Thursday, June 29, 2023

never changing lane

 




suddenly

i assign to the part

suddenly

there is a problem

they force me to take care of it

without clues

i am confused

it seems they make me scapegoat

thankfully

there are angels

they give me clues

i can handle that

now i believe

there is him

there is angels

there is his people

around me

protect me

guide me

help me

love me

stupid me

i should run to him

always and always

again and again

never distract

never changing lane


will be succesful

 



what i want is

everything is ready now

we accept things now

we collect things starting now

and we will have it abundancely later

but it is not happening

it is not ready

it is not accepting

it is not receiving

it is not collecting

it is not compiling

just give it all to him

let him decide

i am afraid

we will get little

and they blame me

they make me scapegoat

lets pray

that that will not happen to me

everything will be fine

we will get many

we will be succeed

we will be succesful

Wednesday, June 28, 2023

they do they pace

 



what i want

everything in fast mode

all in my pace

but it does not

they do they pace

making me furious

at first

now

i dont care

but still hoping

if anything happen

they will not blame me

they will not make me the scapegoat

that is what i am afraid of

if we get little

if we get few

if there is not much

they will blame me

i hope not


so tight

 



remember that time

he allowed me with different color

i should take that color

it is rainbow time

it is colorful era

all colors matter

i should take it

stupid me

now it is forbidden door

i did ask permission

and they did not allow me

and i tried again just now

still

they di not allow me

it hurts a lot

i am bleeding inside

i am suffering

believe me

it squeezes my heart so tight

i cant breath

may he help me alwys

at my own pace

 



Feel distresses

Nowhere to go

And want to run away for tomorrow

That schedule is beyond my imagination

hope everything will be ok

need to be calm

need to do things

one by one

slowly

at my own pace

and pray to him

may he help always

may he be here always

may he accompany always


28 juni 23 rabu


 28 juni 23 rabu

angkringan

buah

jus

wrg

allahuakbar


Tuesday, June 27, 2023

27 juni 23 selasa


 27 juni 23 selasa

wrg

kampus

pul

dokterhewan

allahuakbar