The blessing stuffs..........................

I dont know hwere they go.......................... It is empty.......................... I cant handle it.......................... You dont help me.......................... Maybe you do.......................... But i dont understand.......................... Which part is you.......................... Where is your sign.......................... What should i do.......................... Many questions.......................... Unasnwerable ..........................

The purifying process..........................

Hope it works.......................... Then i will be clean.......................... Then i will be closer to you.......................... No more the red devil.......................... The dark sides.......................... Hope it really is.......................... But the hope doesnt always come true.......................... But i should be positive.......................... You are positive.......................... You infect me..........................

The talking about kid..........................

I dont know what she thinks.......................... Hope she agrees.......................... I have the sincere heart.......................... On my purpose.......................... as i know it how.......................... but the other doesnt agree.......................... maybe she doesnt understand me.......................... or she thinks i am not true.......................... or she knows better.......................... and i am the wrong one.......................... this is the second time.......................... i put it in your hands now..........................

Dont use ur feeling..........................

You will be ruined.......................... This world is cruel.......................... You must be tough.......................... Put your poker face on.......................... Anything happens in your heart.......................... Dont show it to others.......................... They will destroy you.......................... Into pieces.......................... Till you cant get up anymore.......................... They do that..........................

The uneasy feeling.....................

The stomach..................... The back..................... The front..................... Everywhere..................... Torture me to death..................... Dear lord..................... Please help..................... Take them all away..................... I beg you .....................

Meet her tomorrow.....................

Maybe that will fix everything..................... That is what he wants..................... The longer i stay away..................... The bigger punishment i get..................... That is the thought..................... And that is the reality..................... I think..................... How should i know..................... I am not the eye..................... Not the fortune teller either..................... Just predict..................... As the brain wants how it is.....................

The imaginary mistakes.....................

Ruin the mood..................... Blame the self..................... Ask a lot of questions..................... Unanswerable ones..................... Many should have been done..................... Is it all just in my head..................... Or is there in the reality..................... Cant tell the difference..................... Ambiguous consciousness..................... Really confused..................... Literally insane..................... Lets go to the asylum.....................