thinking about the one that will be my target..............

aiming her to be my supervisor.............. afraid that she will think i am stupid.............. the more i read her works.............. the more i feel stupid.............. but i will keep moving forward.............. in the name of lord.............. i hope he help.............. with his help i hope she will be my supervisor.............. with his assistance i hope her heart will be moved ........................

being grateful.........................

today i finished one text......................... thx u lord......................... but remembering there are still more to come......................... there are many texts at home......................... i must not be stressed......................... i will do it slowly......................... i will do it one by one......................... till i finish them all......................... till i complete them all ......................... with help from him of course ..............................

today it is extraordinarily cold...............

what the hell............... may lord help me............... to make me strong............... to keep holding on............... till the end of time............... so many jobs............... lord help me please........................ let me do that........................ help me do that ,.........................

food from her.....................

making me irritated..................... so many of them..................... feeling like rubbish bin..................... everything was thrown at me..................... so very annoyed..................... dear lord..................... give me patient..................... make me calm..................... gide me to the right way..................... save me from badness ............................

bad news........................

there is a robbery in the neighborhood........................ it is scary........................ may lord protect me from bad people........................ may lord protect me from laziness........................ i need to do this project........................ i need to finish this project........................ i need to finish that project........................ so many jobs........................ so little times........................ may lord bless me always ..............................

someday........................

if i hold myself dearly........................ lord will reward me........................ with what i want........................ the greatest partner in the world........................ making me happy........................ making us happy........................ keeping us safe........................ from the start to the end........................ with him accompanying us........................ all along........................ never leave us ...........................

onyx grunge infinity.............................

meeting again in the time in the place............................. it has been thrice............................. making me quite shocked............................. but i am happy all the way inside out............................. thx to lord for all of this happening in me............................. giving me a change that i never expected before............................. seeing him in a flesh............................. hoping there will be another time............................. watching him ............................. meeting him............................. talking to him............................. dating him............................. marrying that peson............................. or more than that............................. hoping to the fullest............................. may lord grant this wish .................................