Got jealous again………………..

It feels that I am being wrongfully treated……………….. Some gets many……………….. Some gets none……………….. Just like me……………….. The part says that it is coz of the sector……………….. But……………….. The part says it doesn’t have to be like that……………….. It is free……………….. Every part can do all sectors……………….. They are expert in it……………….. Including me……………….. Fuck……………….. Being cocky……………….. Is good……………….. Isn’t it ……………….. I don’t get the testing sector……………….. I don’t get the school sector……………….. Feel sad……………….. But god has plans……………….. Much more better than that ………………..

I am afraid………………..

I wont get the sit next to the window……………….. Then again……………….. Everything comes for a reason……………….. Including that……………….. If that really will happen……………….. But I hope not……………….. And the thought of him comes again……………….. Fuck……………….. Go away……………….. Remembering the stone in my head……………….. Praying good for them……………….. Hence……………….. Praying good for me……………….. For myself……………….. Pray nice……………….. Hope they get well……………….. With their love ones……………….. They said they had ones……………….. Hidden away……………….. Pray nice……………….. And they will get well too……………….. With their secret encounters……………….. Secret adventures……………….. Hence……………….. Is it the same for me……………….. They say so……………….. It is scary……………….. They say it lightly……………….. As if nothing wrong……………….. As if what they do is not wrong……………….. Being in relation with the love ones far away hidden……………….. And being in relation here……………….. With others……………….. Makes me afraid……………….. What if……………….. I get a lovely one……………….. But secretly he treats me this way……………….. But I believe in karma……………….. As long as I play nice……………….. I will get nice people……………….. Do I play nice……………….. What the hell ………………..

The one that got away…………………..

Always irritating………………….. It feels like a very big stone………………….. Inside my head………………….. Very burdening………………….. And they call………………….. And I just move here………………….. What the hell………………….. Then again………………….. Remember that thing………………….. That everything comes for a reason………………….. Including this………………….. I sit here coz of reasons………………….. Hidden reason………………….. Don’t know what it is………………….. But there must be something behind all of these………………….. Personally………………….. I just want the source …………………..

A very nice driver…………………..

Makes me want more………………….. Imagining things………………….. Got the text………………….. Beautiful text………………….. Got involved………………….. In a very complicated way………………….. But in a very lovely way………………….. Someone is watching me………………….. Got very aware………………….. Self aware………………….. Curse………………….. Want him feel what I want………………….. Want him want what I want………………….. Really god …………………..

The story of them…………………..

Telling the truth………………….. About something they did………………….. Hidden away………………….. They got lucky………………….. Then I feel jealous………………….. Hot damn………………….. Remember the promise………………….. Not expecting anything………………….. It is just me………………….. Like this………………….. Always………………….. Want someone………………….. But someone doesn’t want me………………….. Want to get close to someone………………….. But it is only one side crush………………….. Damnnnnnn …………………..

So god…………………..

Help me please………………….. It is sickening………………….. Remembering the promise………………….. Not to expect much………………….. Not to expect at all………………….. And then………………….. He is………………….. The one………………….. Already has a family………………….. Wife and kids………………….. Hot damn …………………..

But you always appears on my mind…………………..

Fuck………………….. want to curse………………….. want not to think about you………………….. unthink you………………….. the ones who are saucy………………….. the ones who are caught by my eyes………………….. I think………………….. They are having partners………………….. Just remembering the other group………………….. It is like that………………….. The ones who are shiny………………….. Are not available………………….. Fuck …………………..