Then....................

I suddenly realize.................... That this thing.................... That get me away.................... Far away from you.................... Block me.................... From your blessing.................... Thx god you are not here.................... Although i miss you.................... Very much.................... But this is dangerous.................... Evidently.................... God still loves me.................... Hate it.................... When there is a good video.................... But i cant donlod it.................... I wish i am that guy.................... The guy who is expert.................... Expert in the tech.................... So i can process it ....................

I used to spent a lot of money....................

To run away on my holiday.................... So that they will think of me.................... As a lonely person.................... Now.................... I hate holiday.................... Coz i love to go to work.................... I am weird.................... They come.................... But they will go tomorrow.................... So i have to have a place.................... Just for one day ....................

I hate holiday...................

I have nothing to do................... Before................... I am confused................... When i got my holiday................... I dont want to be in my room................... Coz i dont want them................... To think of me................... That i dont have friend................... I dont have family................... I dont have places to go................... Now it is the same................... But i will survive................... Coz this is a free place................... My own place ...................

Your definition of heaven...................

In your words................... In your sentences................... In your book................... Is far from this kind of thing................... But then again................... You created this sort of thing................... And the other one................... The evil kind of way................... The one that doesnt have the luxury of independent................... You created that too ...................

Getting home..............................

Accidentally take the key to my room.............................. It is a sign.............................. That i get very stressed.............................. And you add problem to my pain.............................. My lap is error.............................. For a moment.............................. But you fix it.............................. Thx lord.............................. You are amazing.............................. Above average.............................. Way way above ..............................

As easy as that you cast me away..............................

You abandon me.............................. Then i see.............................. You dont really love me.............................. There are many plans.............................. I made.............................. For both of us.............................. But.............................. Now you left me.............................. You throw me away.............................. Without hesitation.............................. Still hoping.............................. Afraid of hoping.............................. Keep hoping.............................. Lord.............................. Help me.............................. If he is good for me.............................. Make him close to me ..............................

That cloth place..............................

I did get some of them.............................. But this brain wants more.............................. I can contain myself.............................. But my heart gets restless.............................. Damn.............................. Want to scream so bad.............................. Your call.............................. I want to go to your place.............................. To do the routine.............................. But i cancel it.............................. for no reason.............................. actually there is a reason.............................. i make it up.............................. and i hate what i did.............................. and it adds more pain ..............................