lappy suddenly died……………………………………………………………

making me stressed…………………………………………………………… all my notes are gone…………………………………………………………… I forget what I should do…………………………………………………………… thx lord it can live again…………………………………………………………… but the idm is error…………………………………………………………… being stressed again…………………………………………………………… restarting again…………………………………………………………… thx lord the idm is working…………………………………………………………… keep being confused though…………………………………………………………… thx lord I can finish all the answer key for English class…………………………………………………………… but after that keep being lost ……………………………………………………………

men under trees……………………………………………………………

scary…………………………………………………………… my thought is going back there…………………………………………………………… so this is it…………………………………………………………… the correlation…………………………………………………………… you made me afraid…………………………………………………………… in a way…………………………………………………………… you force me to go home…………………………………………………………… in the name of lord…………………………………………………………… I will take your rule…………………………………………………………… so there it is…………………………………………………………… keep the positive mind…………………………………………………………… I hope all will be fine…………………………………………………………… getting pray full and smoothly’…………………………………………………………… watching all movies without disturbances…………………………………………………………… and there are a lot of more…………………………………………………………… you are the greatest …………………………………………………………………

news from isdb………………………………………………

keep getting email from them……………………………………………… making me hopeful……………………………………………… I hope it is blessed by him……………………………………………… I hope I can pass……………………………………………… I hope I can study abroad……………………………………………… in the name of lord……………………………………………… I hope he knows my intention……………………………………………… he is great……………………………………………… I hope he assist me……………………………………………… I am afraid……………………………………………… of not being helped……………………………………………… of not passing……………………………………………… getting hurt again……………………………………………… I keep thinking of recommendation letter……………………………………………… then it was like that……………………………………………… next I must according to the rule……………………………………………… so I can pass……………………………………………… in the name of lord ………………………………………………

they talk politics…………………………………………

I am stressed they talk bout it………………………………………… I don’t understand………………………………………… they talk in detail………………………………………… as if they know all………………………………………… as if they truly grasp all the occasion………………………………………… they are great………………………………………… they understand it………………………………………… I am not………………………………………… I ignore it………………………………………… I just manage my life………………………………………… maybe this is why I get annoyed………………………………………… maybe I am jealous………………………………………… they have vast knowledge………………………………………… but sometimes they talk too much………………………………………… they seem fanatic………………………………………… spreading the fear………………………………………… making the fear………………………………………… provoking to hate the center………………………………………… let it be………………………………………… just read them trough………………………………………… don’t put it into your heart …………………………………………

if there are bad people in workplace…………………………………………

lord it is scary………………………………………… then I lost the election………………………………………… not I got rejected for study………………………………………… I think some have bad intention………………………………………… I think this is human error………………………………………… I think this is man made………………………………………… I think it is not natural………………………………………… lord help me please………………………………………… protect me from bad people………………………………………… put them far away from me………………………………………… put me close to the good ones………………………………………… make me the good one………………………………………… I will disperse all the good you give me………………………………………… everywhere………………………………………… everytime………………………………………… everyway …………………………………………

don’t want to go home for long…………………………………………

there is error………………………………………… no activities………………………………………… the thought is negative………………………………………… lord help me please………………………………………… I hope you give me assistance………………………………………… give me program………………………………………… till it is close to the d day………………………………………… thus I have reason………………………………………… truly stressful thinking bout going home………………………………………… dear lord………………………………………… send positive into me………………………………………… bout being there………………………………………… bout being here………………………………………… bout me………………………………………… bout them………………………………………… bout all …………………………………………

the award is not for me…………………………………………

it is for the workplace………………………………………… it is for the children………………………………………… it is for this land………………………………………… being rejected is suck………………………………………… it hurts a lot………………………………………… it hurts like hell………………………………………… the pain is excruciating in the beginning………………………………………… now try to be patient………………………………………… calming myself………………………………………… looking for the positives behind all this………………………………………… hoping he show the reason………………………………………… as now I have a lot of negatives ………………………………………… I hope what I think is wrong………………………………………… I hope they are nice to me………………………………………… I hope they don’t have bad intention for me …………………………………………