some

 some

some of them get the kprogram

some of them get the pprogram

i dont get either of them

it hurts me a lot

it makes me in painful state

i dont like this feeling

i hate this situation

i wish i can make myself better

i promise i will do my best to improve myself

so he will think that i deserve all programs

then he wil give me a lot of programs

and i will be very happy