hope i can be like that.................................. do not want everything.................................. just the right things.................................. and i hope it is enough.................................. to make me satisfied.................................. to make me happy.................................. and do not make me angry to you anymore.................................. you are cruel.................................. if you make me sad.................................. if you lead me the wrong way ........................................

hilarious...........................

it is unusual that i am sad hearing she will go home........................... but the news did not come true........................... so i feel usual again........................... just like before........................... stay away at the most........................... now the news comes again........................... she said she will go home tomorrow........................... part of me feel sad........................... the other part feel happy........................... and pray for her........................... that she will be happy there........................... with pa........................... always getting along well ..............................………………………………………

i was very angry to that man..............................

the leader of the religion.............................. he said that.............................. lord intentionally give the wrong part.............................. to those who are stubborn.............................. when they had been given so many clues.............................. now i am angry to him.............................. as you are intentionally lead us the wrong way.............................. lead me the wrong way.............................. i am furious.............................. i hope you dont do that.............................. i hope you put me in the right path............................... i hope you give me happy ending

dear lord…………………………………………

from this day onwards………………………………………… i swear to myself………………………………………… to you………………………………………… that i will make myself happy………………………………………… no matter what………………………………………… no matter how many times i fail………………………………………… no matter how many times i cry………………………………………… no matter how many times i stumble………………………………………… i will always risa again………………………………………… and again………………………………………… to get my part on the spotlight\…………………………………………

my latest pray……………………………….

for them………………………………. the best ones………………………………. so I can get infected………………………………. not going there like them………………………………. anywhere else but there………………………………. that would be nice………………………………. and I am being crushed again………………………………. my stomach………………………………. she is boss………………………………. cooking for me and us………………………………. so it is like forcing me to eat………………………………. I cant say no………………………………. there would be unwanted things happening………………………………. if I reject………………………………. so I must accept………………………………. finding another way to do diet………………………………. hope he help ……………………………….

lord……………………………….

I swear I want to cry………………………………. but I cant………………………………. the chest is very heavily pressured………………………………. in the name of lord………………………………. see what I predicted is right………………………………. my things are being crushed………………………………. I cant handle it………………………………. but it is not like before………………………………. when I was so furious………………………………. he is the greatest………………………………. I hope I can bear it till the end………………………………. we will see………………………………. now I am in silence mode………………………………. but when she went home………………………………. I will rearrange all as I want it………………………………. if he allows………………………………. I think it is a good solution………………………………. I hope he help ……………………………….

14 nov 18 rabu………………………………………..

kampus……………………………………….. alfa……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..

13 nov 18 selasa………………………………………..

kampus……………………………………….. gym……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..

12 nov 18 senen………………………………………..

kampus……………………………………….. mlm ped……………………………………….. net……………………………………….. ngaji……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..