That day……………………………………..

The number is done…………………………………….. The paper is done…………………………………….. Thx lord…………………………………….. So this is it…………………………………….. Maybe it all happen as I think positively…………………………………….. Hence the paper…………………………………….. Hence the number…………………………………….. Then I go to workshop…………………………………….. Put the plate on…………………………………….. Stupid me…………………………………….. I didn’t bring the tool…………………………………….. Being very crazy…………………………………….. Being in total idiot…………………………………….. Being an utter insane…………………………………….. I should bring them…………………………………….. Now I force myself to be positive…………………………………….. Thinking that they can fix all…………………………………….. They can do all…………………………………….. Then I will pay for it…………………………………….. In the name of lord…………………………………….. It did happen…………………………………….. If he allows…………………………………….. He did make it happen…………………………………….. He is the greatest…………………………………….. He will make miracle…………………………………….. I am in so much happy right now…………………………………….. I will love him till the end …………………………………………..

Mrd………………………………………………..

It turns out like this……………………………………………….. I hope you get my intention……………………………………………….. I hope you notice it……………………………………………….. I hope you record it……………………………………………….. At first……………………………………………….. I get very angry……………………………………………….. But then again……………………………………………….. He makes all of this……………………………………………….. Including this kind of story……………………………………………….. There must be something behind all this……………………………………………….. In the name of lord……………………………………………….. Pray for him……………………………………………….. If he allows……………………………………………….. He will be fine……………………………………………….. He is the greatest……………………………………………….. He will make miracles……………………………………………….. He will make him fine……………………………………………….. He will make his future fine……………………………………………….. The intention is……………………………………………….. I pay his tuition……………………………………………….. He get his degree……………………………………………….. He gets a better job……………………………………………….. He gets a better salary……………………………………………….. He gets a better life……………………………………………….. He can help his parents……………………………………………….. And all others ………………………………………………..

The book is not yet………………………………………………..

Yesterday is error……………………………………………….. Now is error……………………………………………….. Now I must be positive……………………………………………….. I will go there with positive thinking………………………………………………..……………………………………………….. If I get it……………………………………………….. I will be grateful……………………………………………….. If I don’t get it……………………………………………….. It is ok……………………………………………….. In the name of lord……………………………………………….. It was very fine……………………………………………….. If he allows……………………………………………….. He will make all like this……………………………………………….. Always positive……………………………………………….. He is the greatest……………………………………………….. He will make miracles……………………………………………….. He will make me positive……………………………………………….. He will make around me positive……………………………………………….. He will make all positive ………………………………………………..

I will enjoy my pain for awhile………………………………………………..

As reminder that I am still human……………………………………………….. That I can be hurt……………………………………………….. I want to bathe me with my tears……………………………………………….. In the name of lord……………………………………………….. I hope he is beside me always……………………………………………….. If he allows……………………………………………….. He will make me survive all of these hurdles……………………………………………….. He is the greatest……………………………………………….. He will make miracles……………………………………………….. He will make me fine……………………………………………….. He will make my heart fine……………………………………………….. He will make my soul fine ………………………………………………..

You are good in folding tongue…………………………………………………………………..

You are good in playing heart………………………………………………………………….. Or am I the stupid one………………………………………………………………….. I dream too much………………………………………………………………….. To find the happiness that is only vague………………………………………………………………….. I am too naïf to believe you………………………………………………………………….. I have good thoughts about you………………………………………………………………….. Is all that fake………………………………………………………………….. I think I know the answer………………………………………………………………….. But then again………………………………………………………………….. I think I don’t want to believe what the answer is………………………………………………………………….. Let all be like this………………………………………………………………….. I will enjoy this heartache………………………………………………………………….. I will not regret this broken heart………………………………………………………………….. I will be strong………………………………………………………………….. I will rise up high………………………………………………………………….. I will wake up from all your lies………………………………………………………………….. Your tricks………………………………………………………………….. Your deceits………………………………………………………………….. I will walk with my head help up high………………………………………………………………….. In the name of lord………………………………………………………………….. He will help me in all this………………………………………………………………….. If he allows………………………………………………………………….. He will accompany me in my sorrow………………………………………………………………….. He is the greatest………………………………………………………………….. He will make miracles………………………………………………………………….. He will cure me………………………………………………………………….. I will be cured …………………………………………………………………..

My stall…………………………….

I hope you help me in this business……………………………. I hope you make it run well……………………………. I hope you make it run smoothly……………………………. In the name of lord……………………………. I hope you bless my effort……………………………. If he allows……………………………. he will make all my stuff sold out everyday……………………………. he is the greatest……………………………. he will make miracles……………………………. he will make my business good……………………………. he will make my stall god……………………………. he will make my staff good……………………………. he will make me good …………………………….

Mrsy and mrsa…………………………….

Both of them give negative responses……………………………. Lord……………………………. Make me strong……………………………. I must keep being strong……………………………. I must keep being positive……………………………. I must keep trying hard……………………………. I must keep praying hard……………………………. I don’t want to let this go……………………………. I will chase it all the way to the end……………………………. With your help……………………………. With your bless……………………………. The others are not certain yet……………………………. This one gives sign of certainty……………………………. In the name of lord……………………………. I hope he help me in my chasing……………………………. If he allows……………………………. He will bless all my efforts……………………………. He is the greatest……………………………. He will make miracles……………………………. He will give me this……………………………. He will make me pass the selection……………………………. He will make me happy …………………………….

The free is overdue…………………………….

I cant use one of them……………………………. Let it be……………………………. He makes it this way……………………………. In the name of lord……………………………. I don’t know what the meaning now……………………………. If he allows……………………………. He will show me the meaning of all this……………………………. He is the greatest……………………………. He will make miracles……………………………. He will make my motor ok……………………………. He will make me ok……………………………. He will make everything ok ……………………………….

Thinking about that man……………………………………………….

Is he really get the wrong address………………………………………………. Or is he just pretending to have so………………………………………………. Is he having a bad intention………………………………………………. My head stuck on him………………………………………………. I don’t know what to do………………………………………………. Lord………………………………………………. I surrender to you………………………………………………. I give all of this to you………………………………………………. In the name of lord………………………………………………. May you protect me from bad people………………………………………………. If you allow………………………………………………. You will put away all bad people………………………………………………. You are the greatest………………………………………………. You will make miracles………………………………………………. You will make me safe………………………………………………. You will kill all bad people ……………………………………………….

If my fam is bad for me……………………………………………….

Let me stay away from them………………………………………………. I will love them from afar………………………………………………. I will pray for them from afar………………………………………………. I will care fro them from afar………………………………………………. Remembering that sentence………………………………………………. From ma………………………………………………. She tried to trap me………………………………………………. Make me stay………………………………………………. Her pray is a cage for me………………………………………………. That is why now I pray so hard………………………………………………. Really hard………………………………………………. Harder and harder………………………………………………. To brake the cage………………………………………………. To make a crack………………………………………………. To make an opening………………………………………………. So I can fly away………………………………………………. Lord………………………………………………. Please allow me to fly………………………………………………. With your power………………………………………………. Please break this cage………………………………………………. This is torturing lord………………………………………………. I want to be free………………………………………………. I want to be happy………………………………………………. With you ………………………………………………….

23 jan 20 kamis……………………………………………………………..

Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. \lapak ngantar uang…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. Permak…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. Took susu…………………………………………………………….. Took plastic…………………………………………………………….. Lapak…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

22 jan 20 rabu……………………………………………………………..

Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Jemput bowo…………………………………………………………….. Rodalink…………………………………………………………….. Istana mi…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. Klinik…………………………………………………………….. Apotek…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

21 jan 20 selasa……………………………………………………………..

Ped…………………………………………………………….. Nitip uang utk dian…………………………………………………………….. Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Njuri…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

20 jan 20 senen……………………………………………………………..

Wrg…………………………………………………………….. Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. Ped net…………………………………………………………….. Wawancara…………………………………………………………….. What…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. Bengkel…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

19 jan 20 minggu……………………………………………………………..

Ped…………………………………………………………….. Belanja w dian…………………………………………………………….. Ped…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

18 jan 20 sabtu……………………………………………………………..

Pamela…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Motor ambil buku…………………………………………………………….. Citra beli earphone…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. Pijet…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

17 jan 20 jumat ……………………………………………

Kampus…………………………………………………………….. Simpanglima…………………………………………………………….. Meet bowo…………………………………………………………….. Pizza hut…………………………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………………………….. Hans kopi…………………………………………………………….. Meet kristof baskoro agil…………………………………………………………….. Hotel – ngantar kristof…………………………………………………………….. Ngajak kristof muter2…………………………………………………………….. Kotalama…………………………………………………………….. Simpanglima…………………………………………………………….. Hotel…………………………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………………………..

I hope I cant get annoyed………………………………………..

I will make it joyful……………………………………….. I will make it in relax mode……………………………………….. I will pray for it……………………………………….. In the name of lord……………………………………….. He will help me to have fun……………………………………….. If he allows……………………………………….. Nothing will annoy me……………………………………….. He is the greatest……………………………………….. He will make miracles……………………………………….. I will find fun in every things I meet……………………………………….. I will find positive in all things I face ………………………………………..

It is not late yet…………………………………………

There is no word for late………………………………………… To find love………………………………………… To look for love………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………… I will not stop to find love………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………… He will bless my efforts………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………… He will find me love………………………………………… He will love me………………………………………… I will love him all the way …………………………………………

All have blood relation in this place…………………………………………

But not me\………………………………………… I am all alone………………………………………… Lets pray………………………………………… I hope all is well………………………………………… I hope I am well………………………………………… I hope this place is well………………………………………… If this place is good for me………………………………………… Let me stay here………………………………………… If this place is not good for me………………………………………… Let me go………………………………………… Place me in a far away land………………………………………… Let me travel around the world………………………………………… Let me move all around the places………………………………………… I want it that way………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………… He will grant my wish………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………… He will bless my wish………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………… He will make me happy………………………………………… I will love him all the way ………………………………………… I will find peace in him………………………………………… I will find peace in his love …………………………………………

Chat in that group…………………………………………

Don’t get it personal………………………………………… Don’t get angry because of it………………………………………… Just read it through………………………………………… Don’t get it into your heart………………………………………… Let them to have different ideas………………………………………… Put ourselves as an outsider………………………………………… Pray for them………………………………………… \so they will be fine………………………………………… \fine to each other………………………………………… Fine with their own family………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………… They will be well………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………… I will be well………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………… They will be nice to me………………………………………… I will be nice to them………………………………………… We will be nice to each other………………………………………… He will be nice to us …………………………………………

That store…………………………………………

All employers are hot………………………………………… But not helpful………………………………………… At first it makes me angry………………………………………… But I can force myself to be patient………………………………………… At first I don’t want to go there anymore………………………………………… But then again………………………………………… I don’t have another place to visit………………………………………… Then I have an idea………………………………………… Pray for them………………………………………… To be good………………………………………… To all customers………………………………………… And cashier is also not friendly………………………………………… Pray for him too………………………………………… May he become nice………………………………………… And my head stuck………………………………………… As I don’t give tip to the employer………………………………………… Maybe next time………………………………………… If I go there again………………………………………… I will give some………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………… He will make all well………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………… They will be well………………………………………… They will accept me well………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………… The employers will be well………………………………………… The cashier will be well………………………………………… The place will be well………………………………………… I will be well …………………………………………

I feel hopeless…………………………………………

I cant do that………………………………………… I try to find the positive behind all this………………………………………… I cant be megative………………………………………… I must be positive………………………………………… But I feel he doesn’t allow me to go back………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………… He will allow me to go back………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………… I will go back………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………… He will put me there………………………………………… He will guard me there ……………………………………………

It is not meeting………………………………………..

He decided all……………………………………….. He share the place he chose……………………………………….. In another city……………………………………….. He share the date he chose……………………………………….. In the name of lord……………………………………….. Initially it makes me angry……………………………………….. Now I don’t care……………………………………….. I force myself to accept it……………………………………….. I hope there is positive behind all this……………………………………….. If he allows……………………………………….. I will find it positive……………………………………….. He is the greatest……………………………………….. He will make miracles……………………………………….. Sis can come……………………………………….. Cousin can come……………………………………….. I can use the car……………………………………….. All will be well ……………………………………………..

deity of forest ……………………………………..

deity of plant…………………………………….. deity of animal…………………………………….. deity of elephant…………………………………….. in the name of lord…………………………………….. I want to be those things…………………………………….. If he allows…………………………………….. He will show me to be one of them…………………………………….. He is the greatest…………………………………….. He will make miracles…………………………………….. I dream it all the time…………………………………….. I want to have a part in saving them…………………………………….. They are beautiful…………………………………….. I think they can help me in the after life ……………………………………..

I am being paranoid………………………………………..

I am being afraid of everything……………………………………….. I feel someone watch all my moves……………………………………….. I feel all watch all my moves……………………………………….. The securities……………………………………….. In all places……………………………………….. Then those bastard come across my mind……………………………………….. I think he did all this……………………………………….. That thing is part of their group……………………………………….. All guards are part of that group……………………………………….. In the name of lord……………………………………….. I will find it positive……………………………………….. If he allows……………………………………….. I will be safe as all is watching me……………………………………….. I will be safe as I will not do anything bad……………………………………….. As they watch me all the time……………………………………….. He is the greatest……………………………………….. He will make miracles……………………………………….. All is good……………………………………….. They are good……………………………………….. I am good……………………………………….. The situations are good……………………………………….. All forces me to be good……………………………………….. And it is good ………………………………………..

16 jan 20 kamis…………………………………………

Kampus………………………………………… Rapat seharian ,pe sore\………………………………………… Superindo………………………………………… Pul………………………………………… Ped net………………………………………… Wawancara………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

15 jan 20 rabu…………………………………………

Kampus………………………………………… Motor ambil bpkb………………………………………… Pul………………………………………… Bengkel………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

14 jan 20 selasa…………………………………………

Kampus………………………………………… Pul………………………………………… Ped net………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

13 jan 20 senen…………………………………………

Kampus………………………………………… Rapat jurnal at café………………………………………… With pafajar bferina barfi bervina………………………………………… Kampus………………………………………… Solat………………………………………… Ambil motor………………………………………… Superindo………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

12 jan 20 minggu…………………………………………

Seharian d rmh………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

11 jan 20 sabtu…………………………………………

Ped………………………………………… Alfa………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

10 jan 20 jumat…………………………………………

Kampus………………………………………… Pul gasik………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

9 jan 20 kamis…………………………………………

Kampus………………………………………… Café with tim jurnal………………………………………… Pfajar brefina barfi………………………………………… Kampus………………………………………… Jaga malam………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

8 jan 20 rabu…………………………………………

Kampus………………………………………… Klinik………………………………………… Pul………………………………………… Took plastic………………………………………… Pul………………………………………… Ped………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

7 jan 20 selasa…………………………………………

Kampus………………………………………… Ped………………………………………… Pul………………………………………… Ada………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

6 jan 20 senen…………………………………………

Pom………………………………………… Wrg………………………………………… Kampus………………………………………… Net eror………………………………………… Ped………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

5 jan 20 minggu…………………………………………

Ped net………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

4 jan 20 sabtu…………………………………………

Sehartian d rmh………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

3 jan 20 jumat…………………………………………

Ped………………………………………… Jumatan………………………………………… Ped………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

2 jan 20 kamis ....................................

Wrg………………………………………… Pom………………………………………… Klinik………………………………………… Atm………………………………………… Ada………………………………………… Pul………………………………………… Ped net………………………………………… With dian ke johar n superindo………………………………………… Took herbal………………………………………… Nganter dian………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………

The yesterday is failed……………………………………………………….

I must not be depressed………………………………………………………. Look for the future ahead………………………………………………………. The exchange lecturer………………………………………………………. I hope I get it………………………………………………………. The india land………………………………………………………. I hope I get it………………………………………………………. If I don’t get it………………………………………………………. I hope I don’t get depressed………………………………………………………. I must be strong………………………………………………………. I must be patient………………………………………………………. I must keep loving him………………………………………………………. In the name of lord………………………………………………………. I must be positive………………………………………………………. If he allows………………………………………………………. I will get positive if I am positive………………………………………………………. He is the greatest………………………………………………………. He will make miracles………………………………………………………. I hope I get all the lessons from him………………………………………………………. I hope I understand him………………………………………………………. I hope I pass the test …………………………………………………………….

I have a lot of things to do………………………………

but the net blocks me……………………………… if it runs smoothly……………………………… I think I had done many things……………………………… but it plays me……………………………… it is bullshit……………………………… it is fucked up……………………………… it is screwed……………………………… I must be patient……………………………… I must be strong……………………………… I must keep loving him……………………………… In the name of lord……………………………… He will make strong……………………………… If he allows……………………………… He will find me solution……………………………… He is the greatest……………………………… He will make miracles……………………………… He will show me the way……………………………… He will bring me the ways……………………………… He will show me how to handle it……………………………… He will guide me to the righteousness……………………………… He will lead me to the happy land……………………………… He will keep me on track……………………………… He will not break my heart ………………………………………

they talk rubish………………………………………………

you never do that to me……………………………………………… swear god……………………………………………… i only can pray……………………………………………… in the name of lord……………………………………………… I hope they be come better in the future……………………………………………… If he allows……………………………………………… He will change them to be nice……………………………………………… He is the greatest……………………………………………… He will make miracles……………………………………………… They will talk nice all the time……………………………………………… He will protect them……………………………………………… I am afraid they will get karma……………………………………………… They talk bad and bad comes to them ……………………………………………… It is tiring to listen to all their bullshit……………………………………………… I must be strong……………………………………………… I must be patient …………………………………………………

mrn……………………………………

you are dead to me sir…………………………………… in the name of lord…………………………………… I will always remember this moment…………………………………… If he allows…………………………………… He will not let me to plunge into this shit hole again…………………………………… He is the greatest…………………………………… He will make miracles…………………………………… He will make me strong…………………………………… He will protect me…………………………………… He will replace that thing with another one…………………………………… The one who is much more better than that thing…………………………………… He will make me better too…………………………………… He will shape me into a good person…………………………………… He will always bless me ………………………………………

now all must be in slow motion……………………………………..

now all must be in right position…………………………………….. mix match for the back…………………………………….. hence it is not hurtful…………………………………….. in the name of lord…………………………………….. he will accompany me in my sickness…………………………………….. if he allows…………………………………….. I will be able to handle all of these things…………………………………….. He is the greatest…………………………………….. He will make miracles…………………………………….. He will make me strong…………………………………….. He will make me patient…………………………………….. He will make me independent…………………………………….. He will accompany me all the way…………………………………….. We will be together till the end…………………………………….. I will always love him…………………………………….. He will always bless me ………………………………………..

now all must be in slow motion……………………………………..

now all must be in slow motion…………………………………….. now all must be in right position…………………………………….. mix match for the back…………………………………….. hence it is not hurtful…………………………………….. in the name of lord…………………………………….. he will accompany me in my sickness…………………………………….. if he allows…………………………………….. I will be able to handle all of these things…………………………………….. He is the greatest…………………………………….. He will make miracles…………………………………….. He will make me strong…………………………………….. He will make me patient…………………………………….. He will make me independent…………………………………….. He will accompany me all the way…………………………………….. We will be together till the end…………………………………….. I will always love him…………………………………….. He will always bless me ………………………………………..

i will be able to cook......................

i will be able to recall all the lessons...................... i will be able to create meal...................... he is the greatest...................... he will help me to do so...................... in the name of lord...................... he will love me...................... if he allows...................... he will make miracles...................... i will love him till the end...................... i will run to him as fast as i can ........................

dont get heartache for his answers.........................

dont expect things from person......................... expecting things only from him......................... it wows me......................... asking for things......................... he is the greatest......................... he will make me patient......................... i will disappear in the future......................... but then again.................................................. part of me said that i should not go vanish......................... if he chats......................... reply him......................... just in limited scope......................... just what being asked......................... if he asks to meet......................... find reasons not to do so......................... dont get sad......................... dont get heartache......................... dont get frowned......................... must be cheerful before him......................... must be strong......................... in the name of lord......................... he will make me strong......................... if he allows......................... i will love him till the end ..........................

dont get heartache for his answers.........................

dont get heartache for his answers......................... dont expect things from person......................... expecting things only from him......................... it wows me......................... asking for things......................... he is the greatest......................... he will make me patient......................... i will disappear in the future......................... but then again.................................................. part of me said that i should not go vanish......................... if he chats......................... reply him......................... just in limited scope......................... just what being asked......................... if he asks to meet......................... find reasons not to do so......................... dont get sad......................... dont get heartache......................... dont get frowned......................... must be cheerful before him......................... must be strong......................... in the name of lord......................... he will make me strong......................... if he allows......................... i will love him till the end ..........................

i thought he will buy it by himself.....................

it turns out this way..................... before he said that he will treat me..................... it turns out this way..................... dont get angry..................... dont get heartache..................... dont get disappointed..................... dont get high hope..................... must be patient..................... must be strong..................... expecting things from him only..................... asking for rewards from him only..................... in the name of lord..................... he will find me a new one..................... if he allows.......................................... the new ine will be much more better than this one..................... he is the greatest..................... he will make miracles..................... he will shape me into much better person..................... he will find me the one with the same level as me..................... or maybe he will give me the one who is much more better than me ........................

being sick.............................

dont expect help from others............................. must be independent............................. must be strong............................. must be patient............................. asking help only to him............................. expecting things only to him............................. he is everything............................. in the name of lord............................. i hope this sick will erase my sins............................. if he allows............................. i will be able to handle this sick............................. he is the greatest............................. he will make miracles............................. he will help me all the way............................. he will accompany me till the end ...............................