Evidently.......................

There is food....................... So....................... Last night i starve for nothing....................... Stupid....................... I didnt know....................... It was that way....................... It did happen....................... I want to cook....................... But i am lazy....................... Whereas when she is here....................... I want to cook badly....................... But i cant....................... Because the kitchen is ruled by her .......................

That time i was just a child.......................

Dont have money on my own....................... I should surrender to their want....................... I should say yes....................... Although i dont agree with them....................... I cant say no....................... I cant have my own opinion....................... Now i am what i am....................... I have my own money....................... Can do what i want....................... What i like....................... The one which is not because i have to....................... The one that makes me happy .......................

The news come............................

They go............................ I can be at home............................ I dont have to go places............................ But i have to go places............................ I must do something int those places............................ Then again............................ I want to be here............................ It is comfort here............................ It is nice............................ Feel relaxed............................ Enjoyed............................ Fun ............................ Close to you ............................

People should be ready for death............................

Any time any where............................ I should be ready for death............................ If it would happen............................ That i would die in this cloth............................ So be it............................ It would make me happy too............................ In a way............................ I think............................ So just let everything flows............................ As they are............................ Wear the cloth............................ Love the cloth............................ Let them talk as they wish ............................

The cloth vs the dead............................

I love the cloth............................ It is from her............................ It reminds me of her............................ Make me happy............................ Then she said about the dead............................ It connects............................ The dead and the cloth............................ Make me think............................ About death............................ I am not afraid............................ I dont care............................ I think the death doesnt scare me ............................

Then....................

I suddenly realize.................... That this thing.................... That get me away.................... Far away from you.................... Block me.................... From your blessing.................... Thx god you are not here.................... Although i miss you.................... Very much.................... But this is dangerous.................... Evidently.................... God still loves me.................... Hate it.................... When there is a good video.................... But i cant donlod it.................... I wish i am that guy.................... The guy who is expert.................... Expert in the tech.................... So i can process it ....................

I used to spent a lot of money....................

To run away on my holiday.................... So that they will think of me.................... As a lonely person.................... Now.................... I hate holiday.................... Coz i love to go to work.................... I am weird.................... They come.................... But they will go tomorrow.................... So i have to have a place.................... Just for one day ....................