I want to go around…………………

But I cant go around………………… The reason is that I don’t have a motorcycle here………………… And there is no guide………………… The solution is gojek for replacing the motorcycle problem………………… And the internet for replacing the guide problem………………… Money wise? ………………… I should let it go………………… I should make it easy………………… If this is a positive thing………………… There will be replacement from god………………… We don’t bring money to the grave………………… So………………… Let just relax over it …………………

All day I have been sick…………………

Starting from last night………………… Tired………………… Fever………………… Get a lot of ac………………… Because of smoking………………… Because of eat fast………………… God………………… I am back to you………………… I don’t have anybody here………………… I don’t want to be sick………………… I want to be strong………………… If I am sick………………… There will be no one to take care of me………………… I hope I can take care of myself………………… I hope I have the strength …………………

Actually…………………

There is one………………… In my place………………… While I am waiting for gojek………………… Seeing them having date………………… Hiks………………… Make me sad………………… They are good looking………………… And they get partner easily………………… Me? ………………… Oh god………………… Help me………………… Give me the best………………… The best for you………………… If my heart is sad like this………………… Only you the one I remember………………… Because you are the only one who can………………… Send me somebody………………… Nobody else………………… That is why………………… I ask you………………… To send someone for me …………………

Just before there is a friend from program …………………

Who will make an activity in the weekend………………… I hope it is true………………… And I hope I can join them………………… If it is not true………………… If I cant join them………………… I hope I am not sad and depressed………………… Like the last weekend………………… Completely crazy………………… There is no activity………………… There is no motorcycle………………… Very confused………………… The second plan for weekend………………… Is to go around by myself………………… By gojek………………… Or practicing………………… Or anything else………………… That will make me happy for sure …………………

I want the program to be full…………………

From morning to afternoon………………… From Monday to Saturday………………… So I don’t have free time………………… Because when I am free I become sad………………… Stressed………………… Depressed………………… Because I don’t have friends………………… Because I don’t have activities………………… Because there is no motorcycle to go around………………… The reality is not like that………………… The program is only short………………… A lot of free time………………… The solution………………… Fill the time by practicing………………… Praying………………… And practicing again …………………

Maybe there is another reason…………………

Maybe don’t believe in what they say………………… That seems very expert………………… Because in my brain………………… I still consider them the same level as me………………… But in reality it isn’t like that………………… The reality is that they do much more clever than me………………… In the term of religion………………… The solution is trying to have a positive thoughts………………… Will do that………………… That is also promise to myself …………………

Maybe there is another reason……………………….

Jealous because they are more pious than me………………………. Jealous because their religious knowledge is much more better than me………………………. The solution is………………………. Often read the quranic verses ………………………. Reading the Islamic articles………………………. Reading Islamic stories, novel, poem, drama………………………. Will do that………………………. That is promise to myself……………………….