23 okt 22 minggu

 23 okt 22 minggu

shrndrmh

allahuakbar

should be

 

should be

him

asking for help

selling my old lappy

find snack

watermelon seed

should be

move forward two days

let alone i get signal

but me being stupid

very much

hate myslef ofr that

a lot

but all in all

there must be something in it

there is a reason which i dont know about

for sure

22 okt 22 sabtu

 

22 okt 22 sabtu

alfa

wrg

sore klinik

apotek

wrg

allahuakbar

21 okt 22 jumat

 

21 okt 22 jumat

jumatan

alfa

apotek

wrg

kampus

allahuakbar

the dream is to be in the far away land

 

the dream is to be in the far away land

always moving

always commuting

never stay in one place

going places

going around the world

visiting many places

seeing all kinds of scenery

admiring your works

admiring you

but it is not happening

and i dont see sign that it will happening anytime soon

i think i am going to lose my mind

i think it is near the end

and i feel being trapped here

it is scary

those who dont want it

they get it

lets pretend that i dont want it

but it failed so many times

as i really want it all

as he can read mind

lets just maximize all the things here

i should

 

i should

pay my own study

since i get the lecturer fund

or maybe after i finished my course in malang city

or maybe after i finished my course in canada

a lot of what if

and it makes my head hurts a lot

i am in pain

lets just all be all

everything has its own time

and including this

maybe then is not the right time

maybe this is the right time

i should make it clear

dear you

please give me a sign

any sign

i am afraid

wanting

 

wanting 

wanting a car

wanting to continue study

thinking

i think i dont need car

but if he gives me

i will accept it

of course

i think i should prepare my study

with my own money

may god help me

i hope i have enough

afraid that it is not enough

but must believe that he will make a way