2 nov 22 rabu

 

2 nov 22 rabu

hotel

indoabsen

\allahuakbar

i need to finish my paper

 

i need to finish my paper

in the name of lord

must be strong

working on the paper

tho it is very hard to do so

hope he gives me so much strength

hope he gives me a way that is bright and shiny

must realize this

how stupid i must be

i cant do things without his signs

it is cruel

it is scary

in the name of lord

 

in the name of lord

hope with me here

help everything

or help a part of it

or help someone here

all has been planned by him

there must a thing why i am here

there is a cause he place me here

just enjoy the moment

meeting them

getting benefit from them

having networking with them

and all positive things come out of it

the one near here

next to me

mumbling of the uncomfortable phrases

i get contaminated

get the negativity touching me

rubbing all over my skin

it seems

the speech is deliberately being dragged

as long as possible

it is the closing

just say thank you

and explain what the next steps should be

thats all

everybody will understand just that

but it is not the case

the long sentences

seems never end

angel in disguise

 

angel in disguise

him

suddenly

attacking my eyes

wandering in my brain

lord

tell him

i want that

it is crazy

itchy is all over me

heat burns me inside out

it is annoying

i really want that

that creature

come from almighty

he creates extremely beautiful creature

make me eyes sparkling

seems so perfect

anget disguise as commoner

will be happy if get that

it is so close

yet it is so far away

want to scream out loud

but there is no power in me

these hands cant reach that

these words isnt able to describe that

looks like rainbow

colorful scene coloring the grey world

stand tall up high reaching the sky

the length of horizon endless in the sight of commoner

1 nov 22 selasa

 

1 nov 22 selasa

hotel

pijet

pul

myroomallahuakabr

indoabsen

hotelppg

allahuakbar

maybe it is that

 

i was drag

and i am highly self conscious

holy moly

it seems all eyes are on me

it was weird

i tried to let go of her grab

but i could not

i just let her drag me

from the last row

to the second row

usually

i go crazy because of this kind of thing

but now

i just let it be

i dont care

i try not to care

tho i still care

but not as much as it used to be

now i think differently

i react differently

because of those dreams

my unrealistic dreams

my unrealistic wishes

my crazy hopes

i dream to be famous

and be crazy rich

and it happens just now

in that kind of sense

maybe it is that

or maybe it is him

who forces me to act this way

to react this way

to think differently from before

as i got older

i should get wiser

but i dont think i reach that level yet

all in all

my way of thinking is just the same with the youngrr me

the kid version of me

31 okt 22 senen

 

31 okt 22 senen

wrg

kampus

hotel

ppg

allahuakbar