Wednesday, September 27, 2017

18 sep 17 senen……………………

Kampus…………………… Pulgsk…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

17 sep 17 minggu ……………………..

Klinik…………………… Nyuci motor…………………… Wrg…………………… Alfamrt…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

I am late……………..

They come after me…………….. Their preparation is error…………….. Amazing…………….. This class makes me stressed…………….. Want to curse…………….. Want to do fasting…………….. But meet her…………….. Want to go home…………….. But afraid if suddenly she looks for me…………….. And that is true…………….. Today I replace her teaching two classes…………….. And I was forced to eat…………….. I cant refuse…………….. Afraid to refuse…………….. And wait for second session is very long…………….. Be patient is needed ……………..

Monday, September 25, 2017

This fight is a lonely fight……………………………

You ask me to fight alone…………………………… I fight alone…………………………… Up to now…………………………… I want to survive…………………………… I want to do that god…………………………… Come to me quick…………………………… Send me someone please…………………………… I sacrifice all…………………………… All of me…………………………… For my fight…………………………… My lonely fight ……………………………

Stupid……………………………

Very stupid…………………………… Love someone who cant be owned…………………………… Love an asshole…………………………… But I did that…………………………… I did suffered because of an asshole…………………………… I did fall for an asshole…………………………… Long time ago…………………………… I hope he is dead now…………………………… In the deepest graveyard…………………………… Underground…………………………… I cant touch him anymore ……………………………

This is a lonely fight……………………………

You ask me to…………………………… And I do it god…………………………… But I hope you come to me quick…………………………… I cant bear it…………………………… Send me someone…………………………… God…………………………… Quick…………………………… Oh god…………………………… Want to move there…………………………… Live there…………………………… With new situation ……………………………

Just like my dream……………………………

Just like the tease…………………………… In the movie…………………………… In the story…………………………… It is all just a mirage…………………………… It all can happen…………………………… Here…………………………… With his help…………………………… With his guidance…………………………… With his blessing…………………………… And all will happen…………………………… With his love ……………………………