little kids at campus………………………………………..

many times seeing them……………………………………….. in the hall……………………………………….. making me want to have kids……………………………………….. lord help me please……………………………………….. allow me to have kids……………………………………….. allow me to adopt kids……………………………………….. many of them……………………………………….. lord help me please……………………………………….. allow me to be a parent……………………………………….. guide me to be a good father……………………………………….. lord help me please……………………………………….. allow me to love kids……………………………………….. allow me to prove myself……………………………………….. to you……………………………………….. showing all my strength……………………………………….. to the max……………………………………….. for you ………………………………………..

when I am in the traffic light………………………………………..

I become afraid of that satan……………………………………….. he comes to my mind constantly……………………………………….. when I am in the parking lot ……………………………………….. I am afraid of satan……………………………………….. everybody seems like him to me……………………………………….. when I am in the street……………………………………….. I am afraid of satan……………………………………….. the one behind me looks like him……………………………………….. or just my imagination……………………………………….. I don’t know……………………………………….. I am going crazy……………………………………….. lord help me please……………………………………….. lord protect me please……………………………………….. the things in the fence makes me afraid……………………………………….. when sis goes to home town……………………………………….. getting afraid of being left alone……………………………………….. when she is here……………………………………….. getting afraid that the satan will disturb her……………………………………….. lord help my family please……………………………………….. lord protect my family please ………………………………………..

I remember the satan in the pray room………………………………………..

I am very afraid……………………………………….. want to cry……………………………………….. it is very heavy burden……………………………………….. a lot of problems come to me……………………………………….. when I watch film……………………………………….. I am afraid that the satan come……………………………………….. I become sensitive to all things……………………………………….. it is very uncomfortable……………………………………….. lord help me please……………………………………….. lord protect me please……………………………………….. in the morning I am afraid again……………………………………….. in the name of lord……………………………………….. lord help me please……………………………………….. lord protect me please ………………………………………..

that man......................

i get a very bad vibe...................... lord help me please...................... i am very afraid...................... i hope my insticnt is wrong...................... i hope you protect my family...................... my sis...................... my place...................... god help me please...................... i cant help it...................... this feeling ruins me...................... god help me please...................... i did stop things like that...................... meeting people...................... meeting strangers...................... i just use my own strength...................... my own power...................... to entertain myself...................... to make myself happy...................... in my bubble...................... i hope you are here...................... in it...................... my bubble ......................

so it is amazingly how great you are...................................

it comes simultanously................................... yesterday it was the satan................................... not it is the fund................................... i dont know lord................................... it is up to you lord................................... i dont know what you want................................... but i will take everything you give me................................... until my last drop of blood................................... i am tired to protest................................... i am tired to ask................................... you never answer................................... maybe you did give me answer................................... but i dont want to hear................................... the first means that i shoul stop................................... from the satan world................................... the later means what................................... should i stop pursue my study................................... okay then................................... so be it ...................................

the satan comes again\...........................

lord help me please........................... i am afraid........................... afraid that he will come to my place again........................... afraid that he will come to office again........................... afraid he will harm my family........................... lord help me please........................... i am sorry i have a bad wish........................... kill him........................... so he will not be in this world........................... but seeing around........................... usually you take the good ones........................... and you left the bad ones........................... lord help me please........................... give him a good conscience'........................... so he will not do bad things agaiin........................... not harm me again........................... not harm others again ...........................

she asked me to go to pkl.............................

i dont know why i get angry............................. maybe there is a satan inside me............................. though the suggestion is good............................. she asked me to do silaturahim............................. to pa's family............................. thus it should not be broken............................. and i realize............................. that it has been awhile since i go to ngaliyan............................. lord help me please............................. make me go there............................. give me time............................. and intention............................. thus this entity do really go there............................. socializing............................. joking............................. in your way .............................