neighbors...............

sorry i dont help............... i was tired............... i was busy............... i hope they understand............... i hope they dont hate me............... if i can i will help............... it is for sure.............................. if he allows............... with all my power............... lord forgive me please............... dont be afraid to be hated............... they will not hate............... dont be afraid cannot help............... there will be time i will be able to help ......................

mri got one...................

happy for him................... happy for me................... dont be jealous................... he will send a better one................... if i heard their stories................... about their adventures................... i got very jealous................... they got accepted by all................... they meet them everywhere................... with many different persons................... got jealous................... i should not be jealous................... must be true to heart................... must be loyal................... with my own principal................... making love with love................... believe it................... he will send someone .................................

it was ascending............

it was narrow............ it was both............ it was very crowded............ it wowed me............ i am amazed with my own capability............ can conquer my afraid............ and i dont feel scared at all............ that was him............ wasnt it............ i think so............ i believe so............ i was afraid of uphill............ i was afraid of poky............ i was afraid of stuffy............ and i vanquish all ........................

in the name of lord.

......................... ........................ i hope the jam is not for long......................... i wish mri is not bad mood......................... i hope this holiday is fun......................... thx lord......................... a lotf of first experiences......................... tho there are many times the negatives tried to squeeze in......................... but i can keep myself to be positive......................... visiting some new places......................... make it as a lesson.................................................. as the material for story telling......................... if i meet my friends......................... the bad ones would be teacher......................... the good ones would be supporter......................... mood booster......................... i think he was there all along .....................................

she cooked...

............... and it got stuck on my head.................. it happened twice.................. as it is overdone.................. the portion was holy moly.................. and it was served at night.................. bad for the health.................. make fat.................. when in the noon i had a lot of occasions.................. eat a lot with friends.................. i know she didnt know those kind of stuff.................. but it triggers me to the max.................. wish there is no othr time like this.................. this kind of incident is suck.................. me not gtting angry.................. me not getting food.................. her not cooking.................. if the cooking is done.................. it will be in the right moments.................. i know lord hated this.................. hate what i did.................. i deserve punishment.................. as i made sad.................. i wonder what it will be.................. scary tho ...............................

water.............

i didint turn it off............. luckily i come home early............. very early............. i think he made me go home early............. as i rarely do that kind of thing............. but this thing still got stuck on my brain............. how come i am that stupid............. dear lord............. that was scary............. hope this will not happen again............. hope it will not cost arm and leg............. hope it will not be broken............. hope he help............. wish will never forget again............. wish everything will be alright .....................

little applicants...........

the others think bout money........... in the name of lord........... hope the newcomers will be plenty........... hope there will be miracles........... hope the efforts done by coworkrs getting results........... hope many persons love this place........... wish many people apply to this haven........... wish there are many positives spread all over the places........... positive bout this spot........... wish all negatives are dissappearing........... from public eyes........... hope the inside people who have negatives thought........... come to their senses........... hope they become more positive........... hope they move soon........... for the sake of the whole unity ....................

29 jul 19 senen........

staiusn terminal jalankaki........ otw ponorogo by bus........ otw rumah by ojek........ eror........ otw sumoroto by ojek........ makam........ eyang harti........ otw kertosari by dian........ rest........ otw sumorot by ciprut........ pamit........ otw smg by 2 cars me ciprut dian hendra........ diner at gayam........ allahuakbar..........................

28 jul 19 minggu........

hotel bandung........ cekot........ toko oleh2........ otw smg........ tol aku........ makan di brebes........ pantai d tegal........ ibas drive........ pom gayam........ pul by ojek........ mas irfan........ otw stasiun by ojek........ otw madiun by train........ allahuakbar........

27 jul 19 sabtu........

haris hotel ngantar ibas........ maribaya........ hotel........ mlm braga........ hotel........ allahuakbar........

26 jul 19 jumat........

kawahputih........ wrg........ masjid........ hotel eror........ mall btc........ hotel........ pijet........ mlm cihampelas........ allahuakbar........

25 jul 19 kamis........

kampus........ toko kain w pamela n anjun........ lombok ijo........ kampus........ pulgsk........ mlm k ibas by gojek........ otw bandung w eri........ smg brebes ibas........ brebes cirebon aku........ cirebon sumedang ibas........ sumedang kawah putih aku........ allahuakbar........

24 jul 19 rabu........

wrg........ kmpus........ kampus 4 mt leli........ sdn palebon 1 penerjunan magang 3........ kampus........ lunch at ws wirh coworkers........ banjun bdwi bmei momo pjoko catur........ kampus........ indosat........ gramed........ petshop........ allahuakbar........

23 jul 19 selasa........

wrg........ kampus........ pulgsk........ allahuakbar........

22 jul 19 senen........

cimb........ wrg........ kampus........ allahuakbar........

21 juli 19 minggu ...

............................... 21 juli 19 minggu........ mranggen at rahman........ pul........ cafe........ alfa........ allahuakbar........

that place...

............ that time............... that position............... wow me.............................. i did get what i wish............... getting that officer............... as i secretly pray for it............... and it surprises me to the core............... it was a great surprise............... dont forget to be grateful............... thanking him for what he done............... i was so very much moved............... up to now............... i cant get it out of my mind............... how come he do this............... what did i do to deserve this............... i know he is capable of everything............... but stilll.........................

dreaming in...........

the pilgrimage related things........... can do it over and over again........... so many times........... as the dream connects........... becoming model........... who got contracts all over the place........... around the whole world........... including that part........... the one near the cube........... and that he will arrange the schedule........... he will give so much space that i will calmly do my things........... whorshipping him...................... asking things to him........... thanking him endlessly........... and asking for more........... hot dank........... afraid of being ungrateful........... as the dream connects........... becoming youtuber........... with a lotf of [viewvers........... that in effect producing a lot of money........... making the video about travelling........... all over the world........... as the dream connects........... as i am having my study........... someone found me........... the one from that kind of people........... and offering the gigs........... the ones that will make me travelling around the world........... as you see........... the trigger is the hope to get my study........... and it overwhelmes me........... making my mind goes crazy........... spiralling and wandering all over the corner of the brain ......................

mrn..

........... he comes again into my mind............. keep hoping............. it hurts me............. and i am being stupid............. the memory is so strong............. the dream is so powerful............. it makes me overwhelmed............. if it is good for me............. i hope he bring it back to me............. if it isnt good for me ............. i hope he put it away from me............. from my mind.......................... if it isnt good for me............. i hope h help me to forget all about it............. i hope he help me erase this memory............. but the wish still lingers on............. hoping he is not bad............. hoping that if it is bad............. it will change into something good............. somthing wonderful ...........................

it is broken again.

........... making me sad............ i can do my exercise regularly............ i love doing it daily............ maybe more............ i was so good when it is new............ i did my best as much as i can............ then it is broken............ then i become crazy............ then i get it fixed............ but i have doubts............ that it will broken again............ so i did none after it get fixed............ lately i do it again............ but today what i am afraid of is happening............ dear lord help me please .....................

fortune is not always coming from jobs.....

working is a kind of whorshipping..... reliance doesnt mean we do nothing..... endeavor means we do our best to try..... fortune is just kind of a surprise from him..... we dont know our fortune..... our fortune knows how to find us..... it is written in his book of destiny..... is it mean i dont have to think about business for my old days..... not like that isnt it..... that is so wrong..... as being reliance doesnt mean doing none]..... being reliance means doing everything in our capability ........

my fingers hurt..

....... making me afraid......... what if something wrong happening to me......... what is i have something wrong in me......... that thought is scary......... rest assure......... he plans all......... including this......... may it a good thing or a bad one......... everything is on his book......... so just send him a positive thoughts......... and expect positive feedbacks from him......... it will make me happy......... i will be happy .....................

always be grateful.

............ thus i feel at peace............. everything will feel enough............. not wanting more............. not jealous of others who have things............. i do have things............. different from others............. as he think i am needing it............. every person has its own need............. so he gives each one of us differently............. according to our need............. very person has their own desire............. but that desire is not always right for us............. he judges it well ..............................

thinking bout it..

.......... i should give tip............ then............ when he is alone............ stupid me............ will do that next time............ find the right moment............ when he is alone............ and expect nothing from him............ expect nothing from this world............ but expect things from him............ the other one............ the one that control everything............ it is the only way............ it is the only right thing to do............ he loves this kind of things............ we do good deeds............ he gives us good deeds ..........................

do u know why i help you....

........................ do you think it is love............................ no it is not............................ i just give a pure help............................ not love............................ so you get the certificate............................ get a better job than yesterday............................ gt the better job with better salary............................ get a better future............................ so i hope you use this opprtunity well............................ dont ask for ridicilous things............................ i help doesnt mean i am rich............................ i do have my own problems i do try hard to find fund............................ when it is time for paying your study ..........................................

mrs....

.......... i am busy.............. a lot of schedules.............. all are cramped.............. if you want to meet me.............. you take my schedule.............. not vice versa.............. i didnt lie.............. i did had plans.............. you take my schedule.............. you look it up.............. choose the one that you can fill it in ..............

all roads ar blue...

........... just like making you sad.............. they are blue.............. they polute my eyes.............. making me melow.............. just kidding.............. something appears.............. the sun of my days.............. the wannabe lover of mine ............................

on the way there.........

no cop......... find love......... no negative effect......... that are the hopes......... thx god......... it did happen......... all are safe......... lord is with me......... sorry if i cant entertain you......... sorry if dont like your stuff......... sorry if take a long time......... if there is next time.................. i hope i can be better........................................... may he help me always n....................................

my fav...

.............. lord................. did you tell him................. something weird................. i get a vibe................. or maybe it is just my imagination................. i love you with all my heart................. physically tho................. as i can only see from afar................. not having the courage to get closer yet................. assuming things................. work hard................. humble................. simple................. not having bad attitude ...............................

20 juli 19 sabtu..

.................... gym...................... toko petshop...................... pyl...................... potong...................... pul...................... wrg caf............................................ allahuakbar......................

19 juli 19 jumat..

.................... wrg...................... kampus...................... allahuakbar......................

18 jul 19 kamis...

................... wrg...................... kampus...................... bakso bujangan wi rempong...................... kampus...................... allahuakbar......................

17 juli 19 rabu....

.................. kampus...................... pulgasik...................... gym...................... superindo...................... allahuakbar...................... ......................

16 juli 19 selasa .

......................................... 16 juli 19 selasa...................... kampus...................... penjahit...................... allahuakbar......................

writing in journals..

............. the ones that has cooperation agreement with us............... up to now i cant write on my own journal............... as the rule says that the staffs of the journal will not have points............... if they write on their own journal............... but now we have agreement with some journals............... it is good for me, for us, for all............... i can write an article and submit it to them............... and it will have high opportunity to be published............... but it says that submitting there will cost some............... but i hope it is okay............... as by far i only submit to those two journals of my friend............... the free ones............... the ones that give me money for submitting articles............... but on the bright side............... i will have my articles on many different journals............... that is good............... that is so good .................................

owner of cafe..

............. weird............... suddenly appear from the back............... so the back is the house............... but i dont see his car at front............... i think the back is a connected part with a house............... and it has its own garage............... want that one in a way............... as it provides stability............... doesnt it............... want the next part to reopen again............... so it will be more people come and go............... but quiet is also good............... i can finish a lot of projects............... in the name of lord .................................

mrd............

the old one............ like to show off............ his collections............ his prime era............ power syndrom............ want to have power............ he said many times that he want to resign............ where is the prove............ he still exist up to now............ in the name of lord............ just give him a positive thinkings............ just send him positive energies ............

then i dont have a sincere heart.

........... when they ask me to be slave............ to translate their sciencetific texts............ yesterday i didnt have the sincere heart too............ when they make me slave again\............ to translate in the new place............ now i think i am willing to do it............ may lord give me permission............ but i want reward from him............ want that thing............ love related thing............ want that thing............ study related thing............

he comes.

............. lord.............. afraid to tell.............. you tell.............. lord.............. scared.............. lord.............. i love you.............. lord.............. i miss you.............. lord.............. i want to be close to you.............. lord i want to run to you .......................

the pageant things disturbed me then..

..................... it is disturbed me now....................... the dsturbance is the net....................... then it is like this....................... just realize it....................... i was always losing against it....................... in office....................... in mall.............................................. in cafe....................... lord....................... help me please....................... make me diligent....................... dont make me lazy....................... put me away from laziness....................... put me away from satanic laziness .........................................

i did report it to him...

............... you can ask him directly.................. i cant communicate it well.................. to you it is difficult.................. impossible.................. he understands everything.................. i dont understand a thing.................. saying it alone is a difficult process.................. i am afraid i can deliver the message well.................. i am worried that i will make it worse ..................

dreaming it....

.............. hoping it.................. wishing it.................. sorry if my dream was wrong.................. but it is difficult not to do it.................. difficult to prevent it.................. just a very little trigger can makes it in full speed.................. creating a whole lot of train of thoughts.................. uncontrollable.................. it is you who are great ..................

i am happy...

............... i accept it.................. i accept myself.................. i accept you.................. i accept lord.................. i accept thm.................. i accept my fam.................. thx u lord.................. thx u parents.................. thx u all..................

it is for you i prepare myself..

................ lord.................. bring him back to me.................. bring im back here.................. bring him back into my life.................. bring him back to my heart.................. otherwise.................. send me a replacement.................. otherwise.................. dont give me a painful heartache.................. it hurts a lot.................. i cant bear it.................. sorry for so many requests ..................

that waiter is gone.

................. making me cry inside.................. hurt isnt it.................. then again.................. we didnt do a thing for all this time.................. but at least he is there.................. i can see him.................. making me happy inside.................. weird.................. lord.................. i want to be happy.................. am i deserved to be happy.................. with that person.................. till the end of time.................. with you too of course ..................

mrsd...

........... initially i think good.............. i think positive.............. i think she will say yes.............. but it is nit like that.............. my predictions are all wrong.............. in chat she didnt answer.............. she said no directly face to face.............. she is afraid that the animal will die.............. and she had to replace mine.............. then again.............. it is all plans.............. my plans.............. i didi have high hop on that thing.............. but he say no.............. dont know why ..............

mrb....

.......... thx lord.............. he gets the second place.............. nobody knows i helped him.............. just him and pam.............. and lord.............. dont want reward from him.............. want something from Him.............. may he see it.............. may he see me.............. may he grant my wish.............. i did good deed ..............

the dream dream..

........................ the pageant thang.......................... the vocal group thang.......................... i hope it is all true.......................... then i will go to all provinces.......................... bringing the group.......................... doing promotion.......................... then there will be pageants.......................... in all those provinces.......................... the building.......................... the venue.......................... the parking lot.......................... the securities.......................... the stage.......................... the decoration.......................... the lights.......................... the shootings.......................... the press.......................... the judges.......................... the television.......................... the staffs.......................... the fashions.......................... the singers.......................... the agendas .......................................... the national costumes.............. the talent.............. the workshops, modelling, presenting, acting.............. the photoshoot.............. the runway.............. the charity..............

mrsj..

.................... she got bad scores actually...................... but mrsp interfere...................... she aske and or formes me to change the score...................... initially i am reluctant to do it...................... but now...................... it had happened...................... i dont know...................... let it all be in his hands...................... i hope all of this is positive in the making...................... and this will give positive impacts in the future .............

mrw......

............... he tries to contact me..................... it is near the judgement dday..................... is it for that purpose..................... in the name of lord..................... i jope he doesnt have bad intention for me..................... lord is the greatest..................... i hope he put the bad people far away from me..................... i hope he is nice to me......................................... ....... i hope he love me .....................................