27 april 23 kamis
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the blessing from above
the last dinner of the party
benediction from angels
the day of the dancing feet
favor from the fairies
the houses of cards
being nice and good
hoping his protection
expecting his love
anticipating his help
looking for his guidance
wanting his accompany
assuming all his good
trusting his plans
wishing his rainbows
looking forward to the time
when he puts me in his haven
with all other fairies
the winged creatues
how come
all the plans are planning
getting all the measurement
the accompany of the chatting box
thus going to the dancing couple
no horses of the carts
no hand to hold
being alone and being strong
no trains towards rainbow land
no passengers to see and chat
stealing the birds
when they are flying away
the onwer standing still
keeping him in the storage
That's the plan
the day of the race
saying goodbyes to the stones
keeping promises to the hearts
the impactful schecule
If no
sending to the haven
determined heart
In solitude
Find happiness
Avoiding craziness
Painful heart
No crying
Just accepting
Don't like it here
But must like it
Must be happy
Affirmation
Happy all the time
the colorful hiding place
run away with the angels and fairies
So no picnic
No gathering
Freeing thyself
And hoping
When we do solitude
There is a very hot sighting
There is a very kind sighting
There is a very hot and kind sighting
Who fall for me
So deep
crazily insanity
taking a long period of precious time
tiring the heart
recalling the purely thought
Must be happy
All the time
Full of laugh
Full of smile
Shining from the inside
Levitating to the gurus
Absorbing all their brains
Very sleepy
Holy moly
Everything seems hectic
Too much
My brain can't take it
Being so loud and proud
Punching my ears
Stroking the sticks of the drums
Dancing of the feet
To the melodious clouds
Crazy botch
Queen of the lush
Green all the way to the stairs of the rainbow
Going steep up ahead towards the galaxy
Understand all the places
Signing all the clues
Leading to the paths of the holy stone
Awesomeness being made
Piece by piece
Layer by layer
Step by step
Slapping the nosey heads
What the hell happen
Burying aching heart
Biasing the fragrance faint
Chiming the hourly seduce
About that
Couple thimg
Spouse thing
Making me angry
Always
Disgusting
Their standard is very very low
Unimaginable
Quart of the bloody battle
That weapon to this weapon
Anger the angst
Don't care really
Just grapping the little bit left of shine
Gasping for the holy ray
Disgusting
Puking all the inside out
Making the colorful wall
Putting me onside
Putting them outside
Borderly contagious
Smiley fences
Later
At home
When we try to sing and humming
Nothingness is the best
Count it down
To the last breath
And make it impactful
Waiting to the hall of the alley
Rampant and green
Kitten and kettle
Meow together
To the note of angels
Spreading wings
Flapping the feathers
Wind of the transparent beings
Do that and silence this
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allahuakbar
hoping for your help
wishing for your guidance
how to conquer the land of uncertainty
how to defeat fear
want to combat the sadness
finding the one
the one who has lightning
spreading the happines
into me
piercing into my veins
wrapping my souls
levitating me to the colorful lands
whispering to the unicorns
holding his hand
towards me
leading me to the springs
whispering to the dragons
taking his hands
inside me
forwarding me to the lush
whispering to the elephants
just stay still
admiring the beauty
taking it all in
enlightening the spirit
it hurts a lot
want that world
full of colors
rainbow of the hearts
showering the sweats to the souls
breathing heavily through the veins
dancing on the wooden floor
wearing pearls all over the crowns
jumping up and down
in the pool of gold
laughing and smiling
wholesome happiness
the dark force of irritation
jealousy of the body
wrapping your eyes
squeezing your ears
just stand still
scream in silent
shouting in the far away land
in the mode of statue
reaching to the fullness
In the name of the greatest
Give me your grandness
So I can relate it all to you
Giving my all
To the duties I was assigned
The one that feel burdening me so much
Feeling in pain
Squeezing my chest so deep
Gasping for air
Releasing the sweats
Pouring the wholesome tears
Washing the colorful land
Poisoning the neighbors
Contaminating the community
Painting it all rainbow
my head hurt
So many things to do
And I procrastinate
It hurt a lot
It burdens my head so much
It kills me inside
Want to scream
Want to magically done all the things
Want everything finish all at once
Want to get spv easily
But never get that
This has been so long
And I never get the spv they want
I did get the spv I want
But it is personal
I can't use that for scholarship
And that hurts
Lord
Help me pls
Get me spv that they want
I promise I will work hard
I promise I will never give up
I promise I will accept all your decisions
As all your plan are good
the previously is scary
the adding is burdening
ghost of the brains
rock squeezing the lungs
tears rivering
dear the great
promise me power of light
What is it now
Everything is scary
Everything need time
Everything need effort
But I find it hard to get those
Injecting into my system
Everything seems to disappear
Into oblivion
Nothing left
Just the dust and the fog
Full of fragrance
Remind me of another land
The colorful clouds
I should work
I must conquer the devil spirit inside me
I must defeat the evil being inside me
Being lazy
Being stubborn
Want to do nothing
Just stuff unimportant to attend
Stupid me
Idiot me
I hope God help me
I hope he give me strength
calling the One
shouting his name
in my heart
whispering loudly
hitting the eardrum to the max
electrifying the universe of being
the box that gives colorful movement
Or the ascending they say
With a lot of pupils
Just stand still
statue mode on
dont know what to do
must not be negative
Must be positif
And the kiss is given
Amazing exploration of heart
Awesome experience
Wonderful feeling
Great incident
hope it is happening continously
hope it is repeated effortlessly
wish they are ok
wish they are happy
wish they get extraodinary things in their circles
The poem in my brain
For the pic in my head
What about now
Just jot down things
That across my mind
Passing through
Never mind
Didn't stop either
Showing off
The body
The performance
The look
The glance
The elegance
The whole
It all in imagination land
colorful realm
i discredit my kids
as their choice
as they didnt go there
sudden thought
i think my teachers did the same
to me and my friends
as my class is not the main one
it is some kind of addition to the main ones
sudden thought
i shouldnt dfo that anymore
forcing myslef to do better
forcing myself to like them
forcing myslef to love them
forcing myself to respect them
forcing myself to treat them better
as they are the future
as they are the nature provided to my lap
to nurture them
to make them exceptional
and i will do that
with his help
with his guidance
with his blessings