Mister A,
is Mister Amazing,
is Mister Awesome,
the kind of soul
that touched my heart deeply.
That was a very long friendship,
woven with laughter,
with tears,
with countless unspoken words,
yet suddenly you snatched him from me.
I know I should let him go,
though my hands tremble to release,
but I trust,
you put him in a better place,
where there is no sickness.
A land without pain,
a sky without storms,
a world where sorrow has no voice,
and hope never dies,
where every dawn is gentle.
Hope you are with him all the time,
hope your embrace never leaves,
hope you love him all the way,
the way I could not always show,
the way he truly deserved.
Hope you make him safe and happy,
shielded from every shadow,
dancing in eternal light,
where angels sing soft hymns,
and every step feels free.
And hope you tell him I miss him,
tell him my heart aches,
tell him silence is heavy without him,
tell him I whisper his name at night,
tell him I still need him here.
A lot.
More than words can carry,
more than oceans can hide,
more than time can soften,
my missing has no end.
Remembering that he was always there for me,
in my bad times,
when the world collapsed,
when no one stayed,
he stood tall beside me.
In my good times,
he laughed louder than I did,
celebrating victories
as if they were his own,
sharing joy like sunlight.
In my terrible times,
when life broke me apart,
he held my pieces together,
with patience,
with strength I borrowed.
Mostly in my dark times,
he became my light,
a lantern burning in endless night,
a compass pointing home,
the sunshine you sent for me.
And I should not take him for granted,
yet sometimes I did,
forgetting how rare he was,
until the silence came,
and I realized too late.
Now it feels I lost everything,
the anchor of my soul,
the bridge to my hope,
the listener of my cries,
the brother my heart chose.
Don’t know where to look,
the corners are empty,
the streets feel hollow,
the laughter is gone,
the world is too quiet.
Don’t know where to hold,
my arms find no warmth,
my hands touch only air,
the pillow soaks my tears,
the nights stretch forever.
Don’t know where to go,
every path reminds me of him,
every corner whispers his name,
every place is a memory,
every step is heavier.
Don’t know where to rest,
for rest was with him,
in simple talks,
in gentle smiles,
in the comfort of his presence.
Rest assure I am happy,
that you put him with you,
because if he must leave me,
let it be to your embrace,
let it be in heaven’s light.
Now I just can send this pray,
woven with tears,
wrapped with longing,
carried by faith,
to reach where I cannot go.
May this pray arrive in his place,
softly,
gently,
as a whisper of love,
as a reminder he’s not forgotten.
Wherever he is,
let him feel me near,
let him know I still care,
let him know he lives in me,
forever and always.
