then
cried because of mrsf
go to pam
cried because of mra
go to pam
now
cried because of pam
let it be
just cried alone in the room
telling it all to him
dear you
she means to me
please be here
please accompany me
please stay beside me
Saturday, July 30, 2022
Thursday, July 28, 2022
MUST EAT TOGETHER
MUST EAT TOGETHER
but she left
must be heartbroken
but can't
I owe her a lot
so
that's enough
just talk to god
lord
report
she is mean to me
lord
don't make me hurt
want to cry
but can't
too ill
pray for her
and pray for me too
Tuesday, July 26, 2022
got email from malay
got email from malay
makes my hope goes high
dear lord
dont hurt me pls
dont dissappoint me pls
dont make me cry pls
i am afraid lord
but it is all in your hand
i surrender lord
whatever happen
whatever you wanr
i will do it
willingly
i will try hard
not to hate you
i will try hard
to love you
always
i will try hard
to dedicate my life for you only
Sunday, July 24, 2022
many announcements
many announcements
they all go there
many of them
they all got accepted
they all got the fund
i must not be jealous
pray for them
pray for me
must surrender to all his decision
not stop trying
result is in his hand
i hope he consider me worthy
worthy to get the grant
worthy to go there
dont get hurt
must be strong
love him always
dont stop loving him
Friday, July 22, 2022
dont be jealous
she got the fund
dont be jealous
be happy for her
be happy for them
pray for her
pray for them
pray for me
may god help me to make me able to pay my own study
lets do it
lets pray hard
lets play hard
i believe he will always help me
in all ways
in every ways
Wednesday, July 20, 2022
Sunday, July 17, 2022
Wednesday, July 13, 2022
I want to get a scholarship far away
I want to get a scholarship far away
then get a job offer there
keep living there
then get love there
then live happily there
forever
until the end of time
in his protection
I also have to make peace with my dreams
I also have to make peace with my dreams
all of my dreams
and everything looks absurd
this age
various dreams
let the dream be a dream
leave it to god
tell him all the dreams that exist
if he wants
then this dream will come true
if it doesnt
i have to still be fine
don't be tired
Do not give up
don't be hurt
I also have to make peace with my study plan
I also have to make peace with my study plan
I want to get a scholarship
so i don't have to pay for college
but i have tried many times
and all failed
make heartache
scared to try again
looks like that's not my way
maybe i have to pay for it myself
God willing
Yesterday, I consulted with a friend who was studying with her own money
God willing, I can imitate her
God willingthere is a way
IGod willing he will help
God willing, I will be able to
I also have to make peace with my career
I also have to make peace with my career
I want to have a job
have tried once
and failed
offended
and afraid to try again
afraid to fail again
afraid of getting hurt again
so temporarily make peace with this current career
Maybe God doesn't think I deserve a position
maybe with that position i will be sick
many errors
many mistakes
abuse everything
scary huh?
I also have to make peace with my workplace
I also have to make peace with my workplace
I want to work far away
but for now it seems impossible
this age
and there are no signs of an open road to get there
but for god anything is possible
keep on praying
keep asking
hope it's accepted
but for now I have to make peace with this one
instead of being hurt asking not to be granted
Although all work friends are unique
I hope everything will be fine in the future
I hope that in the future there will be no more pain
I must always be good with them
so they are good to me
and also god is good to me
I also have to make peace with the neighbors
I also have to make peace with the neighbors
even though they have unique characteristics
but they are all good to me
I have to be nice to them too
until later God will be good to me
hope they all just get along well until the end of time
there will be no dispute between them
may god keep them from fighting
May God always protect them all
may god always make them happy
I have to make peace with all
I have to make peace with all
surrender to everything
looks like these dreams will poison me
all rejected raw
make heartache
should i stop dreaming
and just live what's in front of me
make peace with where I live
it seems that the dream to live far away there is no longer possible
but god is everything
nothing is impossible for him
but for now I have to make peace with this one
than I'm hurt asking and it's not granted
here too, God willing, everything will be fine
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10 juli 22 minggu
10 juli 22 minggu
pg wrg soto
muter
siang nonton at central city
mlm neighbor
allahuakbar
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Wednesday, July 6, 2022
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Monday, July 4, 2022
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2 juli 22 sabtu
2 juli 22 sabtu
klinik surat rujukan
optik acc
klinik ttd dokter
optik pesen
pul
mlm optik ambil
allahuakbar
1 juli 22 jumat
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1 juli 22 jumat
with fam
at radenpatah ngumpul
at boyolali
resepsi dek yoga
pul
with ciprut
drhewan
diner at pak budi
allahuakbar
Sunday, July 3, 2022
i did something bad
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i did something bad
i should go there
i should text them that i didnot come
but i didnt text
i am so bad
i am sorry lord
may you forgive me
may they are not angry to me
may they are always happy
may they are always safe
may they are always in your blessing
Saturday, July 2, 2022
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