i was very angry to that man..............................

the leader of the religion.............................. he said that.............................. lord intentionally give the wrong part.............................. to those who are stubborn.............................. when they had been given so many clues.............................. now i am angry to him.............................. as you are intentionally lead us the wrong way.............................. lead me the wrong way.............................. i am furious.............................. i hope you dont do that.............................. i hope you put me in the right path............................... i hope you give me happy ending

dear lord…………………………………………

from this day onwards………………………………………… i swear to myself………………………………………… to you………………………………………… that i will make myself happy………………………………………… no matter what………………………………………… no matter how many times i fail………………………………………… no matter how many times i cry………………………………………… no matter how many times i stumble………………………………………… i will always risa again………………………………………… and again………………………………………… to get my part on the spotlight\…………………………………………

my latest pray……………………………….

for them………………………………. the best ones………………………………. so I can get infected………………………………. not going there like them………………………………. anywhere else but there………………………………. that would be nice………………………………. and I am being crushed again………………………………. my stomach………………………………. she is boss………………………………. cooking for me and us………………………………. so it is like forcing me to eat………………………………. I cant say no………………………………. there would be unwanted things happening………………………………. if I reject………………………………. so I must accept………………………………. finding another way to do diet………………………………. hope he help ……………………………….

lord……………………………….

I swear I want to cry………………………………. but I cant………………………………. the chest is very heavily pressured………………………………. in the name of lord………………………………. see what I predicted is right………………………………. my things are being crushed………………………………. I cant handle it………………………………. but it is not like before………………………………. when I was so furious………………………………. he is the greatest………………………………. I hope I can bear it till the end………………………………. we will see………………………………. now I am in silence mode………………………………. but when she went home………………………………. I will rearrange all as I want it………………………………. if he allows………………………………. I think it is a good solution………………………………. I hope he help ……………………………….

14 nov 18 rabu………………………………………..

kampus……………………………………….. alfa……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..

13 nov 18 selasa………………………………………..

kampus……………………………………….. gym……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..

12 nov 18 senen………………………………………..

kampus……………………………………….. mlm ped……………………………………….. net……………………………………….. ngaji……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..