You come..............

And i got so stressed.............. Alot.............. I smoke a lot.............. Not like usual.............. I rarely smoke.............. That is the sign.............. That i got depressed coz you are here.............. Oh my god.............. I want to get smashed.............. To get beaten up.............. Maybe the pain.............. Is not like this.............. Not even near..............

Thinking negative...................

Because of last night................... Please dont................... Being recruited................... Being passed................... Being selected................... Is a good thing................... Being among them................... Is god’s gift................... Be grateful................... Be thankful................... And he will give more................... Much more ...................

And it comes again...................

You have black thought................... About yourself................... Coz something happens................... Something bad................... And you blame yourself................... You think it is your fault................... And it destroys you................... Eating you alive................... Inside out................... Lord help me...................

The feeling...................

The news................... The theme................... Are all combined................... Make you down................... Scary................... But i should not be scared................... Of it................... Of them................... I just am scared of god................... I cant describe the feeling................... It is not scared................... It is disgusted................... Dont know................... The torture................... The hierarchy...................

Skin of paradise..................

Brown of heaven.................. Sound of angels.................. Heavenly creature.................. The perfect sculpture.................. Flawless.................. The role of saint.................. Entertain everybody.................. Not choosy.................. Perfect material.................. For tying the knot.................. To sail the white.................. To wander the soft ..................

Thx u for the mouth..................

Thx u for the kiss.................. Thx u for the view.................. Thx u for the eye.................. That was extra ordinary.................. Not complaining.................. Just want u to know.................. My other wishes.................. To be with the angel.................. To taste.................. To hug.................. To love.................. To do..................

Hope the two corners..................

Knowing me.................. And take me.................. Into their life.................. But not the middle.................. But usually.................. The not becoming the yes.................. That is what i usually get.................. Because i always thought negatively.................. Now i change.................. Positively i think that.................. My wishes will come true.................. Coz god loves me..................