26 okt 19 sabtu………………………………………………………………………..

With fam……………………………………………………………………….. Took pancing……………………………………………………………………….. Sarapan soto……………………………………………………………………….. Mincing at baron……………………………………………………………………….. Pul……………………………………………………………………….. Dpmall……………………………………………………………………….. Uniqlo……………………………………………………………………….. Café……………………………………………………………………….. Pul……………………………………………………………………….. Rapat rt……………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………………..

25 okt 19 jumat………………………………………………………………………..

Lkampus……………………………………………………………………….. With Pamela n anjun……………………………………………………………………….. Dikti……………………………………………………………………….. Dpmall……………………………………………………………………….. Kampus……………………………………………………………………….. Maksi w ika n ipah……………………………………………………………………….. Wrg……………………………………………………………………….. Kampus……………………………………………………………………….. Pul……………………………………………………………………….. Mlm with family……………………………………………………………………….. K pakpoh harno……………………………………………………………………….. Wrg……………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………………..

24 okt 19 kamis………………………………………………………………………..

Kampus……………………………………………………………………….. Indosat……………………………………………………………………….. Ikikuwi……………………………………………………………………….. Maksi w nina n widya……………………………………………………………………….. Dkosmo……………………………………………………………………….. Kampus……………………………………………………………………….. Pul……………………………………………………………………….. Mlm pijet……………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………………..

23 okt 19 rabu………………………………………………………………………..

Kampus4……………………………………………………………………….. Seminar……………………………………………………………………….. Tiki……………………………………………………………………….. Kampus……………………………………………………………………….. Kampus4……………………………………………………………………….. Alfa……………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………………..

22 okt 19 selasa………………………………………………………………………..

Kampus……………………………………………………………………….. Cimb……………………………………………………………………….. Wrg……………………………………………………………………….. Kampus……………………………………………………………………….. Kampus4……………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………………..

21 okt 19 senen………………………………………………………………………..

Kampus……………………………………………………………………….. Pulgsk……………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………………..

20 okt 19 minggu………………………………………………………………………..

Seharian d rmh……………………………………………………………………….. Sore k wrg……………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………………..

19 okt 19 sabtu …………………………………………………………………………..

Kampus……………………………………………………………………….. Meet bu mei……………………………………………………………………….. Café……………………………………………………………………….. Mlm nizar k rmh……………………………………………………………………….. Ml……………………………………………………………………….. K kos nizar……………………………………………………………………….. Wrg……………………………………………………………………….. Javamall……………………………………………………………………….. Nonton……………………………………………………………………….. Diantar nizar……………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………………..

It was their pray…………………………………………………

I must go back………………………………………………… Lord………………………………………………… Dear god………………………………………………… I don’t want to go home………………………………………………… Please lord………………………………………………… Change their pray………………………………………………… Let me go away………………………………………………… Allow me go away………………………………………………… Give me permission to go away………………………………………………… Make them to allow me to go away………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………… I hope you make me strong………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………… I will accept whatever your decision………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………… But if I can ask………………………………………………… I want to be there………………………………………………… Forever………………………………………………… Till the end …………………………………………………

Don’t blame others…………………………………………………

Don’t blame him………………………………………………… Blame me………………………………………………… Why did I addicted to that kind of thing………………………………………………… Stupid me………………………………………………… Idiot me………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………… He will cure me………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………… He will make disappear all the weird desires inside my heart………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………… He will make me clean………………………………………………… He will clean me………………………………………………… From all dirts inside me …………………………………………………

Meeting…………………………………………………

There are two hearts on it………………………………………………… The one want to join………………………………………………… The other doesn’t want to join………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………… If I don’t join………………………………………………… I will work here………………………………………………… I have a lot of jobs………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………… He will help me finishing my works………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………… I hope it is ok………………………………………………… There is nothing bad happen in my neighborhood………………………………………………… I hope all is safe………………………………………………… I hope he protect me and my family………………………………………………… And all me neighbors ……………………………………………………

And him……………………………..

She is very strange…………………………….. Lord…………………………….. Just caring for certain people…………………………….. Her boyfriend…………………………….. And the girls…………………………….. Lord…………………………….. Help me please…………………………….. Make me strong…………………………….. Save me please…………………………….. From bad people …………………………….. They are amazing…………………………….. The get it for free…………………………….. But they ask for more…………………………….. Unbelievable……………………………..

I heard it……………………………..

Lord …………………………….. I heard it…………………………….. I am speechless…………………………….. I cant talk to her…………………………….. I cant ask her…………………………….. I ask you…………………………….. Lord…………………………….. Help me please…………………………….. Set me free…………………………….. Send me there…………………………….. Far away…………………………….. To the neverland ……………………………………..

I find a negative one………………………………

I should find the positive one……………………………… Love from ma is good……………………………… As he said it……………………………… Ma is the number one……………………………… But it didn’t work……………………………… Lord……………………………… Let me go away……………………………… Let her know that I want to go away……………………………… Make her let me go……………………………… I want to go places……………………………… Wander all over the world……………………………… Living abroad……………………………… Working abroad……………………………… Making money……………………………… In the name of lord……………………………… I hope he bless this plan……………………………… If he allows……………………………… I will always be good……………………………… He is the greatest……………………………… But you are the best planner……………………………… But lord……………………………… I am tortured here……………………………… Inside out……………………………… Body and soul ……………………………………

He is selfcenter ……………………

The inside makes me angry…………………… Again and again…………………… It did yesterday…………………… It does now…………………… I did send my ex to school…………………… But not like this…………………… And he is also working too…………………… Ok then…………………… It is fixed…………………… Let him do it on his own…………………… Let it all out…………………… He did ask for money…………………… And he did ask me to do things…………………… As if I am his slave…………………… I did the one giving help…………………… I didn’t want he treat me this way……………………

Birthdays………………………………………

Find the positive of it……………………………………… Gathering with family……………………………………… Reconnecting with relatives……………………………………… Making the connection tighter……………………………………… In the name of lord……………………………………… I hope all positives come out of it……………………………………… If he allows……………………………………… He will bless all I did……………………………………… He is the greatest……………………………………… He will always love me……………………………………… I will always love him……………………………………… Till the end ………………………………………

Graveyard………………………………………

Why did they forbid it……………………………………… Visit it……………………………………… I didn’t ask things to them……………………………………… I did try to find positive out of it……………………………………… I send prayers for them……………………………………… I try to remember the death……………………………………… In the name of lord……………………………………… I hope he put me far away from sinful things……………………………………… If he allows……………………………………… I hope what I did is not wrong……………………………………… Before him……………………………………… He is the greatest……………………………………… He will forgive my stupidity……………………………………… He will show me the right path ………………………………………

This torture me………………………………………

Lord……………………………………… Let me taste a little bit of heaven……………………………………… Your heaven……………………………………… For me heaven is there……………………………………… In the name of lord……………………………………… I hope you bless this wish……………………………………… If he allows……………………………………… I wish you grant this dream……………………………………… You are the greatest……………………………………… You will make miracle……………………………………… You will send me there……………………………………… You will give me a person……………………………………… You will give me acceptance letter……………………………………… You will give me grant……………………………………… You will give me job……………………………………… You will allow me to stay there……………………………………… Forever and ever ………………………………………

I did heard………………………………………

It will be three pm……………………………………… I must be strong……………………………………… I must be patient……………………………………… Don’t bring lappy……………………………………… Don’t bring book……………………………………… The cell is dead……………………………………… And I think about my work a lot……………………………………… They say we will wait so it will not this hot……………………………………… Then we had lunch……………………………………… I did have my work over load……………………………………… Let it be……………………………………… Must be strong……………………………………… Must be patient……………………………………… Train it myself……………………………………… There is reason……………………………………… Why I should be here……………………………………… I don’t know what……………………………………… But I have to be here ………………………………………

I didn’t bring my lappy………………………………………

My book……………………………………… My cell is dead……………………………………… Weird……………………………………… The cell……………………………………… The battery……………………………………… I unplug it this morning……………………………………… I charge it before I go to sleep……………………………………… So it is full……………………………………… Now it is dead……………………………………… It could last long……………………………………… Very long time……………………………………… In the name of lord……………………………………… I hope he guard my cell……………………………………… If he allows……………………………………… My cell will be fine……………………………………… He is the greatest……………………………………… He will make miracle……………………………………… So my cell is not broken……………………………………… And my cell will last long ………………………………………………

his eyes wander everywhere...............................

then what i am............................... what i am to him............................... what is the position of mine in the heart............................... what is the position of mine in the life............................... in the name of lord............................... i must be strong............................... to release him............................... to kill him............................... to kill this feeling for him............................... to shoo him away............................... to shoo him away from the heart............................... if he allows............................... he will help me............................... he is the greatest............................... he will protect me............................... from bad people ......................................

their request.................................

is scary................................. is disgusting.................................................................. is dangerous.................................................................. for my future................................. in the name of lord................................. i hope i can dodge it................................. if he allows................................. he will give e a way out................................. he is the greatest................................. he will make miracles................................. he will help me................................. saving my future ....................................

you give free for others.......................

but not for me....................... what the heck....................... what the ef.............................................. just looking for perfect physic....................... just looking for the rich....................... let it be....................... i must awake....................... must do it....................... must and must....................... just pray for him to be safe....................... on the way home....................... for his life here....................... meeting a lot of people....................... as it is his nature....................... as here people are bad ........................

mrn.....................

he did the movie..................... he asks for more..................... so much more..................... shoes..................... things..................... more eats..................... boarding house..................... the words tho..................... cuts deep and through..................... thouroughly..................... deeply..................... making me scars everywhere..................... making me bleed now and then ........................

mrn.....................

mrn..................... he did the movie..................... he asks for more..................... so much more..................... shoes..................... things..................... more eats..................... boarding house..................... the words tho..................... cuts deep and through..................... thouroughly..................... deeply..................... making me scars everywhere..................... making me bleed now and then ........................

i will not chase............................

i will stay still............................ i will pray hard............................ i will wait for him to come............................ as i always choose the wrong one............................ the one who hurts me so bad............................ in the name of lord............................ lets make myself presentable............................ before him............................ if he allows............................ he will show me the way............................ how to make myself presentable............................ he is the greatest............................ maybe i already knew............................ sorry lord............................ i will do my best............................ i will try my best............................ still love you tho............................ hope you love me too .................................

the discussion is unbelievable...........................

and i forget........................... is it a blessing........................... but not so much........................... then it makes me furious to the core........................... is it the end game........................... just like the movie i watch just now........................... what should i do........................... what should i think........................... keep doing good........................... keep loving him........................... keep running towards him........................... never stop doing that........................... never stop loving him........................... never stop praying ...............................

whatever you say............................

all you said makes me boiled............................ dont read it............................ dont reply it............................ just pray for him............................ in the name of lord............................ i hope he survives till he graduates............................ if he allows............................ he will give me a chance............................ to help him............................ he is the greatest............................ he will make miracles............................ so he can be strong............................ he can be independent............................ he can make it............................ he can reach the destination............................ he can reach final spot............................ graduate with flying colors ..............................

18 okt 19 jumat…………………………………………………………………..

Kampus………………………………………………………………….. Café………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………..

17 okt 19 kamis…………………………………………………………………..

Wrg………………………………………………………………….. Kampus………………………………………………………………….. Pul………………………………………………………………….. Mlm Pamela………………………………………………………………….. Kampus………………………………………………………………….. Pamela………………………………………………………………….. Indomaret………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………..

16 okt 19 rabu…………………………………………………………………..

Kampus………………………………………………………………….. Mlm w ciprut………………………………………………………………….. Pands………………………………………………………………….. Alfa………………………………………………………………….. Ws………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………..

15 okt 19 selasa…………………………………………………………………..

Wrg………………………………………………………………….. Kampus………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………..

14 okt 19 senen…………………………………………………………………..

Kampus………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………..

13 okt 19 minggu…………………………………………………………………..

Café………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………..

12 okt 19 sabtu…………………………………………………………………..

Dijemput satrio………………………………………………………………….. Makan pecel………………………………………………………………….. Nonton at transmart majapahit………………………………………………………………….. Makan di fatmawati………………………………………………………………….. Pul………………………………………………………………….. Café………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………..

11 okt 19 jumat ……………………………………………………………………………

Hotel………………………………………………………………….. No water………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………….. Gojek………………………………………………………………….. Kuningan………………………………………………………………….. Visa………………………………………………………………….. Metu3x file receipt, print receipt, print biometric………………………………………………………………….. Gojek………………………………………………………………….. Iing………………………………………………………………….. Gojek………………………………………………………………….. Gambir………………………………………………………………….. Otw smg by train………………………………………………………………….. Mpe smg mlm………………………………………………………………….. Gojek pul………………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………..

he like to show off.............................

the time when he has the power............................. in the name of lord............................. no more negative for him............................. if he allows............................. he will help him............................. he is the greatest............................. he will save him............................. he will lead him to the right path............................. if he is in the right path now............................. may he lead me there.......................................................... i want to be like him............................. having the ability to do that............................. having the capability to do that............................. having the opportunity to do that............................. got jealous of that............................. stupid me............................. idiot me............................. i cant control it............................. lets run away............................. to him ...................................

thinking about this morning................................

i did wake up................................ but got sleep again................................ i lose it................................ they win it................................ in the name of lord................................ i hopw i will win in the future................................ if he allows................................ he will help me to win................................ he is the greatest................................ he will make miracles................................ i will have the ability to beat them................................ the darkness................................ the laziness................................ myself................................ and he will help me................................ he will not leave me................................ he will guide me................................ he will stay by my side................................ he will accept me .....................................

painful world....................................

i give it all.................................... i have nothing left.................................... take me home lord.................................... trouble in paradise.................................... in the name of lord.................................... i will be strong.................................... if he allows.................................... he will give me strength.................................... he is the greatest.................................... he will make miracles.................................... i will keep surviving over the beatings.................................... i will keep going up.................................... after i get my falls.................................... and i will keep trying.................................... to reach my dreams.................................... i will run to him.................................... he is my estuary.................................... he is my last place.................................... he is my resting ....................................

mrsm forces my children to join the program....................................

mrk forces my children to join another program.................................... in the name of lord.................................... i hope in the future those two dont force my children again.................................... if he allows.................................... he will protect my children.................................... from all evil in campus.................................... he is the greatest.................................... he will lead my children to the last gate.................................... he will also welcome them outside the gate.................................... and keep gurading them.................................... in unlimited time.................................... he will love them.................................... he will care for them.................................... he will accept them .............................................

In the name of lord……………………………………..

I hope I don’t get negative like her…………………………………….. I hope I can be all positive…………………………………….. Tho I don’t find the positive yet…………………………………….. If he allows…………………………………….. Still trying to find the positive tho it is hard…………………………………….. Maybe it is his way…………………………………….. So we know what kind of work they do…………………………………….. The heavy ones and the tough ones…………………………………….. So we should not protest a lot…………………………………….. We should not complain a lot…………………………………….. Our part is nothing compare to theirs…………………………………….. He is the greatest…………………………………….. Hope there is another reason…………………………………….. He show me all…………………………………….. Preparing me to become one…………………………………….. Show me that…………………………………….. They have heavy and hard tasks…………………………………….. He wants to tell me…………………………………….. That the last failure…………………………………….. Is the best gift for me ……………………………………..

Let it go……………………………………..

The paper…………………………………….. If he allows…………………………………….. The story will be published…………………………………….. I did pay for that…………………………………….. In the name of lord…………………………………….. Don’t be angry at them…………………………………….. Don’t have bad thoughts bout them…………………………………….. Don’t pray bad for them…………………………………….. If he allows…………………………………….. There will be replacement…………………………………….. He is the greatest…………………………………….. Hope their show is smooth…………………………………….. Hope they will have the show again and again…………………………………….. Hope their show has a lot of fans ……………………………………..

In the name of lord……………………………………..

Don’t give comment…………………………………….. Must be strong…………………………………….. Don’t get heartache…………………………………….. In the name of lord…………………………………….. Just work…………………………………….. Think about your own works…………………………………….. Don’t think about them…………………………………….. If he allows…………………………………….. If they ask…………………………………….. Give good answers…………………………………….. Keep having positive thoughts…………………………………….. He is the greatest…………………………………….. Pray good for them…………………………………….. Pray good for me…………………………………….. Pray good for us …………………………………………………..

in the name of lord...............................

i hope i can get angry reading his messages............................... if he allows............................... he will help me calm............................... he is the greatest............................... hope god help him become better............................... hope he can be independent............................... hope he isnt dependent on me............................... hope he doesnt bother me............................... hope he understand me............................... that i have a lot of works............................... that i dont just take care of him............................... hope god understand me.............................................................. hope god understand him............................... hope god understand us............................... hope god help us .................................

must have positive thoughts...............................

for them............................... the group............................... hope all visas get approved............................... hope all go there............................... hope all get spv............................... hope all get loa............................... hope all get grants............................... in the name of lord............................... hope lord grant this wish...............................

i did bring works...........................

but it is too little........................... the idle hands are scary........................... surfing those things........................... in the name of lord........................... today i come again........................... bringing other jobs again........................... if he allows........................... he will help me understand........................... he will help me create proposal from all of this........................... sexy proposal........................... the one that can lure the supervisor........................... the ones there........................... he will make me happy........................... he will make me smile........................... he will make me laugh........................... he will hold me tight........................... and never let me go ............................

it is scary..................................

their talk.................................. big and high.................................. feel alienated.................................. before.................................. feeling not good in ceonnecting with them.................................. seeing from chat in group.................................. now.................................. feeling underrated.................................. far below beyond them.................................. in the name of lord.................................. i hope i can get along well with them.................................. if he allows.................................. he will help me getting along with them.................................. he is the greatest.................................. he will make me getting along with them.................................. dont be afraid.................................. this kind of thing is easy for him.................................. asking him.................................. he will grant this ....................................

thinking bout it...............................

this thing makes me pray a lot............................... thx lord............................... i think i get closer to him............................... in the name of lord............................... i hope he accept my good intention............................... if he allows............................... he will open the door for me............................... he is the greatest............................... he will show me the way............................... he will guide me............................... he will lead me............................... to the right path............................... that lead to the light............................... there............................... far away there............................... get there............................... get spv............................... het loa............................... get grants............................... and get more............................... so much more............................... get love............................... get fame............................... get rich............................... get around the world .................................

The first time is for searching the file…………………………………………………………………

The second time is for printing the file………………………………………………………………… The third time is for printing again………………………………………………………………… Then………………………………………………………………… I got stressed………………………………………………………………… But I find it delicious………………………………………………………………… I do all slowly………………………………………………………………… Thx lord………………………………………………………………… All is done………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… I hope my visa is approved………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… There will be announcement soon………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………………… He will make my visa being approved………………………………………………………………… He will send me there………………………………………………………………… He will give me spv………………………………………………………………… He will give me loa………………………………………………………………… He will give me grants …………………………………………………………………

The water is not available…………………………………………………………………

He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… I hope it was not a bad sign………………………………………………………………… Also there was last night………………………………………………………………… Problem with the hotel………………………………………………………………… Thx lord………………………………………………………………… I can get through that day………………………………………………………………… All is smooth………………………………………………………………… Tho I don’t have to take a bath………………………………………………………………… Tho I feel uncomfortable………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… That kind of thing will not happen again………………………………………………………………… My patient is being tested………………………………………………………………… I hope I pass………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… If there is another thing like that………………………………………………………………… I will be patient again………………………………………………………………… I will pass the test again………………………………………………………………… But I hope all bad things………………………………………………………………… Will not happen again in my live …………………………………………………………………

In the name of lord…………………………………………………………………

I will follow whatever you want………………………………………………………………… If you want me to stop………………………………………………………………… I will stop………………………………………………………………… If you want me to help………………………………………………………………… I will help………………………………………………………………… As far as I can………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… He will help me………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… He will give me permission………………………………………………………………… To take him to his graduation………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… There will be his portion………………………………………………………………… From lord………………………………………………………………… Through me………………………………………………………………… That I cant use it for others………………………………………………………………… Just for him………………………………………………………………… Just for his study………………………………………………………………… To make his future brighter …………………………………………………………………