10 april 24 rabu
budetutikpakdeyanto
pakdekamto
budeaspakdesukir
momfall
myfault
holymoly
allahuakbar
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before
the regret always comes lates
it is always like this
imagining all the white porridge
turn into rice
what abot that
squeezing the exploded heart
i should retreat with all my might
should do that
but i didnt
he wins
he converts me into something else
something evil
something dark
something scary
it scares me
will i always be like that
i hope not
hope you save me
and bring me to light
one hundred percent depending on you
all my hope and all my wish
should put my pray in your hand
in your care
stupidity taking over
telling the heart to go bad
deliciously worse
against all odds
against all i believe
the crash in unavoidable
coilition to the explosion
idiocrasy laughing out loud
humbleness is nowhere to be seen
you send them those kind of things
and it affects me
it hits my heart dearly
making me confused
i lost everything
feel like that
all the lights shines me before
its all gone
blown by the whispering wind
that carry the news of the unfortunate events
that destroy all hope and dream
of good people
and beyond
including me
making me wonder
whether i deserved this
i know i had many sins
i know i am stupid
but still
it is free to dream high
Taking a long time
Holly molly
Should be patient
I need to harvest it from all over the world
personally
i feel i have a very thin patience
evrything irritates me easily
and that is bad
that is dangerous
he doesnt like that
should learn to be better
learn to be calm all the time
everytime and everywhere
what should i do tho
need something to ignite my calmness
need path to follow
need guidance to lead