remembering the bastard...............................

remembering being a victim............................... lord protect me ............................... thus i devote myself to lord............................... offcie did protect me............................... thus i will devote myself to them............................... being grateful............................... this is my way to show them............................... that i am thankful............................... that they protect me............................... tho i dont know for sure............................... but i have a positive thoughts for them............................... and it is good............................... he loves this kind of thing............................... and it is also good for me............................... for my soul............................... keeping it being healthy............................... and strong physiscally and mentally............................... to keep the faith worshipping him always ...............................................

he askes me who accompany me....

................................... i will say it is lord....................................... i will have no fear for the bastards....................................... i will only fear him....................................... that is good plan....................................... but the reality is suck....................................... it is difficult to do so....................................... human are always scary to me....................................... scarier than ghosts....................................... they are devil in disguise....................................... most of them....................................... wearing sheep fur....................................... to decoy me....................................... to fool me....................................... but i aint a fool....................................... do i....................................... i think so ...................................................

getting angry thinking of fam.......

................................ it was the dark forces....................................... i believe so....................................... suddenly my mind was led to that direction....................................... how bad my fam was....................................... how they control my life....................................... how they will not let me free....................................... how they will not let me be....................................... how will they change me....................................... just be it....................................... let me be....................................... remembering him....................................... getting close to him....................................... running to him ...........................................

what cikam did.....

......................... the pa acted out.............................. act in departing time.............................. act in getting room.............................. and i have to in a room with him.............................. thx god evrything was ok.............................. my part.............................. wishing for the night.............................. wishing for the d day.............................. wishing for the after party.............................. wishing for getting home.............................. wishing for safely arriving home.............................. thx god for all of that.............................. the place.............................. watching the vids.............................. queueing for the pool.............................. there are people in the pool.............................. a lot of couple.............................. wishing they are real copules.............................. for sure.............................. ang there are more.............................. much more.............................. come and come again .................................

23 juni 19 minggu.....

..................................... hotel cikampek.......................................... lamaran dinug.......................................... otw smg.......................................... rest area palimanan.......................................... rest area brebes.......................................... smg wrg.......................................... nyampe dg selamat.......................................... allahuakbar..........................................

22 juni 19 sabtu......

.................................... with fam pa ma sis.......................................... at bulik.......................................... otw cikampek.......................................... rest area brebes.......................................... hotel primebiz.......................................... mlm with fam +++.......................................... dinner at sate maranggi.......................................... allahuakbar.......................................... ..........................................

21 jun 19 jumat..........................................

kampus.......................................... maksi w pjoko bikha banggun at sendok bebek.......................................... kampus.......................................... allahuakbar..........................................