Those places…………………………………….

The pak afr afg leb ira bos lib sur pil ind chi……………………………………. Scary places……………………………………. In the name of lord……………………………………. May he help all people in those places……………………………………. If he allows……………………………………. He will make all people saved……………………………………. He is the greatest……………………………………. He will make miracles……………………………………. He will make all people live in peace……………………………………. He will kill all bad people …………………………………….

Looking for love…………………………………….

The perfect one……………………………………. Perfect in his eyes……………………………………. The healthy one……………………………………. The sexy one……………………………………. The big one……………………………………. The tall one……………………………………. The smart one……………………………………. The rich one……………………………………. The prince……………………………………. And it is from that kind of place……………………………………. Where the rainbow shines without obstacles……………………………………. The one who love kids……………………………………. The one who want kids……………………………………. The one who love elephant……………………………………. In the name of lord……………………………………. He will buy me vast land……………………………………. If he allows……………………………………. He will put a lot of elephants there……………………………………. He is the greatest……………………………………. He will make miracles……………………………………. He will help all elephants……………………………………. He will make all elephants saved…………………………………….

Don’t stop praying…………………………………….

I forgot……………………………………. I feel being tortured……………………………………. I cant be like that……………………………………. In the name of lord……………………………………. I must not have negative thoughts……………………………………. If he allows……………………………………. I will be able to get rid of these negative thoughts……………………………………. He is the greatest……………………………………. He will make miracles……………………………………. He will not make me forget……………………………………. He will help me to pray …………………………………….

He makes the café error…………………………………….

He makes me go there……………………………………. He makes her happy……………………………………. He is happy……………………………………. Hence he makes me positive……………………………………. In the name of lord……………………………………. I will do this a lot……………………………………. If he allows……………………………………. He will show me what to do……………………………………. He is the greatest……………………………………. He will make miracle……………………………………. I will love him……………………………………. I will surrender to him ………………………………………….

I lose my mind……………………………………….

I don’t get spv………………………………………. I don’t get loa………………………………………. In the name of lord………………………………………. I hope he make me strong………………………………………. If he allows………………………………………. I will try to be strong………………………………………. He is the greatest………………………………………. He will make miracles………………………………………. I feel being eaten………………………………………. Slowly………………………………………. Little by little………………………………………. I am afraid………………………………………. I will come undone………………………………………. This is heavy god………………………………………. I must stand tall………………………………………. I must keep loving you………………………………………. I must be invincible………………………………………. I must keep trying ……………………………………….

Error……………………………………….

Heartache………………………………………. Expensive but this………………………………………. He teaches me something………………………………………. But what is it………………………………………. I am confused………………………………………. I don’t know………………………………………. I must donate a lot………………………………………. Do charity………………………………………. A lot of pray………………………………………. Love him more and more………………………………………. In the name of lord………………………………………. I will do that………………………………………. If he allows………………………………………. He will help me doing that………………………………………. He is the greatest………………………………………. He will make miracles………………………………………. He will lead me somewhere nice………………………………………. Full of rainbow …………………………………………….

The key is broken…………………………………………….

Why lord……………………………………………. All I touch are broken……………………………………………. I feel that way……………………………………………. I hope it is not real……………………………………………. I hope it is only dream……………………………………………. In the name of lord……………………………………………. I hope all is ok……………………………………………. If he allows……………………………………………. I hope no one enters……………………………………………. He is the greatest……………………………………………. He will make miracles……………………………………………. Key will be ok……………………………………………. Door will be ok……………………………………………. House will be ok …………………………………………….

For the one who cant love me…………………………………………….

Only god knows how hard I try……………………………………………. They say heart break can kill……………………………………………. But I wont die coz of it……………………………………………. I hope so……………………………………………. I think so……………………………………………. In the name of lord……………………………………………. I hope I find love soon……………………………………………. If he allows……………………………………………. I will find love who will not get me heart break……………………………………………. Will not get me heart ache……………………………………………. He is the greatest……………………………………………. He will make miracles……………………………………………. He will someone special for me……………………………………………. I will be happy with my soulmate …………………………………………….

Throwing away food…………………………………………….

I don’t want it that way……………………………………………. I got heartache……………………………………………. I am afraid……………………………………………. There are many who lack of food out there……………………………………………. But they throw away food……………………………………………. Lord……………………………………………. I cry inside……………………………………………. In the name of lord……………………………………………. I hope they realize that what they do is wrong……………………………………………. If he allows……………………………………………. He will make them realize……………………………………………. He is the greatest……………………………………………. He will make miracles……………………………………………. They will not throw away food again……………………………………………. They will finish all their food……………………………………………. They will treat food carefully …………………………………………………….

23 des 19 senen …………………………………………….

Pom……………………………………………. Wrg……………………………………………. Kampus……………………………………………. Motor eror……………………………………………. Money changer……………………………………………. Res hermina tilik mbak dina……………………………………………. Cimb……………………………………………. Café……………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………. Grab……………………………………………. Stasiun ambil paket……………………………………………. Taxi……………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………. Dijemput satria……………………………………………. Bioskop eror……………………………………………. Diner……………………………………………. Allahuakbar…………………………………………….

22 des 29 minggi………………………………………….

There are ma n pa……………………………………………. Ptg cloes……………………………………………. Atm……………………………………………. Ptg……………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………. Motor close……………………………………………. Klinik……………………………………………. Apotek……………………………………………. Café……………………………………………. Wrg……………………………………………. Allahuakbar…………………………………………….

Did it in plane………………………………………….

Feel like home…………………………………………. Hence I take that plane over and over again…………………………………………. Hence I will go to japan again and again…………………………………………. Hence I will be Japanese…………………………………………. As japan passport is the strongest…………………………………………. So I cam go around the world…………………………………………. In the name of lord…………………………………………. I hope he will make this come true…………………………………………. If he allows…………………………………………. He will grant my wish…………………………………………. He is the greatest…………………………………………. He will make miracles…………………………………………. He knows what I want…………………………………………. I hope this is good for me…………………………………………. I hope he make this good for me ………………………………………….

Warning………………………………………….

This is new shopping…………………………………………. Don’t eat this…………………………………………. And I must let go all others…………………………………………. Because it is mixed…………………………………………. I did pay my part then…………………………………………. He will replace it…………………………………………. In the name of lord…………………………………………. I must be patient…………………………………………. If he allows…………………………………………. He will make me patient…………………………………………. He is the greatest…………………………………………. He will make miracles…………………………………………. He will make me ok…………………………………………. He will make them ok…………………………………………. …………………………………………. He will make us ok…………………………………………. Till the end ………………………………………….

Very much stressed………………………………………….

Two solutions…………………………………………. Left the food behind…………………………………………. All is being vacuumed…………………………………………. In the name of lord…………………………………………. I hope those two help…………………………………………. If he allows…………………………………………. He will make this work…………………………………………. He is the greatest…………………………………………. He will make miracles…………………………………………. He will help me…………………………………………. He will make my stuff ok ………………………………………………….

I am leaking……………………………………………….

I am stupid………………………………………………. I am idiot………………………………………………. I am insane………………………………………………. I should tell him only………………………………………………. And not to others………………………………………………. In the name of lord………………………………………………. What happen happens………………………………………………. If he allows………………………………………………. I hope there is no negative effect………………………………………………. I hope all is well………………………………………………. He is the greatest………………………………………………. He will make miracles………………………………………………. I hope I am good in the future………………………………………………. I hope I am not leaking again………………………………………………. I hope I can keep secrets henceforth………………………………………………. I hope I only share it with him ……………………………………………….

Too much films……………………………………………….

Stressed in choosing………………………………………………. In the name of lord………………………………………………. Lets watch it at home………………………………………………. I hope I have time for it………………………………………………. If I don’t have time………………………………………………. I will make time………………………………………………. And for now don’t download for more………………………………………………. If he allows………………………………………………. He will help………………………………………………. He is the greatest………………………………………………. He will make miracles………………………………………………. I can finish them all………………………………………………. I can be happy………………………………………………. I can understand them all………………………………………………. I can memorize them all………………………………………………. All of them will be useful in my life ………………………………………………….

It wows me………………………………………………

They throw away the food……………………………………………… Lord……………………………………………… I hope I cant get the effect……………………………………………… The negative ones……………………………………………… Lets them get that……………………………………………… Or pray for them……………………………………………… Pray that they will realize it……………………………………………… Throwing away food is no good……………………………………………… And the oil too……………………………………………… It was the vegetables……………………………………………… Lord……………………………………………… It wows me to the core……………………………………………… In the name of lord……………………………………………… May he help them……………………………………………… If he allows……………………………………………… He will make them realize……………………………………………… He is the greatest\……………………………………………… He will make miracles……………………………………………… They will not do that again……………………………………………… They will be good………………………………………………

There is mra at room………………………………………………

I am shocked……………………………………………… In the name of lord……………………………………………… May ne not think negatively about me……………………………………………… If he allows……………………………………………… He will think positively about me……………………………………………… He is the greatest……………………………………………… He will make miracles……………………………………………… I will not be negative towards him……………………………………………… I will be positive towards him……………………………………………… He will help me……………………………………………… He will help him’……………………………………………… He will help us……………………………………………… He will help our relationship……………………………………………… He will protect our relationship……………………………………………… We will be ok……………………………………………… Our relationship will be ok ………………………………………………

21 des 19 sabtu………………………………………….

Pagi mpe Jakarta…………………………………………. With sayid n zul…………………………………………. grab…………………………………………. Ke kalog…………………………………………. Ke manggadua…………………………………………. K bandara…………………………………………. Otw smg by plane…………………………………………. Dijemput dian n hendra…………………………………………. Muter 2 nyari makan eror…………………………………………. Allahuakbar………………………………………….

20 de 19 jumat………………………………………….

Di jalan…………………………………………. Allahuakbar………………………………………….

19 ds 19 kamis………………………………………….

Otw bandara with all…………………………………………. Diantar andre n ryan…………………………………………. St john Toronto by plane…………………………………………. Toronto japan by plane…………………………………………. Allahuakbar………………………………………….

18 des 19 rabu………………………………………….

Spencer- farewell party…………………………………………. Edu building- rekaman…………………………………………. Pul…………………………………………. Io…………………………………………. Pul…………………………………………. Packing…………………………………………. Ga tidur…………………………………………. Allahuakbar………………………………………….

17 des 19 selasa ……………………………………………………

Nyuci…………………………………………. Pul…………………………………………. Took buku mun…………………………………………. Kantin with susi n arin…………………………………………. Rekaman…………………………………………. With afif n arin…………………………………………. Dolarama…………………………………………. Beli koper…………………………………………. Allahuakbar………………………………………….

16 des 19 senen………………………………………………

International office……………………………………………… Pul……………………………………………… Dolarama with mrss……………………………………………… Pul……………………………………………… Spencer……………………………………………… Allahuakbar………………………………………………

15 des 19 minggu………………………………………………

Seharian d kos……………………………………………… Allahuakbar………………………………………………

14 des 19 sabtu …………………………………………………………………

Seharian d kos……………………………………………… Masak di sebelah……………………………………………… Meeting with dikti……………………………………………… Allahuakbar………………………………………………

13 des 19 jumat ………………………………………………

Spencer……………………………………………… Jumatan……………………………………………… Pul……………………………………………… International office……………………………………………… Spencer……………………………………………… Botanical garden……………………………………………… Allahuakbar………………………………………………

Ok then…………………………………………………………………

Take it easy………………………………………………………………… I am tired being in full force………………………………………………………………… I am tired having heartache………………………………………………………………… If I get it………………………………………………………………… I will be grateful………………………………………………………………… If I don’t get it………………………………………………………………… I will be grateful still………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… Keep trying till the end………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… Giving the result to him………………………………………………………………… Let him decide what will come out of it………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………………… Keep praying………………………………………………………………… Don’t stop praying………………………………………………………………… Don’t stop trying………………………………………………………………… Don’t stop thinking positively about him………………………………………………………………… Don’t stop loving him …………………………………………………………………

Text from mrk…………………………………………………………………

He did have positive thoughts about me………………………………………………………………… That I have a lot of networking………………………………………………………………… Being grateful to that………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… I hope I will not think negatively about him anymore………………………………………………………………… I hope I will think positively about him from here on………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… I hope he isn’t negative to me………………………………………………………………… I hope he is positive to me………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………………… He will make me ok………………………………………………………………… He will make mrk ok………………………………………………………………… He will make us ok’………………………………………………………………… He will make our relationship ok …………………………………………………………………

I should beg…………………………………………………………………

But the reality is not like that………………………………………………………………… I didn’t know what happened………………………………………………………………… When she said she does analisys on children literature in class………………………………………………………………… I should say I can do that………………………………………………………………… I did want it to be ok with mrsab………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… But she did reject me in a way………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… He will give me replacement………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………………… He will make me click with this new one …………………………………………………………………

Being rejected by mrsab…………………………………………………………………

It hurts………………………………………………………………… Lord………………………………………………………………… I am confused………………………………………………………………… What else should I do………………………………………………………………… Mrsab suggested me to contact another spv………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… I will do that………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… I hope the new one is ok………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………………… He will make the new one ok………………………………………………………………… If it is not ok………………………………………………………………… He will not make me sad………………………………………………………………… He will show me the reason………………………………………………………………… As it is excruciating………………………………………………………………… I hope I can handle it …………………………………………………………………

13 des 19 jumat ………………………………………………………………………

Spencer………………………………………………………………… Jumatan………………………………………………………………… Pul………………………………………………………………… International office………………………………………………………………… Spencer with all………………………………………………………………… Taxi………………………………………………………………… Botanical garden………………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………

I am idiot………………………………………………………………

I am stupid……………………………………………………………… I cant control my mouth……………………………………………………………… My mouth is leaking……………………………………………………………… To mrsa mrss mra……………………………………………………………… And they will do that too……………………………………………………………… Being leaked……………………………………………………………… Consciously or unconsciously……………………………………………………………… To others……………………………………………………………… And finally it will get to their ears……………………………………………………………… Mra and mrb……………………………………………………………… In the name of lord……………………………………………………………… I hope everything will be ok……………………………………………………………… If he allows……………………………………………………………… He will help me……………………………………………………………… He is the greatest……………………………………………………………… He will make miracles……………………………………………………………… He will help all……………………………………………………………… He will make all ok……………………………………………………………… Till the end ………………………………………………………………

I really don’t know what to do……………………………………………………………..

Do I need to tell them…………………………………………………………….. I don’t think so…………………………………………………………….. Just do it in secret…………………………………………………………….. Or in open…………………………………………………………….. But never directly tell them…………………………………………………………….. It is hard…………………………………………………………….. Will I have that…………………………………………………………….. I want that…………………………………………………………….. Lets pray hard…………………………………………………………….. Ask for that…………………………………………………………….. I think I am the childish one…………………………………………………………….. I want someone mature…………………………………………………………….. To take care of me…………………………………………………………….. To love me…………………………………………………………….. To accept me ……………………………………………………………..

That would never happen……………………………………………………………..

Lets see the plan…………………………………………………………….. What is the plan…………………………………………………………….. Get it here…………………………………………………………….. Visit there…………………………………………………………….. Meet them or not…………………………………………………………….. Or meet them in secret…………………………………………………………….. Go around homeland…………………………………………………………….. Every provinces…………………………………………………………….. And go around the countries surrounding homeland…………………………………………………………….. That would be nice…………………………………………………………….. That is the plan…………………………………………………………….. Or maybe a dream…………………………………………………………….. As there is no sign that this will happen…………………………………………………………….. Just be nice to him…………………………………………………………….. And keep loving him…………………………………………………………….. Till the end ……………………………………………………………..

Guilty pleasure……………………………………………………………..

The remedy of the payment…………………………………………………………….. That group…………………………………………………………….. And the shopping…………………………………………………………….. I should pay a lot to him…………………………………………………………….. Outnumber both of them…………………………………………………………….. And the thought comes as I watch the show…………………………………………………………….. As this show makes me want to shop more…………………………………………………………….. I want that thing…………………………………………………………….. Nice things…………………………………………………………….. And I think that thing is expensive…………………………………………………………….. Is that available here…………………………………………………………….. And I want some for me…………………………………………………………….. From that brand…………………………………………………………….. I think that is thai…………………………………………………………….. And the one from this land…………………………………………………………….. What is it called…………………………………………………………….. Hot dank…………………………………………………………….. I forget it…………………………………………………………….. The ac clothings…………………………………………………………….. I got it…………………………………………………………….. Can I have it lord…………………………………………………………….. I hope I can control myself ……………………………………………………………..

i dont know it anymore……………………………………………………………..

i want to stay till late at night…………………………………………………………….. i dont want to come home…………………………………………………………….. i wish it is ok…………………………………………………………….. i wish it is not negative…………………………………………………………….. i dont want to open the cell…………………………………………………………….. i am afraid…………………………………………………………….. something will trigger me…………………………………………………………….. to become bad…………………………………………………………….. to have bad thoughts…………………………………………………………….. lets enjoy the show…………………………………………………………….. lots of them…………………………………………………………….. and lets pray…………………………………………………………….. that someday i will have that…………………………………………………………….. the experience in real life…………………………………………………………….. but in homeland most of them are bad people…………………………………………………………….. they rarely work alone…………………………………………………………….. they have back up…………………………………………………………….. imporatant people…………………………………………………………….. real one and fake one…………………………………………………………….. and that is dangerous…………………………………………………………….. lets stay away from that…………………………………………………………….. lets get closer to him…………………………………………………………….. lets run to him…………………………………………………………….. fast……………………………………………………………..

did i watch this long time ago……………………………………………………………..

is it real…………………………………………………………….. does he create something like this…………………………………………………………….. does he make some people never taste happiness…………………………………………………………….. i see it in some movies…………………………………………………………….. they are having that kind of thing…………………………………………………………….. am i one of them…………………………………………………………….. it is scary…………………………………………………………….. just believe in him…………………………………………………………….. just praying hard…………………………………………………………….. really hard…………………………………………………………….. that that will never happen to me…………………………………………………………….. i will find happiness…………………………………………………………….. all the way…………………………………………………………….. it would be great to have something like that…………………………………………………………….. the ability to dance…………………………………………………………….. it is all there…………………………………………………………….. it is better this way…………………………………………………………….. than thinking about that thing…………………………………………………………….. forming negative thoughts…………………………………………………………….. those satanic thoughts…………………………………………………………….. and keep loving you still …………………………………………………………….. ……………………………………………………………..

that group……………………………………………………………..

that is negative…………………………………………………………….. that is bad…………………………………………………………….. maybe he punish me out of it…………………………………………………………….. because of that…………………………………………………………….. just join it tho…………………………………………………………….. as i already paid for it…………………………………………………………….. and i should pay him much more than that…………………………………………………………….. much much more…………………………………………………………….. that is the way to erase this guilty feeling…………………………………………………………….. no plan to practice it in real life…………………………………………………………….. as he knows me well…………………………………………………………….. i am afraid of people…………………………………………………………….. i am good at faking…………………………………………………………….. i am good at pretending…………………………………………………………….. i had done that for my whole life…………………………………………………………….. maybe if you allow me to stay here…………………………………………………………….. i will not fake it all again…………………………………………………………….. i will be real…………………………………………………………….. thus i can love you more…………………………………………………………….. i can love you as me…………………………………………………………….. i can love you as real me…………………………………………………………….. and i dont think i will tell them…………………………………………………………….. i think they know…………………………………………………………….. but they pretend not to know…………………………………………………………….. and i dont know how to react to that…………………………………………………………….. i dont know what to do…………………………………………………………….. just keep loving you is all i do ……………………………………………………………..

mrk and mrsf……………………………………………………………..

he asked for someting…………………………………………………………….. and i think she did too…………………………………………………………….. but i am having too much trouble here…………………………………………………………….. i cant think clearly…………………………………………………………….. i cant feel anything now…………………………………………………………….. i am numb……………………………………………………………………………………..…………………………………….. i come undone…………………………………………………………….. usually this kind of things make me cry…………………………………………………………….. this makes me jealous…………………………………………………………….. now i am numb…………………………………………………………….. i feel nothing…………………………………………………………….. it is dangerous…………………………………………………………….. i am afraid…………………………………………………………….. i will die soon…………………………………………………………….. in the name of him…………………………………………………………….. i hope i find love before i die…………………………………………………………….. if he allows…………………………………………………………….. he will give me love before i die…………………………………………………………….. he is the greatest…………………………………………………………….. he will make miracles…………………………………………………………….. i will find love soon…………………………………………………………….. he will give me love…………………………………………………………….. dont force it tho……………………………………………………………..

Being sensitive………………………………………………………………..

All is problems……………………………………………………………….. Mrsv and mrss……………………………………………………………….. So no more comments……………………………………………………………….. Wait for the moment……………………………………………………………….. Wait for being asked……………………………………………………………….. Wait for being questioned……………………………………………………………….. It is a good solution……………………………………………………………….. In the name of lord……………………………………………………………….. Everything will be ok……………………………………………………………….. If he allows……………………………………………………………….. He will make everything ok……………………………………………………………….. He is the greatest……………………………………………………………….. He will make miracles……………………………………………………………….. He will make me ok……………………………………………………………….. He will make them ok……………………………………………………………….. He will make all ok……………………………………………………………….. He will make all well……………………………………………………………….. He will make all good……………………………………………………………….. He will make all awesome……………………………………………………………….. He will make all amazing ……………………………………………………………….. I did this……………………………………………………………….. He knows me well……………………………………………………………….. He knows what inside me……………………………………………………………….. I cant write it down……………………………………………………………….. It is too complicated ………………………………………………………………..

Mrb the weird…………………………………………..

He wants to be all over mra………………………………………….. Cooking for him………………………………………….. But not for me………………………………………….. Chat with him………………………………………….. But not with me………………………………………….. All is for mra………………………………………….. In the name of lord………………………………………….. I must be strong………………………………………….. If he allows………………………………………….. He will make me strong………………………………………….. He is the greatest………………………………………….. He will make miracles………………………………………….. He will guard me………………………………………….. He will protect me………………………………………….. He will save me………………………………………….. He will make me safe………………………………………….. He will make me happy………………………………………….. He wont make me sad………………………………………….. He wont make me cry …………………………………………..

Don’t want to go home…………………………………………..

But I have to make it………………………………………….. It will be only days………………………………………….. I must be strong………………………………………….. Ganbate………………………………………….. In the name of lord………………………………………….. He will help me………………………………………….. If he allows………………………………………….. He will guard me………………………………………….. He is the greatest………………………………………….. He will make miracles………………………………………….. He will make me ok………………………………………….. He will make them ok………………………………………….. He will make all ok………………………………………….. I don’t want to pray for them………………………………………….. But I have to………………………………………….. He loves this kind of things…………………………………………..

Mrs…………………………………………..

He got it………………………………………….. It is ok………………………………………….. Make it easy………………………………………….. Don’t think it too hard………………………………………….. Don’t force it to him………………………………………….. All has its own way………………………………………….. If it is good for me………………………………………….. He will place me here………………………………………….. If it is not good for me………………………………………….. He will place me in another place………………………………………….. The one that is better than here………………………………………….. Don’t be sad………………………………………….. Keep trying hard………………………………………….. Keep praying hard and harder………………………………………….. But don’t force it to him………………………………………….. Itf he doesn’t grant it………………………………………….. Don’t be so sad………………………………………….. Don’t be angry………………………………………….. Don’t be stressed………………………………………….. Keep loving him………………………………………….. It is ok to cry ……………………………………………..

Mrs…………………………………………..

Mrs………………………………………….. He got it………………………………………….. It is ok………………………………………….. Make it easy………………………………………….. Don’t think it too hard………………………………………….. Don’t force it to him………………………………………….. All has its own way………………………………………….. If it is good for me………………………………………….. He will place me here………………………………………….. If it is not good for me………………………………………….. He will place me in another place………………………………………….. The one that is better than here………………………………………….. Don’t be sad………………………………………….. Keep trying hard………………………………………….. Keep praying hard and harder………………………………………….. But don’t force it to him………………………………………….. Itf he doesn’t grant it………………………………………….. Don’t be so sad………………………………………….. Don’t be angry………………………………………….. Don’t be stressed………………………………………….. Keep loving him………………………………………….. It is ok to cry ……………………………………………..

Don’t mock ma……………………………………………

Don’t mock cousin…………………………………………… If I don’t know the pain…………………………………………… I should not comment on it…………………………………………… Even in the heart…………………………………………… It is a real pain…………………………………………… Now I have it…………………………………………… It is excruciating…………………………………………… In the name of lord…………………………………………… May he make me healthy…………………………………………… If he allows…………………………………………… He will make me strong…………………………………………… He is the greatest…………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………………………………………… He will make ma healthy…………………………………………… He will make cousin healthy…………………………………………… He will make all healthy ……………………………………………

The library……………………………………………

My sanctuary…………………………………………… My haven…………………………………………… My place for my serenity…………………………………………… May lord is here also…………………………………………… Accompany me…………………………………………… In my last days…………………………………………… It is heavy…………………………………………… In the name of lord…………………………………………… I hope he help me get spv…………………………………………… If he allows…………………………………………… He will give me spv…………………………………………… He is the greatest…………………………………………… He will make miracles…………………………………………… I must be positive…………………………………………… So lord will give me something positive ……………………………………………

A lot of things on my mind……………………………………………

The intervention thing…………………………………………… I don’t help them shopping…………………………………………… I don’t accompany mrz mentoring…………………………………………… If a man focus on something negative…………………………………………… Whatever happens he will not see others…………………………………………… Even though there is positive…………………………………………… He will still find the negative…………………………………………… Do I do the same…………………………………………… O all the evil in me…………………………………………… Please go away…………………………………………… Leave my mind alone…………………………………………… I need to concentrate on being positive all the time…………………………………………… Concentrate on my tasks…………………………………………… Want to update my stat…………………………………………… But it is dangerous…………………………………………… Don’t do that…………………………………………… Lets share all this to lord only…………………………………………… As my thought is negative towards him…………………………………………… So the output is negative…………………………………………… He accepts it negatively…………………………………………… He responds it negatively…………………………………………… I accept it negatively…………………………………………… Hence the satanic cycle ……………………………………………

keep thinking of the intervention……………………………………….

it is good isn’t it………………………………………. mra is good………………………………………. mrb is good………………………………………. still………………………………………. still have negative thoughts about him………………………………………. ass kisser………………………………………. just got that from ellen………………………………………. maybe mrb wants to make me look abd before mra………………………………………. but mra words are positive………………………………………. thx u lord………………………………………. but I am sorry lord………………………………………. I cant be positive towards mrb right now………………………………………. From the very beginning he is negative………………………………………. He is weird………………………………………. He is freak………………………………………. He is beyond this world………………………………………. Really weird………………………………………. And there will be no food for me………………………………………. Thx god………………………………………. I am suffering………………………………………. The more I suffer………………………………………. The more he listen to my pray………………………………………. It is what they said ……………………………………….

It is this date……………………………………….

I don’t get spv yet………………………………………. The pressure is on………………………………………. The squeeze is tight………………………………………. The sad is present………………………………………. In the name of lord………………………………………. He will help me………………………………………. If he allows………………………………………. He will make me happy………………………………………. He is the greatest………………………………………. He will make miracles………………………………………. He will give me spv………………………………………. He will give me loa………………………………………. He will give me grants ……………………………………….

Mrsx is negative……………………………………….

She asked me to take another master………………………………………. I cant do that………………………………………. I don’t have money………………………………………. The grant is only for doctor………………………………………. In the name of lord………………………………………. He will help me………………………………………. If he allows………………………………………. He will make all is well………………………………………. He is the greatest………………………………………. He will make miracles………………………………………. He will make her change her mind………………………………………. Or else………………………………………. He will give me another spv………………………………………. Or else………………………………………. He knows best………………………………………. But pleae………………………………………. Don’t make me sad………………………………………. Don’t make me afraid………………………………………. I am afraid………………………………………. You don’t love me anymore………………………………………. You abandon me………………………………………. You will not………………………………………. I will run after you………………………………………. All the way there………………………………………. Above and beyond ……………………………………….