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It hits me so hard
It is painful so much
Lord
Help me please
Give me mercy pls
I want to be like them
Why do I feel that in your eyes I don’t deserve that
kind of thing
I know I had done so many bad things in my life
But I try so hard to be a better man
Why do I feel that your punishment is unbearable
It so extremely heavy in my chest
I want to explode
malang friends
usa gang
canadian gang
All go
One by one
Left me behind
Feeling left out
I envy
I am sad
Why don't I go
why god
What did I do wrong
What am I lacking?
I know I made a lot of mistakes
I know my sins are many
I promise I will get better
God
Help me
Make me go
My brain is racing
I have to be calm
I have to accept everything
I have to make peace with him
Whatever the decision is the best
Best for me
If I don't go I have to accept
Can't be sad
There is another plan for me from him
Better plan
I don't know what it is
I hope I can accept his decision
Someone's leaving
sorry god
I envy
The American troop have all left except for me and mra
This is the Canadian troop one by one leaving
I'm afraid of being left, God
I'm afraid everyone thinks I'm stupid
God
I want to be recognized as a person who is not stupid
I want you to think I'm smart
I want you to make me go
Wherever I receive
God please
This makes me sad god
I don't want to be sad god
I want to be happy god
I will be happy if you make me go
I promise not to be arrogant
So far, I don't have any arrogance
Sorry if any of me makes you think I'm arrogant
This is all for you god
I don't know what my contribution will be
But for sure
All for you God
all god
for you God
God
Please make me go
